Sorry for the mistakes

Xander's Pov

It was already 8:30 when we reached home, though we had to go to the party but after all this I don't think both of us would want to go anywhere.

I asked Sia whether she wants to go or not but as usual she didn't speak anything.

" Uh lets eat dinner then" I said looking away from her

" I'm not hungry " she said and was about to go, when I hold her wrist

" Sia Please, you are tired. Have dinner and then take rest " I said softly but the stubborn head didn't gave any heeds to my words

" Dinner, now " this time my voice was powerful, she looked at me but then again looked away

" Sia, don't test my patience " I said but she ignored me, for the umpteenth time

" This is the last time I'm telling you, have your dinner right away or I will feed you just like Afternoon. Believe me, I would love to feed you like that Again " I said firmly, it was like I'm giving options to a small kid

" God, where is everyone?" I shouted loudly, just then the maids and the other helpers come out

" Serve the dinner " I ordered

After lots of wiggling and cold stares, she finally had her dinner, not with me but near-by me.

After dinner we both went to our room

Sia slept after a while, after making sure that she is in deep sleep, I whispered sorry in her ears and kissed her hairs.

I have gained this habit of saying sorry and kissing her head every night after she sleeps.

With this I also slept or atleast I tried to sleep

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Today, I am taking Sia to the doctor for her tests and Everything.

She's been neglecting her health like anything.

Xander's outfit

I was all ready sitting in the living area, just when she came down looking beautiful like always.

I mean how does she manage to look the cutest and the hottest at the same time?

Sia's outfit

Ignoring me she straight way went to the dining area and started having breakfast.

'Thats a good change, X' I smiled seeing her

Its a huge change, As she don't eat breakfast, but today she herself went to have it.

Woah!

I came back again and sit in the living area, when after few minutes she came and started going outside

" Sia, wait " I said, she stopped but didn't turn back

" Uh we have to go to the doctor " I said

Listening me, she again started walking

" God, woman why can't you listen to me once? " I asked

" You're not going to office today, we are going to the doctor " I said or more like ordered

" Sorry Sir but I have to go to the office as I have important work to do " she said firmly

" Didn't you heard me, I said we are going to the doctor for your checkups " I stated sternly

" And I said that I have to go to the office " she said in a same tone as mine

" Sia Please, for once just come with me " I asked softly

"I'm sorry Sir, I can't skip office. My colleagues have work and so do I " she stated and again started walking, but I was fast enough to pull her closer to me

Looking at her, I took out my phone and dialed a number, all this while she was very close to me, which gave me jitters all over my body

" Yes, Today there is no office. Circulate this to each and every member. Right now " I ordered and cut the call

Within a minute, Her cellphone beeped

I knew very well that it consists of the same information, which I ordered a while ago

Holding both of her arms, I again pulled her closer, and looked into her eyes and spoke " now your colleagues are also not going to office, ok? "

We were very close, very very close. Our nose were touching, and at that moment I just wanted to kiss her senselessly but I can't

I just can't!

" Now, lets go " I said leaving her

With this I started walking only to realise that she is still rooted at her place.

" Please Sia, come " I said almost pleadingly

She simply came and then sit in the car with me, before igniting the engine, I cleared my throat " just so you know, Dad wants your medical reports, you know regular checkups and stuffs "

" I'm telling you this so that you should know that I didn't do anything " I sais slowly

" I know, Sir " she said looking infront of her

Sighing, I started the car and we hit the road

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Although the regular checkups, don't take that much of time but I wanted Everything to be more than normal, so it took time visiting the specific doctors and everything

Without her noticing, I took her to the psychologist doctor, where the doctor gave some medicine and told me that Sia needs to show emotion, be it anger, happiness, tears, sadness or anything.

She needs to eat healthy and be away from the negativeness as far as she can.

How could I tell the doctor that the negative energy is me!

Apart from this, the doctor told me so many little things to take care of that can stop her nightmares, and the panic attacks

All this while, Sia was waiting outside like an obedient child as I asked the doctor to do that

We spent the whole day in the hospital, although we had lunch and this time also She didn't showed any tantrums that she won't eat.

Much to my relief, she had her proper lunch

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After all the reports and checkup, we came back home only to get my blood boil by seeing the person in my living area sitting on one of the couches.

' Florence Lilac'

Seeing us, he stood up and hugged Sia, she reciprocated the hug, while I just made a fist

What the fuck? Can't he see that her husband is standing one feet away only??

" Hey Sia, how's you? You didn't came to party last night so, I thought to check on you. Are you fine? " Flower said ignoring my existence

Before she could reply, I said " umm Flower, Right? "

He gave me a forced smile and corrected me saying " its Florence, Mr. Black "

" Yeah Whatever, both sounds the same " I said mockingly

Sia was a mere spectator in all this.

" So, you want to check on MY Wifey? Why? Any special reason? " I asked him emphasizing on 'my'

" Umm yeah, you both didn't came to the party last night. That's why" he said embarrassingly

" Yeah we were coming, but you know  my wifey looked stunning lasr night in that dress and I couldn't control, then one kiss leads to another, and the rest is history. You know! " I said smirking

He just smiled awkwardly

" Hey, come on Sit " Sia said to that Florence

And before I could realise they both were talking and smiling. Sia was also smiling but alas that was not because of me or for me!

Atleast she's smiling, someone is making her smile and thats enough

Jealousy is an understatement right now, I wanted to kill this guy infront of me.

As I was about to interrupt, my gaze fell on to my life who was smiling and that melts my heart

At that instant I remember the doctor's word " take the negativeness out of her life "

I took a step back and smiled seeing her, clearing my throat I said " uh you guys talk, I'm in my office. Florence have dinner with us "

Florence acknowledged while Sia just stared at me blankly.

Realising I'm the most toxic person in her life make me feel like shit. My heart is burning. I left to my study and took out one of her letters

I open the letter named as " Open when you Miss me "

Before opening the letter, a tear slip from my eyes which I didn't take care to wipe off

"
Xander,

Before anything you should know that I miss you more and more

By the way what happened that you are missing me? Did we had a fight? Am I not talking to you? Or have you again lose your calm?

Well whatever it is, you should know that I'm missing you more than you miss me, after all you're my strength baby. You gives me confidence which no one does. You give me reason to live  freely

At the very moment, I might be angry, I might be hurt, I might not talk to you but Xander you're my life, my Rockstar, my everything.

And you know right, I don't like your sad face, it makes me sad too.

Close your eyes and think that I'm with you, very very close to you, now slowly open your eyes and Tadaaa you will feel me near you.

Wipe that tears!

I love you a lot Xander
Sia "

My whole face was in tears, and I closed my eyes to feel her near me just when I felt someone cleared their throat

Opening my eyes, I saw Sia in real near the door standing.

"You're really here " I mumbled to myself

" We are going to have dinner " she said looking down at my lap where her letter was lying

That's when realisation hit me, she saw me. Shit!

I didn't wanted her to see this.

I wiped my tears frantically and looked down to avoid her stares.

" Uhh ye-yeah, I'm c-coming " I said looking down

After looking at myself in the mirror, I left the room like nothing happened in the first place

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They both were seated on the dining table, Sia was looking backward in my direction while Florence was talking to her.

I went and took a seat, " I hope you have good time" I asked smiling towards Florence

"It was good, Mr. Black. I'm impressed by your house though" he said

" Thanks " I said

And then we started eating dinner, for the first time in years I was feeling Sia's gaze on me, but I have no guts to look at her direction, so I kept eating.

After dinner, Florence left and I left to the garden to escape from Sia's gaze

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Xoxo,
Marbil