"your majesty, hurrem sultan is pregnant.", said one of the doctors that just checked hurrem. i couldn't belive it i felt betrayed. how could he do it while i was going through all this. i just looked at suleiman with tears in my eyes. just when i thought i was feeling something for him he burned me down.

i just wanted all of them out of my room. hurrem looked at me with biggest pride i ever saw. they all left my room except hurrem. she came closer to me and whispered,"i told you, you are no one.". she left and all i wanted was to cry myself out.

i didn't leave my room, i didn't eat and i barely sleep. i didn't want to end like this but what other option i had?

one month passed, but i was still in my chamber. i was really skinny and weak. i made very clear that i didn't want to see anyone, i was glad that valide at least respected my decision.

i finally got myself together. it wasn't the end for me. i had to show hurrem that i am much more than she thinks i am. i got dressed and i actually looked like something. fikret agha came with me and we both went to sultan chamber. it's been a long time since i was there.

luckily i was let in and this time i wasn't afraid. what was the worst that could happen? "dafne, you finally came! i missed you so much.", he said while actually looking like he missed me. "i came here to talk.". i said. "what is it dafne?", he said while he was coming closer to me. he was about to grab me by my chin but i said,"please don't touch me.". "i'll be very honest with you. i feel very betrayed. you seem like you don't even care about me. do you even love me suleiman, or i was just your one time girl?", i continued with tears dropping down my cheeks.

"dafne don't be silly, you know i love you. you also know that nothing happens without god's permission. don't worry we'll have much more children.", he said and hugged me. i pushed myself from his hug. "i don't know in what to belive anymore. prove me that you love me.", i said looking straight into his eyes. it was a long silence.

"what you want me to do?", he broke the silence. i took a quick moment and said," marry me then.". his eyes were wide open and he got silent. "leave the room dafne.", he said and turned another way. i left his room. i was numb. hurrem was right, he never actually loved me.

later that day fikret agha came to my room. " dafne, suleiman called you.". i was very surprised. i again got ready even tho i felt very sick. once again i was with fikret agha. i didn't know why we went outside instead of his room but i still followed.

it was dark i didn't know where was i going. after we went outside fikret agha put a blindfold over my eyes. he then led me. it felt like eternity. finally we stopped, fikret agha left me and there was no one around me.

suddenly i felt a soft touch around my hips. somone took down blindfold and when i opened my eyes i had what to saw. garden was full of candles and roses. someone then grabbed me by my waist and turned me around. it was suleiman.

he hold me tight and then said,"you are now a free woman dafne.". he kissed my forehead and then he told me to turn around again. there were few people and one of them was fikret agha.

i turned to suleiman and asked,"what is this?". "it's our marriage dafne." he then grabbed my hand and held it. they said the vowes and i couldn't be happier. he did love me. i turned to him, hugged him and held him. "you are now my wife, my most valuable thing in life. dafne, i love you!". he said and once again kissed me on my forehead.

we held our hands and together went to his chamber. i did it. i couldn't wait to see hurrems face. i only began, her life will from now on be miserable.