I watched as Harvey's morale and hope diminished for his older brother to escape the mines even i knew the chance of his brother life to be saved was little to none, but i still had some hope installed not much but it was there. But i couldn't help but think that the book underneath my bed appeared very coincidentally when only a few minutes after my father appeared i think he was trying to install some ideas into my head and they were false to make me fail so i need to think of another way of destroying him or trapping him something to just get rid of the havoc he creates and the dark presence he provides. 

We took Harvey home to where his father was drinking heavily and left him there and as me and Sabrina was walking home i could see the cogs turning in her head trying to find a way to get Tommy back and reinstall Harvey's happiness, "if there was only a way to get Tommy back" she said looking at me wanting me to give her a forbidden necromancy spell or something "i know what you are thinking Sabrina it is a very risky idea" i answered "Oh come on Astrid you must know a spell to get tommy back to life" she said eagerly "i do yes but it is a very very risky spell which none the less causes the dead to come back to life with major problems and them not to be themselves" i answered and she smiled "but as long as Tommy is back Harvey will be happy and pain free" she said.

"he may be pain free and happy to have his brother back but when he begins to realise that his brother isn't his brother do you not think  it will hurt him more?" i said then quickly adding "i know you are trying to be the best girlfriend to him but you have to take into account the risks with doing this" and i could see her thinking it over and over taking everything into account "i still think we should try it" she came out with and i sighed heavily " ill help you on one condition when i call it quits you listen and don't go behind my back okay because this could go badly wrong and i don't want you to do this alone even if this is going completely against what i stand for Sabrina" i said and she sighed " i know it does and you dont have to do this with me" she answered "yes i do Sabrina you don't understand i made a promise to your parents that i would protect you and i made a promise to you 16 years ago that i would protect you and that is what i am doing now when we get back give me a few hours to find the correct spell and then we will do it okay?" i said and she smiled widely "thank you" she said and stopped walking and hugging me tightly squeezing me, i hugged her back and carried on walking home because it was starting to get quite late.

Once we got in Aunt Hilda, Ambrose and my mother were waiting for us like they had something to tell us "what do you need to tell us" i asked walking into the kitchen "i have been let out of house arrest finally after 75 years" said Ambrose and a smile came upon my face "finally me and my cousin can get up to some real mischief" i said and he laughed and my mother looked not too happy with this idea "no it is really great you are free Ambrose" i said giving him a hug and gave me a squeeze telling me to let go "don't be a prude and enjoy this damn hug i don't give many of these" i said making everyone erupt into laughter "yes well we know that this is the first hug off of you in what 20 years" he said and i chuckled "well i told you not to take it lightly and it will be another twenty if your not careful" i answered 

"mother i need to talk to you" i said and she looked half worried as she followed me to my room "what is wrong child?" she asked and i looked to the floor "i don't know i just needed a motherly hug i guess everything just feels off" i said and she quickly embraced me in a hug and instantly tears fell down my cheeks and i don't have a clue why i just became very emotional all of a sudden.  I think it is all down to Elda my daughter the loss of her has totally ridden me with sadness and remorse for her not getting the chance to have a life it does make me slightly relieved that i am not too young having a kid but the fact that i wasn't able to carry my daughter full term pains me and that pain grows stronger each day.  "its just you letting everything out Astrid i know you keep everything bottled up and wait until you explode to deal with everything and this is just a small leakage right now" my mother said and i nodded my head because she was right this was only a small drop of what i feel right now just wait till i explode it won't be a small explosion it will be equivalent to a massive nuke.

"i am okay now" i said escaping the hug and wiping the left over tears that were still falling down my cheeks and i stood looking at my mother "are you sure?" she asked looking quite worried for me by the look she was giving me "yes i am sure 100%" i said smiling to make it convincing even though i knew in fact it was only about  40% but i had to make her  believe i was okay and she doesn't need to watch over me like i will break at any moment. Plus i need to find this spell for Sabrina which i will get on with right away "mother can you give me so space at the moment thank you for the comfort but i think i just need some time alone" i said trying to get her out of the room so she doesn't catch on if she sees me taking out a necromancy book of spells. She agreed and left the room closing the door behind her so i quickly went to the book shelf and the necromancy section using a spell to so i can get the correct spell properly and it gave me just the book i was looking for and i skimmed the pages looking for the spell and then i came across it so i started to study even though i know it i want to make sure that i know it like the back of my hand.