"i knew i made a good decision with you.",valide said to me. "you did your job pretty well. just one month in here and already a favorite." her words really made me happy. "now your next goal is more nights with my lion.", valide continued," after that with gods will you'll get pregnant, with a boy i hope.".her words were like a slap i didn't expect. i was only 17 and my freedom would be gone just like that.

i left valides chamber really thinking about her words. i didn't felt anything for her son, but i knew that my life from now on wont be esay, especially because of hurrem. mahidevran wasn't a problem. sultan alredy forgot her.

that morning i was sent to favorites chamber. i got my own room and my own servants. i liked my new position, but something in me wanted more. i wanted my freedom back."i won't die until i get my freedom back!",that morning i made myself that promise. whatever the cost is i was ready.

my nap was interrupted by aysun. "dafne, you won't belive me, but sultan called for you!". as much as i expected his call, i was also very surprised. "everything goes by the plan", i whispered to myself.

i started getting ready for the night. fikret agha came to get me. once again i was walking down the "golden road".

i was in front of his chamber ready to get in, but one of his guards said,"you can't get in. his majesty is with hurrem sultan tonight."

i couldn't belive it. how was that possible? have she heard about me? a lot of questions went down my head while i was walking back to my chamber. how will i explain this to valide? no, i can't seem defeated. i have to look confident in everything i do!

the next morning as usual i went out for a little walk in the garden.the moment i step out i bumped into hatice sultan. "i am so sorry sultanim", i said with a tone of sarcasm. "and you better be", hatice said not even looking in my direction.

i rolled my eyes as i went on with my walk. "you have to respect her", aysun said to me. i just gave her idgaf look. "while i have valide on my side, no one, including her daughter can't disrespect me.", i said.

i went in just to see hurrem sultan coming to me. "and you think you're something special. you got one night and thats all you will ever get!", she said while starting into my eyes. "dear sultanim, don't forget what happened to mahidevran.", i said and bowed giving her a little smile.

this day was just starting and it couldn't got any worse. i continued walking to valide sultans chamber. when i got in, hatice sultan was also there. as i had to i bowed, but as it seems i won't have an opportunity to talk to valide.

"sah sultan will be here soon. tell fikret to make her room.",valide said to me, which was a polite way of telling me to go.

hurrem knew about me so that meant mahidevran knew too. i wasn't good with hatice because she liked mahidevran and hurrem a lot more than me, a "one night stand girl". i figured out that whoever this sah sultan was i'd have to make a good first impression on her.

morning came and we were all ready to welcome that sah sultan. i tried to make my way to valides chamber hoping it would give me an opportunity to catch her eyes.

as soon as i ran in, of course showing all my respect to valide sultan, sah sultan came in.

she was very beautiful. i saw her looking at me a few times which was enough for me. when she finished talking with her mother ( valide sultan ) she went to her chamber.

the rest of the day i followed sah sultan around the palace trying to see her relationship with mahidevran and hurrem.

unfortunately with what i saw they welcomed her very warmly and she also seemed very connected with them.

my mood went down so i wanted to go to hammam to relax. while i was on my way fikret agha came. he seemed like he was in a hury. "h-his ma-majesty", he started  stuttering," he called for you again! i don't know what you did that night but you definitely did a good job. now get ready!" i was feeling myself. i hoped for hurrem to find out. and i also hoped that from now on they will see how serious i was with all of this.