I went straight to my room, sat on my bed, and started sketching in my book, after school was out. I needed to get everything out of my system somehow and art was the best thing for me to do right now.

I had no clue what I was drawing, but I didn't care. I didn't have any intention on looking at any of it anyways, so once I was done sketching or painting a picture I would immediately tear it out of my book, crumble it up and throw it on the ground. I continued doing this numerous times.

I ended up losing track of time, spending hours doing the same pattern repeatedly, not getting tired, that is until my mom hollered my name, to come and eat, which shook me out of my trance.

I sighed and closed my book, got up off my bed and walked out of my room, stepping on the wads of papers in the process.

"About time you came out." My mom said smiling and looking at me, who was standing at the table, as her and dad were eating dinner. "I've been hollering your name for 5 minutes." She said still looking at me.

I sighed and sat down, "You never once thought to come to my room and check on me?" I said harshly as I made my plate, even though I wasn't in the mood to eat.

My moms smile fell, "I didn't really think about it." She said. I mentally rolled my eyes. She never thinks about things..... it kind of reminds me of Ella.

"So, will Ella be joining us tonight?" My dad asked. I looked up and glanced at both of them, she's the last person I want to see. 

"No, not tonight. She said she was busy with schoolwork and helping with things at home." I said lying to them.

They stared at me, studying me, then continued eating. "That's a shame." My mom said as she was shoveling food in her mouth. My dad nodded his head in agreement then looked up at me again and cleared his throat. 

"Oh yeah that reminds me. I got a call from your therapist, right after you rudely left in the middle of your session," he said glaring at me, "anyways she said that she's been seeing improvements in you and that whenever you want you can stop going to therapy. Isn't that good news?" He asked looking at me and mom smiling.

I sat there playing with my food then looked at them, "Now it'll be less of a pain waking up early in the mornings on Saturday." They both just smiled and continued eating. "Well I'm done eating." I said getting up from my seat. 

"But you didn't even touch your food." My mom said with furrowed brows.

"I wasn't that hungry." I answered looking at them and turning to head back to my room.

"Ok, well good night then." My mom said to me as I walked down the hall and turned to my right into my room, shutting the door behind me.

I made my way to my bed and sat on it and started thinking about what my dad said, no more therapy, because I'm getting better... but I don't feel better.

I ignored my thoughts and decided to go back to drawing until I fell asleep from boredom, but knew that wasn't going to happen.

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"Hey Weirdo......hold up!" A voice hollered at me from down the hall. I stopped in front of my locker and turned to see who it was. Steven.

I watched him shoving his way through students knocking some to the ground, which he laughed at, until he made his way to me.

"Hey little shit." He said putting his arm over my shoulder smiling as he ruffled my hair. I shoved him off of me, looking at him.

"What do you want Steven?" I snapped getting annoyed.

He smiled and leaned his back against a locker by me, "Hey I just want to thank you for what you did for me yesterday." He said as he was checking out other girls walking by.

"Whatever." I said grabbing books out of my locker. 

"No really, whatever you said to her worked. Not only did she give me her number, but she shoved me against the wall and made out with me.... Aggressively and hungrily." He said smirking. How did I not hear about this? But also why should I care.... Because I don't.

I froze, stopping what I was doing when I heard what he said, but shook it off and continued gather a couple more things from my locker, "Good for you." I said as I shut my locker and turned around to look at him, but he was too busy staring at someone, practically undressing them with his eyes. What a perv. He makes me so mad!

I turned to see who he was looking at and saw none other than Ella, talking to a group of girls, smiling and laughing. Ella glanced our way to stare at us... or I mean Steven. She practically ignored me like I was invisible.... but I didn't care.

I turned away and sighed, looking back at Steven who was smiling and waving at her. Eww. "Yeah you never told me how good of a kisser she is. I mean she managed to give me a boner in a matter of seconds." He said smirking at me. "Yeah I had to quickly get home after school to jerk off and finish the job she started."

I ignored what he said, "I'm going to be late for class." I said looking away from him and walked away, but he grabbed my shoulder stopping me. "Just remember, this was for the best... You don't deserve her and you never will." I stood there in his grip, not moving, but yanked my shoulder away from him and headed to class.

I never will....... I never will love. I never will feel anything. I never will like anyone, especially Ella.

"Hey Ava..... Ava.. Ava!" A voiced yelled snapping me out of my thoughts. I looked around, still in my desk and saw that everyone was gone. What hour is this?

I looked up and saw an adult who've I've never seen before, probably a sub, standing by me glaring, "you better hurry to your next class before the tardy bell rings."

I grabbed my things and walked out quickly making my way to my next class. I checked the time and saw I had less than five minutes until my other class started, but I didn't know what class I had next. Great I'm gonna be late again. What a pain.

I walked down the hall, but quickly stopped when I heard laughing and moaning coming from down the hall. Knowing I would be late for whatever class I had anyways, I decided to check out where the noise was coming from so I can waste some time. I quietly turned to the right down another hall and to my surprise I saw Ella pressed up against a wall making out with Steven. My heart dropped for some reason. I watched them making out and then saw Steven open his eyes and stopped them on me when he saw me. He began kissing Ella faster and stared moving his hand up, grabbing her boob. He's purposely doing this... why?

Everything just left me right then and there. I stood there watching not moving or budging. I stopped feeling anything.... once again.

"Why would people be doing that in the open? That's so stupid."

"Yeah it is." I said. I then turned and looked at the person who was standing to my right talking to me. "Who are you?" I asked bluntly.

The person turned to look at me and smiled, "Hi, I'm Camren!" The girl said while holding out her hand for me to shake it, but I just looked at her hand then her and walked away.

"What's your name?" She said as she jogged to catch up to me. 

"Why do you want to know?" I snapped. 

"Ooh you're feisty I like it." She smiled. "Anyways, I'm somewhat new here and I haven't seen half these people at this school in a while, so I'm going to start fresh. By making new friends again." She said smiling which caused me to stop.

"What do you mean you're somewhat new?" I asked. 

She stood there thinking then looked at me, "Well I came here my 7th and 8th grade year, moved away, then moved back my junior year, which is now." She said grinning. Wow she's too cheery for my liking.

"Well since you're somewhat new hear, let me just give you a heads up about me. 1. I'm the schools weirdo and 2. I have a disorder that doesn't allow me to use or express my emotions well.... so you may want to stay clear from me." After finishing my sentence I walked away, but she quickly jogged by me again.

"That's cool I don't mind." She said smiling at me once again.

I just stared at her as we walked down the hall.

"So what's your name.... Weirdo?" She asked with a smile. 

I looked at her then back in front of me, "Ava."