Honestly my new found power that has been lying dormant within me for over  a decade does scare me and that is not a good thing I should have confidence in using my power but I don't, I didn't even try to make that flower die it did it by itself maybe its representing my soul? 

Everyday I have been reading books to widen my knowledge on who I am, Ambrose has been helping me and someone was knocking at the door it was echoing through the house, I rushed to the door eagerly answering it "Astrid?" asked the man "depends who is asking?" I answered very cautiously "I am Ambrose's friend" he replied "oh That friend yeah just say because I have got to be careful right now" I said and he chuckled "well it is nice to meet you" I said offering my hand out for him to shake and he got down on one knee "its my honour your highness" he said walking "get up man I dot want any of that malarkey its wrong I am normal that's all I want to be, Ambrose is in the kitchen and just call me Astrid like you did when I answered the door" I asked politely and he nodded his head and headed through to Ambrose. Sabrina had her first day at the academy of unseen arts I truly hope it goes well and if not I will be saying something about it.

I sat on the porch with a cup of tea looking out beyond the treeline knowing that there is a greater evil out there which is wanting to latch onto me and I to become the greatest being on earth but somehow I know that it will not be me I feel as though it will be Sabrina due to the fact as she can rule over mortal and witch worlds.  Sat in my own world which has been burnt down to the ground someone sat next to me and when I looked it was Aunt Z she didn't look to happy "whats wrong?" I asked and she just looked at me "you your the problem" she said and I took a step back "elaborate please?" I exclaimed and she smiled "I should have kept you, maybe if I did you wouldn't have to put up with the shit you have to now" she said shaking her head "no don't say that we don't have time for regret we need to look forward because maybe yes I did have those experiences but it has made me stronger" I answered and she looked at me with a tear threatening to fall "I missed out on everything with you I mean you would have called me mum not aunt Z it crushes my heart but its my own fault" she said and I hugged her "ill say it at some point don't worry mum" I said to shock her and she looked at me astonished "ill call you It when it is just us okay?" I replied and she nodded her head.

"what is wrong with yo these days?" she asked me "I am living in fear of myself" I answered and she looked shocked "why?" she said taking a hold of my hand and placing it in hers "because I can play god I suppose you see that flower I made and it died immediately yes? I can do that with people like I can kill them without a second thought and I am scared of that because I might hurt someone I care about" I answered  I could feel tears forming "I couldn't bare loosing you, Sabrina, aunt Hilda and Ambrose it would physically kill me I have lost so many things already including myself I am not losing anything else." I added and I hung my head low she lifted my chin and told me everything is going to be okay and that I wont loose anybody else. 

I looked at her with so much hurt and remorse she could see I was broken, she pulled me into her to almost secure me cause I was so close to the edge, it terrified me too how close I am to going over the edge and not coming back "you know really nothing can beat you unless you let it" she said looking at me "tell me something how am I meant to not let my fate interfere?" I snarled  "well for that I am not sure my darling but I know s getting called and I am going inside" said Aunt Z and then we both walked into the kitchen where aunt Hilda and Ambrose was "I was thinking cousin you cant be pregnant so its not that which is making your powers flare" said Ambrose and he chuckled "well Ambrose thank you for that information because seemingly you know my personal life now huh?" I said raising my voice "have you been defiled" asked Aunt Z "that is none of your business am I clear and I am certainly not pregnant" I answered trying to be calm but was not succeeding and then the phone rang and aunt Hilda raced to it.

"its Sabrina" said Aunt Hilda and we all raced to the phone Aunt Z tearing the phone away from Aunt Hilda then I heard something about Harrowing "pass the phone" I said grabbing it out of their hands "Sabrina who is doing it? is it Prudence?" I asked "yes it is and her sisters kids have died here because of it" she said sounding rather uneasy "I will be there right away" I said running out of the house everybody following me and I stormed into the academy and straight into Blackwood's office absolutely furious "firstly you wont let Sabrina take the classes she wants and now your permitting Harrowing in your school this is obscene, children have died at the hands of other witches and Warlocks" I shouted and my Aunt Z behind me "I see your very maternal like you mother can be" he said "now is not the time one of the conditions of Sabrina coming here was that harrowing would not be permitted and if she had any hassles my father would punish them whoever it was and if I am right you put Prudence and her sisters up to it there fore you should be punished as well?" I said and there it was my magic going hay wire the windows shattered "Harrowing makes the weakest the strongest" he said trying to make a point "you have disobeyed the terms I am forced to call upon my father" I said and Blackwood looked scared "I will look into it please don't call upon him" he begged "I will give you a day if nothing is done I will be back am I clear" I said and he told me he would have it done by then and we walked out of the room cogs turning in my head about what he and Ambrose said first pregnancy can flare my magic then blackwood and his maternal point maybe they have a point the last man I was not meant to be with was Thomas Scratch the older brother of Nicholas scratch.

