It was the feast after the coronation, i was still in shock am i really the queen couldn't this all be a dream a hallucination? i was sat at the head of the table on one side my mother and on the other my father every so often i would see him glance over at my mother and her do the same to him it was like they were love sick teenagers again it was awkward me just sitting in between them. The table was covered in food but it wasn't edible it was glamoured i could see straight through it, unlike everyone else however i need to find food because me and this baby are starving, it feels like i haven't eaten in weeks. "look father i know this isn't edible for me and the baby" i said not even realising what had came out my mouth and he just stared at me "your pregnant?" he questioned as the anger filled him "yes father i am, and i love my boyfriend Kalvin please just be happy for me" i pleaded and his facial features began to look more calm "its just something i didn't expect that's all plus on the down low don't say to anyone i think i will make a pretty good grandfather." he said quietly so nobody else could hear but i knew my mother did because she was smiling it warmed her, him saying that made her happy.

"A toast to the new Queen who will be welcoming a new morningstar into this world very soon All Hail Queen Astrid" said my father standing up and everybody cheered the power fueled me i felt stronger almost like a new and improved me. "i would like to make a speech" i said standing up getting everyone's attention " thank you all for your support and enthusiasm for me becoming your new queen its an honor, however bare with me because all of this is new to me and to live up to the great role model i have had will be hard and i am sure you the people are going to find it weird not having my father as a leader now so here is a toast to my new home and community long live the queen" i said taking my fathers hand as i made the toast everyone cheered again fueling my passion for being queen it was luxurious. Not only was the power i have now amazing i couldn't fault the crown my father gave to me it was just beautiful and every bit a crown i would pick of my own choice how father knows me so well.

I looked across to Sabrina her face was pale, she was worried and scared i could feel it i need to speak to her but there is a high chance she has got herself worked up over the whole Tommy kinkle fiasco which i don't blame her i have felt that pain before. i looked across to my mother she seemed so happy but i am guessing it is because she is in his presence even though she doesn't admit it she is still madly in love with him and i am a product of that love unfortunately its weird even me just thinking about it. Not thinking twice i teleport ed me, my mother, Ambrose, Sabrina and my aunt Hilda back to thee Spellman residence "why are we back here so early?" asked Ambrose he seemed to be in his element down there "because i am tired" i said making an excuse i think deep down i knew i was loving the power a bit to much but i have my duties as queen now to uphold and to complete a few tasks for my father before i can enjoy the ride. i went to my room and went into a secret little compartment i have hidden in my bookcase where i hid my pack of cigarettes, i don't smoke like my mum but i do smoke when i am stressed out or just plain and simply needing one.

Smoking is bad yes for mortals but us witches we don't bother with it almost immune i went across to my window and opened it looking out over greendale and sat on the window sill, i lit up the cigarette but just before that i locked my door tight so no one could get in even with magic. I sat smoking my cigarette watching the night sky where all of the comets passed over head it was beautiful i made a wish hoping my that my baby is healthy and perfect in every way which i new they will be. After i finished my cigerette i unlocked my door heading down stairs for a cup of tea everyone had gone to bed i was the only one awake, i sat down sipping at my cup of steaming hot tea and saint came and laid next to me i gave her a pet on the head and she rested her head on my lap. I heard foot steps behind me and I turned my head slightly "mother" I said and she came and sat opposite me " are you okay?" She asked almost to say that I wasn't myself, I looked at her and smiled "I'm perfect everything's perfect why would you ask that?" I said not realising that subconsciously I was screaming for help "your not yourself Astrid I can tell something is off" she said and I got defensive "I am fine mother unlike you, you got all giddy around father you still love him" I said with the words coming out my mouth before thinking and she looked at me I don't know if she knew she had just hit my defensive mechanisms or she thought I was plain and simply rude.

"I don't know what's gotten into you Astrid but just because your queen now doesn't mean you can treat me and others like that" she said standing up and walking off "I was never meant to intentionally hurt her I never meant it" I thought and silently tears rolled down my cheeks "saint why can't I stop this stop everything and start over. Everything has gotten so messy my mind is like a hurricane everything is mixed up and blown out of place there's a storm brewing inside of me and I don't want it to break me" I said Petting saint and my tears kept coming she tried comforting me but at this point it didn't help much I walked outside and screamed as loud as I could and thunder and lightning struck and rain beated  down soaking me. I couldn't stop crying everything was too much "WHY ME OF ALL PEOPLE WHY THE FUCK ME CANT I PLEASE BE NORMAL" I shouted looking up to the sky which was as black as could possibly be.

I sat down and in the pouring rain mud surrounding me I was drenched but at this very moment that wasn't an issue lightning striking all around me a barrier of protection almost, I looked around and I could see the darkness coming for me "accept the darkness sweet child" I could hear like a small whisper in my ear "no I can't" I said standing up feeling stronger than ever o wasn't going to let anybody tell me what to do I was queen now not some peasant I have strength and confidence nothing can hold me back now.i looked back to see my family and Kalvin stood on the porch watching me "I BANISH THE DARKNESS TO THE DEPTHS OF HELL AND TO LEAVE ME AND MY FAMILY ALONE" I shouted and it evaporated and left leaving me alone I felt too surrounded by it, it was always there around me suffocating me I had enough.

I wiped the tears from my cheeks and headed back to the house walking past everyone "are you okay?" Asked Sabrina and I stopped in my tracks and looked at her "I wasn't but I am sure as hell now" I said smiling walking into the house saint following me behind closely and I headed upstairs to get changed and I walked across to my mirror looking at myself closely and my eyes changed from blue to black the darkness never left it just absorbed itself into me and I am feeling great.