I had rambled to Justin for hours about my day with Alec when in reality, it hadn't been all that fantastic. However, it still felt as if i had the responsibility to have this decade long crush on him, and therefore owed Justin an earful of just how exciting it had been to spend a day with him. In reality, it felt dull. Forced.

I wasn't sure if it was because my feelings were fading or because of the guilt at the pit of my stomach nagging at me for kissing Justin and then continuing to pine after Alec. Though I seriously doubted i could lose feelings this easily when i had been crazy over him for so long.

Maybe it was Alec, even he seemed like he was forcing conversation, trying to move things along. Maybe he was the reason our vibe was so off.

Either way, i couldn't help but feel quite disappointed in myself for everything that had happened. I wouldn't say I regretted kissing Justin, especially with the way he's listening to me so intently right now with a cute little smile on his face and a dimple poking his cheek. But I didn't know how to feel about it.

So, i did what i do best and pushed the thought farther down a darker hole and ignored it, like i had done the previous days. It's my new talent.

After sharing a few more laughs with him and sharing experiences about our days, Justin stood up and stated it was time for him to go home.

I led him to the door like the responsible girl i am when he stopped and turned around, smirking at me. My heart stopped for a second, breathing coming to a halt not knowing what to expect. Was he going to kiss me again? This seemed to be one of my biggest worries recently.

When he placed his hand on my shoulder and leaned in to my face, I almost forced myself to shout 'no' outloud. Instead, i shut my eyes tightly and waited.

Embarrassment flooded my system as i felt the brush of his lips against my cheek instead and heard the low (and madly attractive) chuckle in my ear.

"Don't worry 'Fie, wont kiss you," he whispered and i swear i felt my face catching fire. "Not yet." He winked and turned back around to leave.

I quickly shut the door behind me after squeaking out a 'bye' and fanned my face as soon as it slammed behind me.

Fuck, I really needed to get myself in check. This is not how any girl should react to the asshole that is Justin Adams.

•

After walking back to my room and calming myself down, i finally checked my phone for the first time since Alec and i parted.

Alec<3 : today was really fun Fie. Hope you'll find it in yourself to ditch Justin again and go out w me again ;)

I couldn't help but smile confusedly at his text. The nickname, alongside with the rest of the message, did a weird thing to my heart. That was the first time he called me that nickname, it had always been Justin who called me that. And i used to hate it, i always thought it sounded so stupid. But recently, i had grown accustomed to it and really, it made my heart race whenever i heard it. However, hearing it from Alec made me feel almost .. guilty? It was so silly, it was simply just a shorted version of my name but it was causing such a ruckus inside my heart.

Me: haha I'll think about it :)

Now that I finally had time to myself to think, i realise that Alec certainly didn't talk or act as if he thought Justin and I were really 'partners'. I racked my brain trying to figure out if i had ever let it slip that we weren't actually, but i couldn't quite remember anything. Maybe Justin and I hadn't been that great of actors?

With embarrassment filling up my stomach for the second time tonight, i picked up my phone and texted Justin a 'we need to talk' and then placed it to the side.

It was time things went back to normal again.

•

"You know, telling me we need to talk and not replying after is considered psychotic."

I laughed at Justin's serious face and waved a hand dismissively. "I'm sure you've seen more psychotic things."

He shrugged, not denying it as he sat next to me on the school's cafeteria bench. We both had free classes so while the cafeteria isn't full to the brim, allowing us to have a calm conversation, its not empty either.

I couldn't help but notice some of the girls from my class eying us curiously, obviously wanting to hear anything coming out of Justin Adam's infamous mouth but i ignored it.

"What did you want to talk about my little psychopath?" He slung a hand around my shoulders and i scoffed before pushing it off.

"We need to talk about Alec." Justin let out a groan and slumped on the table in front of us.

"Do we really?" He complained, loud and childish.

I scoffed. "Yes, we do. Stop complaining you big baby, you're the one who offered to help me so kindly before this whole mess started." I reminded him.

He rolled his eyes dramatically before gesturing with his hand for me to get on with it.

I took a deep breath, locking my hands together on the table to establish a more serious mood but all it did was make Justin stare at me amusingly.

"Stop looking at me like that." I mumbled, removing my hands and sitting on them instead. He raised his hands up in defence and let out another one of his addicting laughs.

I cleared my throat. "What are we doing?"

He raised an eyebrow and my vagueness. "I'll need you to expand more on that princess, what are we doing?"

I ignored the nickname he seemed to call me more and more often now and continued. "About Alec Justin, you made me lie to him that we're a thing and now i don't know what the story is anymore." I complained, leaning in to him.

He sighed and nodded his head. "I know, that was a bad idea on my part," he tried saying but i interrupted him with a loud 'yea no shit' which earned me a death glare so i quietened down again, letting him finish. "We'll just have to make it clear we ended things."

"How?" Although we had forgotten to act like much of a couple recently, we still seemed close due to the fact i spent more time with him than my own family.

I tried to ignore the thought however, because i didn't want to ask myself why the fuck that was happening in the first place.

"I really don't know 'Fie," he let out a breath "Maybe i'll talk to him about a new girl today and he'll get the hint."

