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Stress cleaning.

That's where i was at right now and where i had been for a good few hours. At some point, i had nothing left to clean and resorted to making a mess so i could clean it once again because i didnt want to sit in my own thoughts.

I was sure Alba would be happy with it though, the woman had basically nothing to do tomorrow considering i just did her job for her.

The fifty thousand dollar check weighed down in my pockets so heavy that i figuratively felt my pants coming down. I promised my mother anything for it so she had no choice but give it to me, no questions asked. However now... now i had the weight of the world on me.

I finally stilled my hand from wiping down the already clean table once again and sat down on the chair next to it. I really needed to chill.

After taking a breather, i sat up and decided it was time to put a stop to the hurricane inside my brain. It was Beth i was doing this for. She needed me, and I wouldn't let her down.

I pulled out my phone, ready to complete the first task of the mission my mother had assigned for me when the doorbell rang, interrupting me.

I placed my phone down on the squeaky clean kitchen island before heading to the door.

I couldn't help the groan that left my lips when i realised who it was on the other side of the door.

"What, Justin?" The boy rolled his eyes at my rudeness when i turned around and headed to the sitting room, not waiting for his response.

"It's so nice to see you too, Sofia." He shot me a grin before plopping down on the sofa situated in the middle on the room. The cream coloured couch dipped slightly at the weight of him.

"Why are you here?" I asked, not beating around the bush as i sat opposite him.

"Gheez, what got your panties in a twist?" He frowned, probably not used to me being so hostile considering we were becoming friendly in the past while. I couldn't blame him, it wasn't his fault today was the worst day ever. But then again, maybe it was.

I couldn't help but scowl at him as I remembered his little scene with Chloe earlier.

"Is there a specific reason you showed up at my house unannounced or are you here just to be an annoying jerk?"

"First of all, i did tell you i would," he started, crossing his arms, the sleeves of his black V-neck tightening around his biceps.

I tried not to look as he continued talking, "and i don't see you kneeing me in the balls either for it so just tell me why you're so cranky."

I rolled my eyes at him, but continued ignoring his question nonetheless as i got back up on my feet and went to grab my phone from the kitchen where i had dropped it when he interrupted me.

I could feel him trailing behind me but i pretended I didn't care.

"Why are you mad at me?" He continued. "Is this because of what happened at school?"

I immediately turned around at that and scoffed at him.

"What do you mean, 'what happened at school?'" I questioned as i raised an eyebrow.

"Come on 'Fie, you know," he chuckled "we both know you bumped into us on purpose."

I was ready to roll my eyes at him again when he walked closer, placing a hand on my elbow as he invaded my space.

"Are you jealous?" He whispered with a smile.

I let out an exasperated sigh before pushing him back.

"You're not that important babe," i smiled sarcastically "why would i be jealous?"

He rolled his eyes at me as if i was a child he couldn't agree with. It irritated me further, even though what he was saying was maybe a quarter true.

One eighth true.

"Come on Sofia, then tell me what's actually wrong." The previous teasing tone disappeared as he stared at me.

I looked away from him. "It's nothing Justin just go back home."

This proved to anger him further as he took another big step towards me. "See you say it's nothing and then you don't look me in the eyes. If it's not about Claire then what is it?"

I frowned at him. "Claire?"

He looked confused as he nodded. "Yeah, the girl at school."

I couldn't help but laugh at that.

An anger filled, tears at the eyes laugh because this boy was absolutely ridiculous.

"You don't even know her name and you expect me to be jealous of her?"

"That's not her name?" The hazel eyed boy seemed surprised.

"No Justin, that's not her name!"

"But she let me call her it.." he whispered it but i heard it anyway. I groaned at his idiocity before turning around, letting him face my back.

How can he just fool around with her if he doesn't know her name?

How can he make that stupid look he had on his face then when he doesn't even know her name?

If that was what he looked like when he stared at a girl whose name he didn't even know, i couldn't help but feel so embarrassed for feeling special in the slightest bit when he was pretending to be my boyfriend.

I thought maybe a small bit of it was real, maybe when we kissed or maybe when he'd stare at me so intimately i had to look away. But clearly, he's just a great actor.

That was why i was mad, alongside the horrendous situation with my drug dealer friend but I couldn't tell him about either of it. So i walked away from him.

Or planned to before he grabbed my arm and pulled me flush against him.

