"What's wrong with you Wajahat?" Farwa grabbed his hand and her eyes were shining from visible tears.

"Are you okay Zaynah?" Mishal pressed my hands and gave me a fake concerned look which made everyone look at me again. I knew I overreacted and I've messed up everything.

"Umm never mind, Zaynah has hemophobia so her reaction was normal," Zara explained and tried to cut the thick tension in the air.

" Well, we gotta visit doctor," Farwa said to Wajahat and tightened her grip on his arms.

"I'm also coming Wajahat," Zara insisted.

"No, it's a minor injury, I'll take care of him, You should go home, Hamza and Hammad are alone at home," she replied like some responsible family member which made me realize a lot of things.

"Let's go Wajahat," they both stood up and I put a last glance at him. His face had numerous emotions and was hard to read. Our eyes locked for a few seconds then he pulled away.

"We should also go Zaynah, it was a nice time with you guys," Mishal stood from her seat and signaled Azlan to do the same.

" Yeah same, see you," I smiled and looked at the Azlan who was scanning my face. I became nervous under his gaze and waved at him.

He walked one step closer to me and whispered, "You look beautiful today," his warm breath fanned my cheek and I found it difficult to breathe.

His proximity was making me more confused, he looked at me sweetly and walked away. But my mind was still stuck in Wajahat.

Go and die Zaynah! You don't deserve a guy like Azlan! He's so nice and can be the dream guy of any girl and you're not reciprocating anything.

Well, first of all, it's Islamically wrong and the second thing I like him but I have
not strong feelings for him.

Hypocrite?? Hanging out with guys is also wrong Islamically. What are you doing Zaynah? You came here to study, to complete your dreams, and look at you, what are you doing?

"Well, I like him," Zara sighed when they were gone.

"Then why did you make me embarrass?" I narrowed my eyes.

"But I don't get good vibes from his friend, she was so fake," Zara ignored my question and stated the most obvious fact.

"Leave it, let's go,"

"Wait, we can't waste our food. And I didn't eat anything, let's eat our food first," Zara cooed. I told you she was my spirit animal.

"Yeah wasting food is a sin, " I agreed with her and settled down. Soon we both were dug in our food.

Mishal's POV

"Wow,"

"What?" Azlan gave me a questioned look.

"Don't you think what happened today wasn't normal?" I replied curtly. How could he be so dumb?

" What do you mean?" He asked in an irritated tone.

" How could you be so stupid Azlan? Didn't you see that Wajahat guy and Zaynah? The way they were looking at each other and ....."

" Calm down Mishi, What's wrong with you? Don't you think you're overreacting?" He gave me an annoyed look.

" Overreacting?? Mee? And the way she screamed when she saw the blood of that guy. Not even his sister or girlfriend reacted in the way she did?" I retorted.

" Can you please shut the fuck up? She has hemophobia. Didn't you hear her friend? You know what Mishal, you just want to let her down. I didn't expect this from you. I thought you're my best friend but you behaved like typical girls. Arghh! I don't even know why you hate her? You're just jealous Mishal Abdurrahman, cuz you're the same as those typical girls who are so full of themselves that they can't see anyone else getting attention. Get lost Mishal, you're annoying me" he burst in anger. His face was red from anger and he was really pissed off. I had never seen or heard this from him before. He had never talked to me like this before.

I was his best friend and now he found me annoying? Cuz of that girl??? We were inseparable from childhood and he asked me to get lost. He was so much blind in her love that I lost my place in his life. Tears made my vision blurry and I rubbed my eyes harshly.

"You know what Azlan, I hate you," I broke into tears and climbed off from his car. There was dark outside but he didn't care anything and drove away.

I felt a sharp pain increasing in my heart and the hot tears were soaking my dress. I wish I could die that moment. He wasn't just the love of my life, he was my best friend, my soulmate, my partner, our hearts were connected. There was a time when he stopped believing in himself then I was with him, and he asked me to get lost??

After my mom's death when I isolated myself, he brought me back to life and told me that he's mine, he would never leave me alone and now he left me in the middle of a dark road just cuz I said few things about that girl?

Only if he knew how much I love him, his love flow in my veins, my breath and he is dying for the girl whom he met a few weeks ago? Indeed that girl was so lucky, but what was so special about her that he forgot his seventeen years of friendship?

I was crying and crying and I didn't realize how much I cried. I spooked when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I tilted my head and the next second I flooded in tears again. His hair was messy and his eyes were red too.
Was he crying too?

My eyes roamed on his body then traveled to his hand, his knuckles were bleeding and I forgot everything.
"Wtf is this Azlan?" I grabbed his hand and started cleaning the blood from my scarf. My tears were still flowing and now it was falling on his hand.