I nodded in agreement, picking at my nails to avoid asking if he'd be making up the girl or if he already had one in mind. There was no point, if i wanted things to go back to normal again i had to stop being interested in Justin's love life and focus on Alec. Plus, I'd seem silly because who would even care about such thing in this scenario anyway?

"Okay, seems like a plan."

•

"Wait what do you mean he's going to tell him about another girl?" Beth asks, slurping up a gummy worm, "Alec will just assume he's cheating on you."

"I agree with Beth on that one," Elena chimed in as she walked from the kitchen, a bowl of popcorn in each hand. "You guys have been so clingy recently, it'll seem odd you just randomly break up now-"

"Uh-" I interrupted her, scoffing. "Clingy? Excuse me, no we are not." That was a lie, i had been extremely clingy in his car that day at the drive in cinema but they don't know about that.

Elena laughed in my face at that, shoving her palm in my face. I slapped it away, scowling. "Puh-lease girl, you haven't been clingy the same way i haven't been gay." She snorted once more.

I widened my eyes at her. "I literally have no idea what you're talking about, you guys are mad."

"Sofia babe please don't make me bring up the sin you committed with him just a few days ago." Beth grinned at me.

"Wait hold on a second, what sin?" Elena gasped. "You guys have secrets, what the fuck i feel so betrayed, what did you do?"

I groaned, letting me head fall in my palms. "Beth, fucks sake-"

Rrrrring.

The three of us turned to look at the door.

"Bet that's your lover boy." Said a smirking Beth. I threw a pillow at her head as i stood up to go open it.

"Oh my God Beth we should pretend we're not here, see how they act." Elena giggled into her hand at her genius idea as Beth nodded her head. I rolled my eyes and ignored them as i opened the door.

"Hey princess."

Fuck. It is him, im gonna get so much shit about this later. Fucking Beth.

I ignored the muffled giggles from behind me and gave him a smile. "Justin, is everything okay?"

His forearm was leaning against the doorway as he talked to me, making his biceps bulge out the short sleeves of his V-neck. I tried my best not to let my eyes wonder but, im only human after all.

"Yeah, i just came to let you know I talked to Alec and we're all good now. Told him we felt like we were better off as friends." I let out a sigh of relief, a giant weight lifted off my shoulders knowing that now I wouldn't be lying all the time anymore. I hadn't even realised how much that was bothering me.

Before i could stop myself, i gave him a  quick hug, leaning up on my tiptoes as i wrapped my hands around his neck.

His hands rested so comfortably on my waist that I almost forgot to pull away. But i did.

"Thanks a lot," i tried saying but it came out so breathlessly i felt silly "that was really- um- it was stressing me out." I let out an awkward laugh.

I dont know why i hugged him but it seemed like a bad decision now that i felt the all too familiar wild beating against my rib cage.

"And here I thought being my girlfriend was nothing but fun." He flashed me one of his devious smiles and i rolled my eyes at him, trying my hardest to ignore the finger that reached up to play with a loose hair stand framing my face.

"Shut up." It was a real laugh this time, and it left me with a smile on my face as Justin removed his weight off my doorway and crossed his arms, letting go of my hair.

"Alright then, i'll get going." He got ready to leave when I remembered.

"Wait-" i laughed as i stopped him again, my hand pulling at his shirt and i tugged him back. "Why didn't you just text me? You came all the way here."

I noticed the sparkle in his eyes before anything. "Just wanted to see your face again, maybe get too close on our goodnight hug, make you think I'll kiss you again." My eyes widened at his statement, blood rushing up to my cheeks.

Fuck, the girls definitely heard that.

"What made you think i'd hug you in the first place?" I tried saying, to distract him from the red dotting my cheeks.

"Didn't you just?" A smirk adored his face. He laughed noticing my expression, before he took my hand in his. "Don't get your panties in a twist, I'm just teasing you." He raised my hand to his mouth, and brushed a kiss to my knuckles as i stared at him.

Im sure my face looked ridiculous, surprised and confused at his actions but again I couldn't bring myself to move as electricity shocked up my arm and all throughout my body.

It's like he was doing all of this on purpose, knowing the girls were listening and would fry me for this later.

I snapped myself out of the trance when i felt his fingers brush away a stray hair behind my ear. He mumbled out a 'goodnight', winking after and heading back to his car.

I slowly closed the door behind me, still a bit in shock.

This is not things going back to normal, damn it.

Before I realised, loud screeches started.

"What the fuck did he mean kiss you again Sofia fucking Black explain right this instance." Screamed a very shocked Elena.

Right. This is great.

A/N

Hey hey hey. Kinda short, as always :,) and kinda bad as always :,,). Not edited obviously but i just wanna get something out atp, sorry if its too bad guys. Ill try my hardest to edit soon but
Oh my gosh

The worst fkn writers block i swear, this was so hard to write and its not even anything good. Ive just been rlly struggling recently, no imagination and all😀 also im binge reading a lot of books rn and i can never find it in myself to write something creative.

Anyway so so sorry about the long wait (feel like i say this every time lol) I'll try to be better but im on holiday rn ( 🥳) so im trying to enjoy myself without my phone or laptop. I can only see the beautiful beach for so long.

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