86. Untold emotions

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Aditi's point of view

People say that you should stay away from the person who hurt you and bring tears in your eyes but I am in love with the person who give tears to me. It's not necessary the person who brings tears in your eyes was always have bad intentions to hurt you but sometimes the person is so lost in his own sorrow that he can not see your tears.

Since I meet Dhruv he always wiped my tears and now it's my turn to wipe away his tears. I know he is pushing me away but I know the day has also come when we will be together, he would not push me back and that day I bring him in my arms and let him shead his tears because I will always be there to wipe them off.

It's been a month when he leave for Mumbai and he did not try to contact me. I also did not call him because I wanted to give him sometime to himself away from me so he can sort out things which was eating his head.
Gautam uncle and Nikita bhabhi get angry on Nikhil bhiya and Anuradha aunty after they came to know about the whole truth of the deal. Nikita bhabhi even did not talk to Nikhil bhiya for week atleast. I can see the guilt in her eyes when she talked to me.

I checked the time in my mobile and Dhruv and mine picture poped up on the display screen. I was sitting between his legs and looking down with blushing smile while he was grinning looking at me. It was such a beautiful and romentic picture. It was 5 in the evening so I closed my books and went downstairs to make some tea and evening snacks for everyone.

After coming to the downstairs I directly went to the kitchen and quickly made some sandwich and tea for everyone. When I came to the dinning hall everyone was discussing on going somewhere as it's festive season and Diwali is just around the corner.

I served tea to everyone and stood at the corner.

"I think we should go two days before Ishani's birthday. It's been a while we celebrated any festival or function with our whole family." Anuradha aunty said and she has a smile on her face.

"Yes, and everyone can meet two new mambers of our family, Rayansh and Aditi." Gautam uncle said while looking at me and I just gave him a small smile. I still don't understand where they are going.

"But what about Dhruv bhiya...?" Divya asked and as she took his name my heart beats raise. It was hard to control my tears in-front of everyone.

"I learnt what happened at Priya's parents aniversary." Gautam uncle looked between Nikhil bhiya and Anuradha aunty. They both shifted on their seats uncomfortably.

"Don't worry, I'll talk to him and try to convince him that he will try to reach there directly." Gautam uncle said while looking at me and I looked down so he could not see tears in my eyes. I could not take more so I leave from there to my room.

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After two weeks we were ready to go. Divya informed me that Gautam uncle has a elder brother, Anil who lives in village with his family and look after thier ancestral land and cultivates them. So Gautam uncle's brother called him to celebrate this Ishani's birthday with him and his family as he wanted to meet Rayansh and Dhruv's bride, which is me. Ishani is the granddaughter of Anil uncle who is same age as Rayansh. Intresting thing I came to know that Dhruv have grandparents and he is the favorite grandchild of his grandparents.

I still don't know about Dhruv's arrival to the village. Honestly I also don't know if I am ready to face him or not because he leave without saying anything which hurts me. I know he was upset but he could atleast talk to me.

I packed my books in my luggage so I could study if I get some free time. Also books are the best way to run away from Dhruv's memory. We put our luggage in one car and made our way to Dhruv's village which was two hour distance from the Lucknow.

In a long journey of two hours traffic in the city made it almost three hours so when we hit the highway Nikhil bhiya speeds the car. Soon Rayansh started crying because he was hungry. So we stopped at a roadside resturent where we got freshenup and had some lunch. I could not have much because of this strong heavy feeling on ny heart. I couldn't take out Dhruv from my mind. He is all over there. When no one was watching I adore his picture.

Feels like eternity we finally reached the village and I can breath into the fresh air calming my lungs.

"Ritika dii...." Suddenly Divya ran to someone and hugged her tightly.

"Easy girl...I am pregnant.." When Divya move aside I noticed a girl who was six month pregnant and looking very cute with her chubby cheeks.

"Oopppsss...I forgot that." Divya smiled sheepishly.

"You are pregnant...? I thaught you got fat." Nikhil bhiya smirk and walked inside with luggages while the pregnant girl pout.

"Don't pout he is just pulling your leg di.." A 17 year old girl walked from inside and stood beside the pregnant lady and huged Divya and Nikita bhabhi.

Gautam uncle and Anuradha aunty already went iside while passing a smile to them while I was standing there like a lost puppy who don't know anyone.

"Who is this pretty lady?" Finally the pregnant lady noticed me.

"This pretty lady is the bride of our Dhruv." Finally they noticed me and Nikita bhabhi introduce me to them. I blushed to the remark Nikita bhabhi gave me.

I came to know that the pregnant lady name was Ritika and younger one was Aliya. They both are daughter of Anil uncle and we came here to celebrate their elder brother's only daughter's birthday.

"Where did you leave your Dhruv?" Ritika di asked me while raising her eyebrows.

"He went to Mumbai for some work." I said in a low voice.

"Oh! God! This boy has become an IAS officer but still don't get time to spend some time with his family." Ritika di rolled her eyes.

"Are you planning to stand us here?" Divya asked.

