(I wrote this chapter and the next one while I was eating so if it's confusing blame young Leonardo DiCaprio)

Chasity's POV-

So I have come to the conclusion that I need to revisit the whole therapy idea.

Why?

Because Stefan would probably want me to.

No my therapist is not Amazon, fucking bitch.

SHE'S STILL DATING LEO. I KNOW!

Okay, I know that right now I'm probably everyone's least favorite person and I'm sorry.

I love Stefan, I really do but I'm not good enough for him. He deserves so much better and well I'm not the one.

"So what going on Chasity. I haven't seen you in years." My old therapist Jordan said.

"Hey bestie long time no see. Long story short, I broke up with my boyfriend," I said.

"Oh, I'm sorry, why?" They asked.

Am I really doing this? Am I opening up to a therapist about my relationship and I'm actually being honest for the first time in like forever?

"Ste- my ex is so nice and I'm well not. I broke up with him because I thought that he would do it first and I didn't want to feel the pain of someone breaking up with me. Yeah I know he's madly in love with me and his smile is so beautiful but what if he gets bored like everyone else? So if I break up with him, I wouldn't have it feel the pain of being broken up with. Sounds like a full proof plan am I right." I laughed.

"Sounds like you might have some issues with trusting people."

"Not you diagnosing me with trust issues. Well you're probably, I right did cheat on him but it was because I thought that he did it first." I told them.

"Does he have a record of cheating?" They asked.

"Well no. I mean there were times where I thought that he was but in the end, I was just letting my brain get the best of me."

"Do you love him?" They asked.

"Of course, I love him. He the first person I want to see when I open my eyes and he's the last person I want to see you when I'm in the cemetery 6 feet under." I told them.

"it looks like you love him." Jordan said shocked.

"Well duh. I mean he's amazing and also what's with that expression for? Am I am not capable of loving someone, Jordan?" I asked glaring at them.

Well of course you are but it's rare to see you show affection to someone that isn't tacos or yourself." He said.

"Well, Stefan's different.  He's not tacos, he's not me he's better than both, he's the better one. The only one for...me..." I said digesting everything that's coming out of my mouth.

"Wow," Jordan said.

"But it doesn't matter if he's the one for me, I am nowhere near the one for him," I said and left therapy.

I fucked up but I need to be better, I need to get my Stefan back.

(A/N- So I tried getting a life, I went outside. Touched some grass but there was a fucking bug there so I ran back home, ate food and wrote this chapter)