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"If one of you don't confess to who brought the alcohol into this school, none of you will see prom." Principal Jackson is pissed and he has a right to be. I messed up big time, and now everyone is paying for it.

2 days earlier

I was finally happy that it was Saturday, I could kick my feet up and watch movies with Jacob, Grace, and Christian. We were all currently having a horror movie marathon, Grace wanted to start watching movies at 1 pm and we have been sitting here for four hours watching the nightmare on elm street franchise.

"Ew this looks so horrible, the blood is so fake." Grace has been complaining for the last hour about how bad the CGI in this movie is. She finally shuts up when her phone starts buzzing.

"Hello." She says as she answers the phone. "Wait, really? No, we're coming." She starts squealing and hangs up the phone. "So guys guess what!" She sits up on my bed and starts bouncing up and down.

"Let me guess, we're going to a party!" Christian starts bouncing up and down mocking Grace.

I shudder, the last time I went to a party I ended up losing my virginity. The thought of going to another party just made me want to throw up.

"Do I have to go?" I pout and Grace's smile turns into a thin line.

"Yes, you're fucking going to this party, Jacob Gordon. I don't care if I have to drag you to it myself." I can tell that Grace is being serious from the look on her face and I give in to going out.

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When the four of us arrive the party is in full swing. There are people outside, inside and even on the roof. Grace told us that the party was hosted by one of her cheerleader friends. The party is themed with the theme being "gender roles reversed", so the guys have to dress like girls while the girls dress like guys.

Grace didn't want to go home so she just put on one of my outfits. Jacob, Christian and I had to sneak into Sophie's closet and steal some of her halter tops and shorts. When we were finally dressed we looked like three semi masculine girls, since we all weren't the toughest looking guys.

"Guys let's get some drinks in us!" Grace yells over the music and leaves to go get her a drink.

I know I'm not going anywhere near any alcohol at this party because I want to remember my night. Grace comes back with four cups she gives Christian and Jacob one then puts her hand out to give me the last one.

"No thanks." I smile at her and she understands.

After dancing with the gang for a little while I need to get some fresh air so I head upstairs to the roof that I saw when I first got here. It's a beautiful night tonight, the moon is bright and the stars are shining bright. I'm standing and admiring the view when I hear the door open. I turn around and the last person that I thought I would see here is standing in front of me, Kameron.

"Hey." Kameron smiles at me and comes to stand beside me. When he speaks to me I can feel myself becoming angry.

"Hey? You haven't spoken to me in two months Kameron and now you're saying hey." I say without thinking and he frowns. He looks me over and then laughs.

"You look good in a halter top." I don laugh and he stops.

"I'm not laughing Kameron, you've been ignoring me for two months and it hurts." I want to push him but I remember where we are and decide not to.

"It was best that I stayed away from you." He says quietly but I still catch it.

"What do you mean?" Kameron starts pacing back and forth like he already said too much.

"I-I'm not good for you, I'm the reason that you got hurt, I'm the reason that you've had any problems while you've been here. You have Greg now and you don't need me in your life." He says turning to leave but before he can leave I grab his hand.

"Wait to please," I don't know what came over me but I hug him and he hugs me back. "Don't leave me, I don't want you out of my life Kameron." I hesitate not knowing if I shouldn't say the last part but I do.

"I love you." I gasp once I say it and realize what I said.

"What?" Kameron looks up at me confused.

"I-I love you," I say again this time I smile and Kameron looks surprised. "I've always loved you Kameron, it's always been you. I don't know what to do." Kameron stares into my eyes and then he kisses me.

When his lips touch my mine all the hurt and pain I've been feeling lately goes away and I finally feel good.

"Hey, Jac-" I hear a gasp from the entrance and I break away from the kiss to see Grace, Jacob and Christian standing at the door.

Grace has a thin line on her face and turns around to leave, Christian runs after her and Jacob just stands there wide-eyed and then smiles. "Finally," He says then turns to follow after Grace and Christian.

"I'm sorry, I have to go." I run after them and catch them going out the front door.

"Guys wait." I finally catch up to them and Grace turns around and punches me.

"Jacob, how could you be up there kissing Kameron when you have a boyfriend, who happens to be my brother!" Grace yells in my face. "And if you think I'm not going to tell him what I saw you're wrong." She turns to leave and then realizes that she rode here in my car. "You are one messy bitch, Jacob." Grace grabs Christians' hand and starts walking away, Christian gives me one more look before turning to leave.

Greg.

I had forgotten about the only person who should matter at this moment, my boyfriend. This feeling of regret rushes over me and I start to cry and then before I know it I'm back in the party and drinking my pain away.