"Oh! sorry.... please come inside." Aliya welcomed us inside and there we meet Anil uncle, Radha aunty, Anmol bhiya Meera bhabhi and their little daughter Ishani.

When I touched Dhruv's grandparents feet, his grandma was just in aww looking at me.

"Where my Dhuv find you? Did he bring you from heaven." Dadi ji said while looking into my eyes and my cheeks turn into a hot pink shade.

"Sudha our Dhruv deserve only princess and he find his in heaven." Dada has the same express as Dadi ji.

"You hurt my feelings Dada ji." Nikita bhabhi pouted.

"Don't worry darling, I am hurt too." Nikhil bhiya laughed but Dada ji and dadi ji let it go and gave me blessings.

I am not mad at Nikhil bhiya. He apologized to me many times but I am not the right person to forgive him. His gloomy mood was effecting Nikita bhabhi and Rayansh so I asked him to give some time to Dhruv. He will surely forgive him.

It was already dinner time when we reached the village so after getting freshenup we have our dinner. Elders are retired to their room while all the siblings and bhabhi decided to sleep in open, under the sky to have the whole feeling of village. So charpayi was arranged on the terrace, one for each person and to save us from mosquitoes we put a mosquito net around the charpayi.

Everyone was talking, sharing their childhood moments while I was lost in my world looking at the perticular person in my phone and wiping my tears when no one was watching.

I was alone in a crowd of people.

*****

As the sun rises in the sky, preparation of Ishani's birthday started in the Malhotra house. Men took the department of decoration while ladies handle the kitchen. Though birthday was tomorrow but it is celebrating in a large scale so almost whole village was invited. Whole house was decorated with fairy lights and flower garlands. It was like there is wedding in the house.

Nikita bhabhi, Meera bhabhi, Divya, Aliya and I were in a room busy in a preparations of tomorrow function. Suddenly Ritika di came to a room with a frown on her face.

"What happened..?" Nikita bhabhi asked her.

"I bought this dress especially for Ishani's birthday but when I tried it again, it's not fitting me." She set in the bed while putting her head on her hand.

"If we give it to the tailor, he won't give it back by tomorrow." Aliya said while thinking.

"I am not giving my dress to the tailor. He will ruin it. Don't forget how I gave my dress to him for alteration on Anmol bhiya wedding and it didn't fit me later." Ritika di said while getting more irritate by Aliya's suggestion.

"Don't worry di, Give it to me. I'll do the alteration." I offered her a help.

"You know the alteration..?" Nikita bhabhi and Divya asked in unison and I just nodded my head.

"Aditi you are life savior. Dhruv is lucky." Ritika di gave me her dress and Aliya gave me niddle and thread to alter her dress. But after hearing Dhruv's name my mind again lost in him and again my mood gets gloomy.

After that they all were get busy in their talks while I was doing the alteration of Ritika di's dress quietly when suddenly we heard the sounds of siren of the car but I don't know why my heart started beating faster because of the familer car siren.

"He is here... " Divya chirped in excitement.

She jumped from the bed and went balcony wheile everyone followed her behind but I was keep sitting there lowering my eyes and holding my heart in my hands. It's almost one and half month when I am going to see him again.

"Aditi, What are you doing, come here. See who came." Nikita bhabhi call me from balcony.

Holding my breath I step down from the bed and slowly walked to the balcony like a snail. I don't know why I am feeling so restless, maybe I am not ready to face him right now but at one point of my heart wanted to see him.

Everyone move aside and give me a place to stand. With my racing heart I looked down. Atleast three cars standing at the main door of house and middle one has the siren on. A constable opened the back seat door and my breath stuck to my lungs when he slowly came out from the car like the time has stopped and only him I were there where he was slowly approaching. How does it feel when your love leave without having a word with you and you gotta see the person after so long, it was like you again broke and expected to the person to heal it without saying a word to him.

Elders were alredy waiting for him at the door and he touched everyone's feet.

"I am going to the downstairs." Aliya and Divya ran to downstairs.

"Aditi come." Nikita bhbahi said to me and leave to the downstairs with Ritika di and Meera bhabhi. But I keep standing there, numb on my state, holding my breath with racing heart, looking at the person I am madly in love with.

He was looking same as he leave me but looked tired but he was still looking handsome. His eyes were looking for something in the crowd and he looks disappoint when he did not find what he was looking for. Tears welled up in my eyes and I went to downstairs but not to him. I make my way to the kitchen to cook something for him as he must be hungry from the long journey.

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I made some of his favourite snacks, some slices of apple and his favourite black coffee. With a food tray in my hand I made my way to the dinning hall where everyone was sounding Dhruv. When I reached there, I keep my eyes down because I may get weak if I looked into his eyes or I may cry but I can feel his eyes on me. I have goosebumps on my neck and his hot gaze boring hole to my skin. Suddenly I feel timid.