"so what did blackwood say?" asked Sabrina "that he would look into it" I answered "do you believe him?" she asked and me and aunt z looked at each other "of course not" we said in unison "take us to the children" said my aunt z and Sabrina led us into the forest some place I hadn't been since I attended the academy with was a long time ago and Sabrina was calling them out and then they surrounded us many of these children I knew "Quinton?" I asked and he nodded his head and a tear drew in my eye "who did this to you?" I said walking up to him "the dark lord" he said "why? do you know?" I asked and he nodded "because me and you were good friends he could see the future and he didn't like it" he answered and a tear fell down my cheek "so Thomas didn't do this?" I asked and he shook his head "no" he said "but Thomas is sure lucky to have you" Quinton added "he is I know and I am so sorry this happened to you nobody ever told me what happened to you I will avenge you don't worry" I said taking a step back and I was absolutely fuming "wait Astrid  last thing" he said coming forward and I knelled in front of him and he placed his hand on my stomach "she will be a lucky little girl to have you there for her as her mother" he said quietly knocking me back. I stood up and walked back to Aunt Z's side as aunt Hilda took over "I am going to kill him I don't know how but I am" I whispered to Aunt Z "you will do no such thing he is your father after all" she said and that made me angry  "you don't want me to do because he is my father bull shit Aunt Zelda he is just as much my mother as he is my father which is not at all" I shouted storming off.

I know that was pretty harsh but she had it coming I went back to the manor and did a few spells just to confirm my pregnancy if what Quinton was saying was true and low and behold he was right I was pregnant nobody can find out I will be a disappointment to my family.  I called Thomas and he came over right away we hadn't told anybody that we were together yet but we are pretty official I can say, I took him to my room when he arrived and as soon as I closed the door to my room he started to kiss me passionately "Thomas we need to talk" I said pulling back although I wanted to carry on " what is it princess?" he asked worriedly "I'm pregnant" I said and he sat there in shock but then grabbed my hand pulling himself up then wrapping his arms around me lifting me up and spinning me round with the biggest smile on his face "we are going to have a baby" he practically shouted "we cant tell anybody because you know who my father is and he wont be happy" I replied with a frown lowering my head "well with this news I have to bring my plans forward" he said getting on one knee and proposed "yes" I said with the biggest smile on my face "now we have a legitimate reason behind you being pregnant" he said kissing me, joy filled my body. 

I ran downstairs to tell Ambrose but Aunt Hilda and Aunt Z was there "so your home are you?" Aunt Z said with so much spite "well I was going to tell you something but I guess not" I said "oh hey Thomas" said Ambrose "Hello Ambrose" Thomas replied solemnly "what were you going to tell us dear?" asked Aunt Hilda "I am getting married to Thomas Scratch" I said with a big smile and I heard Aunt Z growl "if your going to be like that mother you don't have to be here" I said and she looked at me after placing her news paper down "well what you said earlier was not acceptable" she said "and the same goes for you two wrongs never make a right, Thomas Quinton remember him? he told me what I know now" I said and he nodded his head " and what do you know?" asked Aunt Z "shall I tell her?" I asked Thomas and he came up behind me with his arms around my waist and his hands on my stomach " I am pregnant" I said and everyone went up into arms about it "your not even married yet" bellowed Aunt Z  "well plans change now accept it or not I do not care but I would like me and my mother to be on speaking terms" I said and she smiled "I would hate not speaking to you so I will follow your plan and back you all the way because your my daughter" she said  and I smiled Aunt Hilda had tears in her eyes as she came hurdling towards me and hugged me tightly. 