"How did you get this?" My tone was rude, yeah I was mad at him, for hurting me? No, for being so careless about himself.

Doesn't he know I'll die if anything would happen to him? Idiot!

"Mishiiiiii,"

*Ignored*

"Mishiiii,"

*Ignored*

"Stop ignoring me," he held my face and lifted my head. My cheeks and the whole body burnt from his touch, Well it wasn't the first time he was touching me but it was still affecting me like this.

"I'm sorry Mishiiiii," his eyes were welled up from tears.

" You should be," I rolled my eyes.

"I'm the worst human I know, I should control myself, I love you," as a friend was hidden, looooool!

" It's okay," I wiped away my tears and rolled my eyes again.

" Stop rolling your eyes ma'am, I know you can't live without me, and you love me so much..." He was speaking in a flow without even realizing what was his words doing to me.

"I know you don't like Zaynah," her name made me mad again but I controlled myself, we intertwined our hands and started walking.

"Probably cuz you think she will replace you but Mishi dear, she's love and you're my best friend, If she's the reason for my smile then you're the reason for my laughter. You're irreplaceable Mishi and no one in the world can take your place," his words were opening a new door of my mind.

"So you love her? Like truly??" I asked nonchalantly.

"Yeah I love her, I truly love her, I didn't know how it happened but it happened at the first sight and I know she doesn't feel the same for me but I've faith in the Almighty. I never felt that around anyone, she has the power to control my heart and me, only if she knows how much I love her, I want her, how much happiness her one text or her smile gives me. Trust me Mishi, I'd never been that happy before, she changed my life, she gave me reasons and new hopes for my life. I can't imagine my life without her," he was speaking unaware of the effect his words causing on my heart.

We both were the same, we had the same choices and interests and we love in the same way.

I loved him since the age of twelve but I never confessed cuz it wasn't the right time, and one day when I finally thought to confess to him, ... That night he was so happy and I wanted to make him more happy and surprised but he ruined my plan when he said he had a surprise for me. Ridhima made me believe that he felt in the same way and he was going to confess his love for me and when we met....his smile was special and he was looking different, his cheeks were rosy and he was blushing.

I felt weird then thought maybe love changes people like this and when he told me he's in love with someone, my heartbeats stopped. I hugged him and felt his heartbeats, it was beating fast, faster than me. I wanted to dance from the happiness that he was mine only mine.

The only fear of losing him had gone and I was too busy in my dreamland that I didn't realize his heartbeats weren't beating for me, his eyes weren't shining cuz of me and I wasn't the reason behind his smile.

"I love her, "

Her?? Her?? Her?? Who was her??

So he didn't love me? My heart broke into millions of pieces whose each piece was hurting my body. I was burning in the fire of one-sided love and I lost my mind.

The most sensible girl lost her mind, he was mine and I couldn't let him go and Ridhima told me that only I had rights over him. And I decided to bring him back into my life, and I played dirty. I started acting like a villain in my best friend's life.

How stupid was I to think that I could remove that girl from his heart when she was flowing in his veins? And I was dumb to think that I lost him, he was still mine, forever mine, my best friend. But I should accept the fact that we weren't mean to spend our life together.

How couldn't I recognize his happiness?? How?? I was going to ruin his happiness, I was going to hurt him, going to break his heart by giving the title of "love"???

This wasn't love, this was jealousy... Love is all about sacrifice, compassion, and the happiness of others but what was I doing?? I was so much blind in my own rage of anger and jealousy that I forgot everything.

"Okay, but suppose that if you have to choose between me and her, whom will you choose?" I didn't wanna ask this question but it slipped from my mouth and now I was regretting it.

"Well, she's my love, I can die for her, but yeah if any situation would come in my life then I'd choose friendship over love. I'd choose you, forever and always," he smiled genuinely and I didn't expect this reply.

How stupid was I that I didn't realize the strength of our friendship? But thanks to God who saved me today from doing a sin.

"I love you..." I smiled and let the remaining regret fall from my eyes in the form of tears.

"I love you more..." He pulled me in a hug.
As a best friend was hidden

But does it matter anymore?? Noo! We were best friends forever and inseparable. No one could ever replace us from each other lives, And after the ages, I smiled from the heart.

I know you didn't want this chapter, but I wanted to write her POV too. I don't know what do you feel about Mishal but I love her! Also, this chapter is very close to my heart...cuz...okay I'll tell y'all one secret someday! Well, I write short chapters but this is the longest chapter I've written and due to sickness I won't be able to update daily. But I'll try my best to be regular.

And yeah thanks to y'all for your beautiful wishes! Just a reminder... I love you all🖤

~Asma