Chapter 60

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"So you remember my name?" Will asked, cautiously.

"I remember your name." I said for the hundredth time. He has been going on about it for hours. I think I made a mistake by telling him that I remember in the middle of the night because ever since then he hasn't stopped bugging me about the question of if I remember, what I remember, who I remember? It's annoying me now, but I let him have the satisfaction. "If you ask me one more time, Will. I'll try and forget everything."

He gave me a sheepish smile, his cheeks turning pink. "Sorry. I just want to make sure you remember."

"You didn't tell the others yet?" I questioned, eyeing that phone he has been using for quite a while now.

"I actually did," he said, clearly distracted. "And they are on their way here."

"Now?" I looked at him in disbelief. It's not even 7 yet.

"Uh huh." He said, furiously typing on his phone.

"Whom are you talking to so much?"

"Yeah. I am." He said, not even looking up and not even making sense.

I raised an eyebrow at his answer. He clearly is distracted. The fact, who is distracting him so much, is more important. So I did what a younger annoying sister does, I snatched the phone from his hands and ran to the bathroom with Will behind me.

"Gwen, give me the phone!" He yelled as he banged the bathroom door.

I sat on the counter top and scrolled through his messages. Surprisingly, it was Sophia. I shouldn't be surprised, but seeing that my brother usually doesn't text anyone, is a surprise to me.

Thinking about it, I just realised that I don't know what happened this past month and half when I was in coma. I mean, sure I didn't care about it when I woke up because I didn't remember, but now that I have, I want to know what happened. But before that I just have to tease my little big brother out there.

"Sophia!" I said loudly. "And here I thought you'll be texting the doctor about me."

"Gwen, shut up and give me back my phone. Or else," he threatened.

"Or else what, Will," I challenged. "Are you forgetting who has the phone? Because I could clearly help you. Remember, as I message few little words to Sophia." I smirked.

"Gwen, I swear to god. Come out now." He ordered, banging the door. I rolled my eyes and decided to ignore him as I read the message. I know it's rude to interrupt someone's privacy, but come on, I never had privacy when it comes to my brothers then why should they. "Gwen!"

I sighed and decided to end his misery and hand him his phone. But not before taking few screenshots of the messages and sending it to Ethan since he is the only one who'll help me tease Will, others are scared of him. After completing my task, I opened the door and threw the phone at Will, who gave me a stink eye.

"The devil is awake." He muttered. I smirked and shrugged as he glared at me. He looked through his phone and I saw his eyes widen. I mentally laughed at the evil idea. "You send the message to Ethan, him of all." He said in horror.

I wiggled my eyebrows and jumped on the bed, which I realised I shouldn't have done. The pain flared through my body and I let out a scream. My stomach felt as if it was on fire. I curled in a fatal position to try to stop the pain.

"Gwen!" Will came to my side in panic. "Are you crazy? Wait, I'll call the doctor." With that he ran out of the room.

I didn't think this through. I was just happy that I remember and I was so in teasing him that I forgot about the pain. And now the painkillers are waring off. As the pain began to increase, I started remembering the beating I took. The beating I took in front of Dad. Shit! It's horrible. The pain doesn't seem to stop and Will wasn't here. After a few seconds, I was feeling drowsy. Black spots invaded my vision before I passed out.

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It seem like hours has passes when I woke up. My head was hurting a little along with my stomach, but the pain wasn't that strong. It was bearable. I blinked a couple of times before I looked around. I was lying on my hospital bed with wire attached to my arms. One thing that sends my heart into drive was the face of all my brothers and my parents staring at me. My heart leaped for a second before it calmed down. They were really creeping me out.

"Creepy."

They all scattered back, looking sheepish. Their checks turned pink from embarrassment. They looked at each other, talking without words. They had an uncertain look on their face. Will had a worried look on his face as he talked to Dad with his....facial expressions. I blinked at his face, trying to figure out what was he trying to do.

"I'm still here." I reminded them. Slowly, one by one they turned to me.

"Are you alright?" Blake asked, cautiously.

"I'm fine, Blake." I answered and smiled as his face lit up.

"You remember me." He whispered.

"No. You introduced yourself to me," I teased. His face fell and he looked away. All of a sudden, I felt guilty. I can't tease them. They've been through a lot because of me. My eyes watered as I thought about how much I must have hurt them. "I'm sorry."

He looked at me with a frown. "What?"

"I remember you, Blake. I was teasing you." I burst into tears with that. "But I'm hurting you at the same time. I've hurt all of you so much."

"No, Gwen." Nate said, rushing towards me. "Don't think like that. It's our fault we couldn't protect you. Do not for a second think it's your fault, okay?" He ordered, softly as few tears left his eyes. By now I was sobbing. I wrapped my arms around him to hug him.

"Shh! It's okay." He said, running his hands up and down my back to calm me down. I took a few deep breath before pulling away.

"You guys are not mad at me?" I asked, softly.

"Of course not." Max said, shaking his head.

"By the way, nice job with the screenshot." Ethan said, laughing. I grinned at him as we laughed at Will, who was pouting.

"Gwen." I turned towards the person who called me. My smile fell as my eyes watered again.

"Dad." I whispered. I bit my lips and looked away. He saw me in that state. I had a gun pointed at him. I could have hurt him.

"I told you to shoot me." Silence followed after that.

"And I told you I couldn't do that."