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The pounding in my head when I wake up is excruciating and the sun shining through my curtains isn't helping. I can't remember anything after the Grace thing and I don't know how I got home but I'm relieved that no one is laying next to me.

I feel around on the floor for my phone and finally, I find it. I know my dads were probably worried about me last night so I would expect they called me but the only person I want to talk to right now is Greg.

I look at my phone screen and my eyes go wide, my phone screen is filled with text messages.

Hey, how are you feeling? A text message from Jacob reads.

I'm sorry. One from Kameron who's number I forgot I had.

But the last one, makes me go weak.

It's over

I open the message and I feel like I can't breathe, Last night when I was drunk I somehow wrote Greg a paragraph.

Greg, I'm sorry but I think we should break up. I don't love you anymore. Our relationship isn't working for me, I'm not happy anymore and I haven't been for a while and tonight I missed Kameron and I know Grace is going to tell you so I wanted to tell you first. I'm sorry.

I can feel the tears starting to fall down my face. I fucked up last night and now everything is falling apart. Last night when I was drinking I finally felt like I was free. So why can't I feel free right now?

I get up out my bed and walk down to the kitchen and open the left cabinet where I know the alcohol is and grab a bottle of gin.

The rest of the day is kind of a blur but I didn't answer any text messages from anyone else but I kept blowing up Greg's phone and got no answers. I finished the entire bottle of gin and lay in bed for the rest of the day.

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Monday morning came quickly and I didn't even want to face anyone. When I finally get out of bed I throw on a pair of sweats and a hoodie, grab my backpack and the bottle of pineapple rum, my dad's favorite and hop in my car. Joey and Sophie are already gone because Joey likes to leave early and Sophie catches a ride with him because she has early morning practice for softball.

I can already tell that today wasn't gonna be a good day when I get to school and there are no parking spots beside the ones that are behind the school.

The walk to the building was exhausting and when I finally made it inside I could barely breathe. I can tell I'm late because the hallways are almost empty besides a few students and the one person I needed to talk to.

Greg is standing at his locker and he looks like he hasn't slept at all. I don't know if I should go and try to explain myself or hide from him. I'm not sober so before I know it I'm walking over to Greg's locker.

"Greg?" He looks at me and it's like he's looking through me and I can tell by the look in his eyes I hurt him.

"Jacob, please just leave me alone." He closes his locker and starts walking away from me but I continue to follow him.

"Please Greg just listen to me." I can feel myself about to start crying.

"Leave my brother alone, Jacob." I look up to see Grace coming around the corner with Christian.

"Grace, I'm so sorry. I don't know what I was thinking about last night." She rolls her eyes and grabs Greg.

"You were thinking with your dick!" Her voice is starting to get louder than usual and I can tell she's pissed at me.

"You fucking bitch!" Out of nowhere, Greg is running down the hallway and I look up to see Kameron walking in the building with Jessica. When Greg reaches them he punches Kameron in the face knocking him to the floor.

"You fucking bitch, you kissed my fucking boyfriend." Greg is about to punch him again when I grab his arm and he pushes me back sending me to the floor knocking my backpack off my back.

The sound of glass breaking causes everyone to turn away from the fight and to me on the ground.

"What's all this commotion out here? What's this on the floor?" Principal Jackson comes out of his office and walks over to my backpack smelling it. "Everyone of you in my office now!"

So now I am sitting in Principal Jackson's office with Grace, Christian, Kameron, Greg, and Jessica. Principal Jackson has been yelling at us for the 10 minutes about the fighting and the alcohol.

"If one of you don't confess to who brought the alcohol into this school, none of you will see from." Principal Jackson is pissed and he has a right to be. I messed up big time, and now everyone was paying for it.

I can't look at anyone's faces but I know that everyone is surprised that I had alcohol in my backpack. When I finally look up Grace is staring at me and she gives me a look that I know because it's the look she gives me all the time. It's the are you okay look. I nod my head and shes looks away from me.

"It's mine," I say finally getting the words and being honest for once. "I'm so sorry for everything that happened today, please don't punish them for something that I did. The fight was my fault, and so was this" Principal Jackson frowns at me.

"I'm very disappointed in you, Jacob. You know that there are going to be consequences for this as for the rest of you, no more fighting you're free to go." Principal Jackson opens the door for the rest of them to leave.

"I hope you get expelled and are finally gone forever," Jessica whispers to me as she leaves.

"Me too," I whisper to myself.

Everything was falling apart in my life right now and I didn't know whether I was happy or sad about it. I didn't know what the outcome was going to be from this but I didn't want to find out.

wow, that was one long chapter. things aren't looking good for Jacob and he's messing up big time.

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