My breathing laboured as i stared up at him, merely a few centimetres between our faces. My heart started beating so fast i was sure he could feel it under the palm he had laid against my ribcage.

"Tell me what's wrong with you, or i'll kiss you." He threatened.

My eyes widened at that. I probably looked stupid, so close to his face but still, i replied "do that and i'll slap you." I tried to say it confidently but my voice stammered slightly.

He clenched his jaw tightly. "You're mad that i was flirting with her." He stated rather then asked.

The tension I previously felt disappeared with a poof as those words left his perfect lips.

I looked away, annoyed but didn't reply.

That must have been enough of an answer as he tightened his grip on me enough to immobilise me so I wouldn't run away but not enough for it to hurt.

"Why?" He whispered in my ear, goosebumps appearing at his close proximity. I contained the shiver that wanted to pass through me and remained rigid.

"Why what?" My voice trembled but i didn't have time to feel embarrassed.

"Why do you care?" He asked slowly, pausing in between each word.

At that i snapped out of my trance and stepped away from him.

I ran a hard through my hair and laughed a humourless laugh.

"I don't, why do you think i care?" My voice rose slightly, agitated and stressed enough from this day as it was, I didn't need Justin making fun of me right now.

"You don't care?"

"No! No i don't." I looked him straight in the eyes this time. It was a lie but it didn't matter, i wanted him to leave already.

"Not even a little bit?" He seemed to get angrier by the second. I shook my head no.

"Then why'd you kiss me?"

My heart stopped for a second.

"If you don't care about me with other girls, if you don't have any feeling for me whatsoever, then why did you kiss me?" He repeated but I didn't have an answer.

Why did i kiss him? I asked myself but I couldn't bring myself to answer.

"I don't know about you Sofia, but i don't just kiss my friends out of nowhere for no reason whatsoever!" He continued, a frown sculpting his beautiful face, making him seem more upset then i had seen him in a long time. "And don't give me that fake dating bullshit because it was in private, and away from any eyes. So.. why?"

I opened and closed my mouth like a fish but i didn't know what to say. I couldn't even tell myself why i decided to kiss him that night, let alone him.

Justin waited and waited for me to answer before he nodded and turned around to leave.

"W-wait, Justin.." i walked after him but he just opened the door and left without looking back.

I couldn't help but felt like i ruined something.

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"How does he manage to come in here, after groping some other stupid girl," i mumbled to myself as i angrily threw out clothes from my closet onto the floor, "and then make me the bad guy?"

I was sure i looked crazy to anyone walking past my room but thankfully i was home alone.

After sitting in my own guilt for a good hour I decided that, i was not the bad guy damn it!

He was the one who made it more than clear he wasn't interested in me, otherwise he wouldn't have jumped at the opportunity to hit on other girls, right?

To be fair, i had ended our deal so he was more than free to.

I just wanted us to be us again. I didn't want him to pretend anymore. I should've known that would change a lot of things.

When i saw him with Chloe, it confirmed everything for me. It was our deal than held him back, that changed him into the person i thought he became. So yes i was angry, because my stupid heart let me get attached to that version of him and i was hurt. I thought it was my imagination, that what we had didn't mean anything to him.

But if it didn't, then why was he upset? Why did he get angry when i said I didn't care?

What did this even mean for me?

Why couldn't i answer?

Why did i kiss him?

Most importantly, why am i having feelings for Justin freaking Adams damn it?!

I let out an exhausted sigh before pushing my thoughts away to the side and picking out the emerald corset style dress hanging on a hanger and placing it on my bed.

The dress had a slit going up mid thigh and the cutest back, making me seem sexy but not indecent. It was perfect for the event i promised my mother to attend.

"All you'll have to do darling is attend a charity on behalf of CR. Black Enterprise and steal me some files. Easy peasy." (Excuse the poor name for the business, i just cant be bothered to come up with good ones 😭 you guys get the gist though lol)

'Easy peasy' said my mother.

Cause its so easy for an eighteen year old to steal classified business files.

If i ended up getting arrested for this, I didn't know what i'd do. But it was worth the $50K that would save my friend's mother. So i sucked it up, and pulled up my dress.

Hopefully this would get my mind off Justin. Even if i'm only there to sabotage his father.

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Hi lovelies, this is how i imagine Sofia's dress.

If you dont like it you can imagine whatever you'd like 🫶

Any questions dont be afraid to ask, sometimes i forget you guys cant see whats in my brain and i tend to make my chapters confusing.

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