"But look what happened because of that!" He shouted. I jumped at his sudden outburst. "You are in a bloody hospital. You died on me. You forgot me. You didn't remember anyone. It hurts to see you like this. It hurts to see my only daughter in a hospital bed fighting for life. It was pure torture to not hear you laugh, shout at your brothers, demand something from me, whine, smile, hear your voice. How could you possibly be so selfish!?" With that he left the room, banging the door behind him.

My breathing ragged as I cried. I cried hard. I was selfish, but I didn't want to hurt him. I felt arms around me, pulling me in a hug. "Mom, I didn't mean too." I cried.

"Shh! I know, baby girl. He's just scared to lose you. You know he loves you, right?" She said, kissing my forehead. I nodded, sniffing. "It's all going to be okay." She said, hugging me tightly.

"I love you, Mom. I couldn't hurt Dad that day. You needed him." I said, as I pulled away.

"I know. But I also need you, Gwen. I need my whole family. Don't try to pull a stunt like this again okay? Your father saw everything. He couldn't sleep for days. He blames himself. He saw Mr. Black hurting you. It did a number on him. Not only him, but everyone. You're important to so many people, Gwen." Mom explained, wiping my tears. She kissed both my cheeks and smiled at me. "I'm glad my Supergirl is okay. I'll see your Dad, okay?"

I nodded. She kissed my forehead once, before left to find my Dad. I'll have to talk to him soon. But right now, my brothers. They all smiled at me except Ryan, who avoided looking at me.

"We'll be back soon." Nate said, giving me a tight hug carefully not to hurt me before leaving. The others followed suit except Ryan who was standing there.

Once everyone left, I looked at Ryan. He looked terrible. His once fit body was lagging. There were dark circles around his eyes, his face was paler than usual. Something happened to him. "Ryan?"

"I was broken, Gwen." He whispered. He walked up to my bed and slumped down next to me. "Promise me you won't be disappointed." He said, taking my hands into his.

"Ryan? What happened?" I asked, slightly panicked.

"Promise me."

"I promise. Tell me what happened?" I demanded.

"When they told me you were in coma. I lost it. I lost it, Gwen. You are my twin sister. You were so close, yet so far. You were lying in hospital. I couldn't take it. Amy tried to help me, but I pushed her away and...and.." he stopped.

"And?" I asked.

He looked away, before taking a deep breath. "I turned towards alcohol."

My mouth dropped open. I never thought Ryan would turn to alcohol. He never believed in turning towards alcohol for anything and knowing now that he did turn towards it, was a big news to me.

"You turned to alcohol?" I said, rhetorically. He looked down ashamed. My eyes wandered down his form and now that I see, he did look worn out. The shirt on him looks baggy and there were dark circles prominent under his eyes. The once muscle body looked lanky, indicating that he had indeed lost a lot of weight. That was not a problem thought. He could work out and be like he was before. His hair was long and too messy as if he has been roaming his hands through it all the time. Overall, he didn't look like my brother Ryan whom I used to know. This Ryan looks broken, scared as if someone took his toy, broke it into piece to spite him and gave him back.

My eyes watered looking at him like that. I pulled the covers back and sat straight. I pulled him down in a hug. Wrapping his hands around me, he pulled me impossibility closer. I felt tears drowning my shoulder, knowing its Ryan; I let him since he needs this. He needs to know that I'm alright. He has to get it off his chest and stop the alcohol consumption.

I don't know how long we were sitting there, but after he was feeling better, I leaned back on the bed and rested there as he sat next to me.

"Now that we are here talking and you remembering everything, I have bad news..." He trailed.

I furrowed my eyebrows in question. "What can be worst than this?"

Ryan sighed and looked around before turning his attention back to me. "Ashton's not looking good either."

My heart dropped hearing that. "What?" I whispered. "What do you mean? He knows I remember, right?"

Ryan nodded. "He knows you remember. Ethan called him. But," he stopped, looking conflict.

"What is it?" I urged him to continue.

"He doesn't want to see you."

I froze. He doesn't want to see me. He wants nothing to do with me. Mr. Black and fiasco must have scared him. He might be thinking that I'm too much of trouble. I have too much of baggage than he was in for. He doesn't want to see me. I didn't remember him when he wanted to see me. It must have hurt him bad.

"Did he tell you why?" I asked, trying to blink back the tears.

"No."

I nodded. "Okay. Okay." I said, swallowing the lump in my throat.

"Gwen," Ryan began, but I shook my head.

"Can you leave me alone?" I asked, not looking at him. He nodded and left quietly. As soon as he was out, I broke down into tears. I love him. He meant so much to me and he doesn't want me. He hates me. He refuses to see me now that I remember. But I was so happy that I remembered. I thought he would be too. He would rush here and tell me how much he loves me and kiss me like there was no end. But I think that only happens in fairy tale and my fairy tale was over when Mr. Black took me. He ruined everything for me. He broke me yet again. Even though he is caught now, he did what he wanted to–scare me, break me. Being alive may have not let him win, but the aftermath was sure in his favour. And it was all over again. The nightmare will start again and there won't be Ashton to kiss it better. I will have my brothers, but they will be cautious. They'll treat me like delicate doll without me saying any word.

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Happy new year guys! This year is over and a new year is begin. I hope 2018 will bring a lots of happiness to all of us and may this year be a blast!!

A update after a month on new year. Isn't it nice. Or maybe not. Yeah I should have updated a little early, but come on. It's new year so you guys can't be angry at me either. Anyways, enjoy this chapter and this year. Until than.

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