"well if you are pregnant Thomas you better stay here and take care of them then as the man of your little family now" said Aunt Z "I was planning to anyways" he said and Aunt Z growled a few hours later Thomas was fast asleep on the bed but I was wide awake I couldn't sleep I was too worried about Sabrina so I walked through to my Aunt's room and I saw they were both up "why are you asleep?" asked aunt Hilda "I'm worried about Sabrina plus I am a bit shaken up about Quinton he was my best friend who disappeared into thin air and now I know why" I said and walked across to sit on a bed "I know your worried so are we I don't  think we will be sleeping tonight." said my Aunt Hilda walking out the room "shall I put on the kettle?" she asked "yes we will be down in a few minutes" replied Aunt Z "look mum I am so sorry for what I said earlier it was totally unacceptable" I said with such remorse in my voice "I know its okay and it was wrong for me to say what I did as well" she said apologizing I smiled and she hugged me. We headed downstairs to  aunt Hilda she had made our hot drinks and we just sat talking it was really nice like nothing had ever changed.

"thank you for accepting my decision tonight" I said to both of them and they smiled at me "we will accept any decision that makes you happy" my aunt Z answered making me blush "so how long have you and Thomas been a thing?" asked Aunt Hilda "getting down to the important questions huh? well I am twenty three so three years" I said and my aunts both choked on their drinks "Three years! and he never came over and you never introduced us?!" Aunt Z exclaimed " well he did come over quite a lot when you guys were sleeping and Ambrose knew a few months ago we were being quite loud and he woke up" I said shocking them both "well I am happy for you but I don't think your father will be to happy" said aunt Z "well he can sod off I deserve to be happy and if he wants to take that away from me he doesn't deserve to know and be invited" I said making them both smile.

"you know we always knew that you were going to be a trouble maker but also a very strong and independent witch that always looks out for others then herself" said Aunt Hilda and I chuckled "really me? god I am the most selfish person here" I answered "you really think that? tell me why did you remove yourself from us last month?" Aunt Z asked "because my powers were out of control and I didn't want to hurt anybody?!" I replied "selfless act, now tell me why you talked to your father after strictly saying you wouldn't?" asked Aunt Z "because I could let Sabrina punished for something she didn't know about" I answered "see you are very selfless and care more about others than you do yourself" said Aunt Hilda "well if I am its because of the special witch who gave me life because I spent every waking moment I could with her and she taught me most of the things I know" I answered making Aunt Z blush and become very awkward and emotional. 

There is some things in life where you cant change how they affect you , these things can be good or bad but they all have an alter-ego behind them to somehow perfect your existence or make you more open to other things. In my case it is that family is everything and no matter what they will be fighting for you no matter how many times you fall out they are always there. Its taking me along time to understand that, when my daughter finally arrives into this world I am going to teach her that from the beginning because she is going to make mistakes but in order to be truthful to your loved ones you need to believe they will be there for you no matter what you tell them. I sit here at the table with my mother and my aunt feeling safe, secure and loved however a part of me is still very scared about what my father is up to and planning. 

I looked down at the floor and Saint was lying at my feet and she sat up and placed her head on my lap, looking straight at my stomach she knew there is a baby in me. "will yous help me through this pregnancy its scary and I need yous" I asked really sympathetically "if you want us too we will" said my mother "of course I want you there" I said sounding really stern and they laughed "what will my father do when he finds out? I mean he killed Quinton for being my best friend what will he do to Thomas if he got me pregnant" I said and they could see I was really concerned and frightened for his life I love him so much "we wont let anything happen to him we promise and if anything does we will do something to hurt the dark lord just as badly as he hurt you" says my mother and I smiled as a tear fell down my cheek, my mother cupped her hand around my cheek wiping the tear away from my cheek "I just really love him and I don't want to loose him" I said sobbing. 

"I can tell you really love him sweetheart" said Aunt Z and she hugged me tightly and Aunt Hilda joined in too.  I have never felt more safe then I do right now, love is a thing that can make a bond strong but can also be a weakness. we were up all night together having a laugh until the sun began to rise, Thomas came downstairs looking rather refreshed and me and my aunts shattered but it was worth it.  "how is my fiancé?" asked Thomas kissing me then rubbing my belly "very well thank you" I said and he smiled making me all fuzzy he got some breakfast and sat down at the table "how are you fine ladies doing this morning?" he asked and both my mother and aunt blushed "shattered" they said in unison then laughed "well we didn't start off on good terms last night so I would like to introduce myself properly, so hi my name is Thomas Cornelius Scratch and I have a younger brother called Nicholas Scratch and it is nice to meet you" he introduced himself like a proper gentleman "well it is nice to meet you Thomas I am Zelda Spellman Astrid's mother  and this is my sister Hilda" introduced my mother putting out her hand for Thomas to shake and he did firmly.