With lot of courage I raised my eyes and they met with the most beautiful and deep coffee brown eyes. There were guilt and concern fill in his eyes. It was hard to control myself not to jump into his arms and pore my anger on him. He was sitting just in-front of me on the long couch beside Ritika di and Aliya. He was looking at me like he was seeing me for the first time and he wanted to hold that gaze as long as he can. He wanted to say something, I can feel that but he was holding himself.

"Here comes your wife." Ritika di teas us. I was the first one who broke the gaze. He also looked away and sniffed.

"Nikita told us about your love story that how you ran away from your engagement with another girl and marry Aditi. My shy little brother fall in love. I didn't expect that." This time Anmol bhiya teased us which made my cheeks turn into red.

"You know Anmol bhiya, Aditi is my childhood friend. She also didn't tell me about her love story." Divya pouted and everyone laughed except two people.

"Dhruv must told her not say a word to you about their relationship." Anmol bhiya said.

"Coffee..." His eyes did not left mine when he hold coffee from my hand but I keep my eyes down, couldn't hold his gaze more. I gasped when he deliberately traced his thumb on my knuckles which made me looked to him when I was giving him his coffee.

"Oohhh...look what is happening here." Now it's Meera bhabhi's turn who teased us and caught us red handed. I immediately discarded my hand from his hold. I looked down and tuck a strand behind my ear.

"Excuse me..." I made and excuse and turn to leve but before I could completly exit the room Rayansh come and raised his both hands, asking me to pick him up.

"Chachi......" Suddenly he started crying in my arms and I looked at Nikita bhabhi for help.

"Aditi, can you hold him for few minutes. He must be hungry. I will just come with his milk." Nikita bhabhi ran to kitchen while I was trying to mend Rayansh.

Suddenly my eyes went to Dhruv and found him already looking at me with adoration and I gain found myself lost in him. I was attracted to  him like a magnet aract to metal. But Rayansh cry bring me back to the reality and looked down to him who was crying in my arms.

"Please don't cry. Mumma will be here." I don't know how to mend kids. I am sucks in it but still I was trying my best.

Rayansh was crying and Dhruv's continuous heated gaze making me feel nervous and timid. I looked at Ritika di and she has a horrific look on her face. She was looking between Rayansh and her pregnant belly. It is her first baby. She must be seeing her future child in Rayansh.

Soon Nikita bhabhi come with Rayansh's milk bottle and he jumped to his mom when he see her. Nikuta bhbahi went to other room with to feed him while othwr was keep talking to Dhruv and pulling his leg for our 'Love marriage.'

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Soon night approach. Everyone have their dinner. I did not talk or came in-front of Dhruv. I don't know why I am doing this. All the time I want to talk to him, see him but when he us in-front of me I just don't want to go anywhere near to him maybe because I am hurt for what he did to me in last few months and want him to take a first step.

While Dhruv was busy with his grandparents, I unpacked his luggage, washed some of his clothes and maintain in a almirah, in a room which was provided to me and Dhruv, thaugh no one is going to sleep their according to rule made by other siblings and cousins of Dhruv.

I made Dhruv's bed on charpayi, put a mosquito net around it, so mosquitoes can not have his not so sweet blood. I was alone on the terrace, making others bed too on the charpayi when I heard the footsteps climbing to the stairs. When I looked up I stopped what I was doing. It was him standing in-front of me looking very handsome and tempting but tired. We both keep looking at each other. We both have many things to say but our lips were sealed with unknown force but our eyes says anyways. Tears welled up in my eyes but before they get out of my control I made my way to the stairs. When I passed through him to go to the stairs and unknown force was pulling me towards him.

"Can I have a glass of milk?" I stopped and looked at him who was already looking at me. I gulped the lump which formed on my throat and nodded my head as yes. And then without looking back to him I went downstairs to made a saffron milk for him.

*****

When I came back to terrace with a glass of milk, I found him standing near the railing and gazing the stars. He was lost but hearing the tinkling of my bangles and anklets. He looked back and a soft smile formed on his lips looking at me but I keep my expression plane nd unaffected though only I know how much I was effected with his simple smile.

His smile wiped off when I did not react. He looked at me and again guilt formed in his eyes. I forward my hand with a glass of milk and he took it from me but before he could brush his fingers with mine I pulled back my hand. He noticed it and his eyes were speaking loudly that he was hurt by my action. But I am hurt too.

His lips parted and he was about to say something but before he could uter a word we heard voices coong to the terrace. Everyone came to the terrace.

"Dhruv, Aditi, if you done with your romance then come join us." Meera bhabhi shouted.

*****

It was past middle night when everyone went to sleep but sleep was far away from my eyes. I looked at Dhruv through mosquito net. His charpayi was beside mine. He was wide awake too and looking uo to the stars. All the time I was wishing to be with him and when finally he is with me I just wanted to run away.

Suddenly we both turn to one side and again our eyes locked. Though I could not see his eyes properly but I know pain were fill in them, guilt was there. I don't know how long we both were keep lying in that position looking at eachother. Tears welled uo in my eyes and I turned my side away from him, leave him in that position, craving for my attention.

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