65. The untold emotions

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Aditi's point of view

Sun again risen in the sky, bring the new morning and a new hope in life. But my life has changed yesterday when Dhruv married me suddenly. I don't know if it's a good change or bad but I know he used to belong to someone and I snatched him from his fiancée.

I committed a sin.

I have never meet such a kind person as Dhruv. He sacrifices his happiness to save me. My love for him increase. Yes, I want him, I am madly in love with him and want to marry him but in the way he married me, sacrificing his happiness, going against his family. I am angry on him and will be because he doubted on me, showed those pictures on my face and I can see in his eyes that he believed them.

I am angry on him because he made me feel special every time we met but he was betraying his fiancée. As a woman I never want to ruined someone's relationship for my happiness. I can't be selfish.

I am angry on him because he married me forcefully and sacrifice everything for me even the trust of his family.

Maybe as the time pass he may leave me but at least I have the happiness once I was his wife.

I was sitting on the bed in my bride's lehnga and don't know what to do. Whole night I could not sleep seeing Dhruv tossing and turning. I could sleep at dawn only for one hour and when I opened my eyes he was not there and I found myself lying on bed under the blanket.

He already went. I never think the next day of my marriage will be like this where I don't have anything to wear and the one who married me left me.

My eyes went to my empty palms. A tear drop to them. Every girl applied henna in her hand for her husband 's name but how unlucky I am, I could not even write that happiness in my destiny when I am going to marry to the person I love from my childhood.

I looked up to the door when someone knocked it but before I could open it someone open the door from outside and Nikita bhabhi walked inside the room with some clothes in her hand.

I also stood up looking at her and she smiled.

I took my dupatta on my head and touch her feet.

"Arre....don't. I am not that old." She made a joke to lighten up the situation between us.

"These are some my clothes. Nikhil asked me to give you that." She said while giving me some piles of sarees.

I touch the fabric which feels soft under my touch. I have never touch such soft stuf ever. These sarees must be very expensive. They are still maintain but looked little old.

"I am sorry in short period I can only arrange that." She looked at me apologetically. I gave her a small smile but choose not to say anything.

I want to ask her about Dhruv but I don't know how to ask her. I was not getting the courage how to frame my thoughts in front of her. Whole family was against our marriage so I don't want to ask anything which bring chaos in the family.

"He left to office early. Also he has to do some settlement with his landlord and bring his stuff. He asked me to see you after waking up." I looked at her and tears bring in my eyes. I looked down to hide them. She answered my unasked question.

"Mumma...." She was about say something when little Reyansh enter inside the room holding his toy car in his hands. He exactly look like Nikhil bhiya with the little bit complex of his mother.

"Awe..my baby wake up early." Nikita bhabhi pinched his right cheek and kissed on it.

He raised his both hands to pick him in her arms. Nikita bhabhi pick him in her arms and he was looking at me curiously.

"Rayansh meet Chachi." Nikita bhabhi told him in a baby voice while pointing her finger towards me. But he was still wakeup and wants his mom's attention only on her.

"Mumma duddu...(milk)" He started pinching his mom's breast.

"Hey...naughty.." Nikita bhabhi scolded him flakily with smile on her face. Rayansh made a face and put his head on his mother's shoulder.

"Duddu..." He again asked and this time Nikita bhabhi put her hand on his hair and caressed them lovingly.

"I have to go. My baby needs my attention. You get ready and come downstairs for breakfast." She said and  I gave her a small smile.

She turn and started walking outside the room but stop at the door.

"If you are not comfortable don't take your dupatta on your head. It's not necessary. No one gonna mind." I looked up from my hands to her. She smiled looking at me and then leave when Rayansh again asked her for milk.

*****

I took the shower and when the make washed of the marks of beating were clearly visible on my body. Only I know how painful it was standing under the shower and when cold water fell on my wounds I almost scream. I could not help the tears in my eyes when I was hissing with pain.

I wore the simple sari and open my hair so no one could noticed the marks on my back but I could not do anything about the marks on my arms. I can only wish that no one noticed them.

This is the first time I am wearing the sari. In childhood in many times I saw my mother to drape it in millionth time. I do know how to drape but I never tried it so it's took me almost half an hour to drape the sari properly and when I reached the downstairs I found everyone on the breakfast table.

I took a slow steps, deliberately delaying. Today is my first day in this house after marriage. I don't know anyone, even though I know but it seems everyone strangers to me and the only person I know is now missing.

Nikita bhabhi smiled when she noticed me. Seeing her smile Nikhil bhiya's gaze fell on me and he also smiles.

"Come Aditi dear, we are waiting for you." When Gautam uncle noticed me he asked me to join them.

I came to him and touched his feet. He blessed me and out his hand on my head. I move to Anuradha aunty and did the same but neither she say anything nor she blessed me. Divya also stay quiet and ignoring my presence completely. Rayansh was busy playing with his food on his dining table.

After that I went to Nikhil bhiya and touched his feet.

"I know I am older than Dhruv but don't make me feel grandpa. Anyways may God bless with all happiness." He laughed while blessing me and then again continue having his breakfast.

I stood aside and see everyone enjoying their breakfast, doing small talks while Nikita bhabhi was serving everyone

"Aditi why are you standing there? Come have breakfast with us." Nikhil bhiya said.

"It's okay bhiya. I am fine here." I said timidly. Nikhil bhiya gestured to Nikita bhabhi and she walked to me.

"Come , sit here." She hold my had and make me sit in one of the empty chair.

She served me the food which brings tears in my eyes. Other than Dhruv this is the first time someone served me a food. Not everyone is same. God made some good people too.

"Where's Dhruv?" Gautham uncle asked while looking around.

"He went early fir the office. He also have some work with his landlord." Nikita bhabhi said while sitting beside Nikhil bhiya and served herself breakfast. Both Nikhil bhiya and Nikita bhabhi shared the smile full of love.

"This boy." Gautam uncle shake his head while sighing.

Everyone finished their breakfast having small talks while I was keep silent, playing with my food. I don't feel hungry, How could I when he leave without breakfast because of me.

After breakfast Anuradha aunty left her room, Divya went to college, Gautam uncle left for school. Dhruv once told me that Gautam uncle started a school in nearby village and teaches them for free. Nikhil bhiya was sponsoring his school while Dhruv supported him in many ways.

I was cleaning the dinning table when Nikhil bhiya and Nikita bhabhi climbing down from downstairs and walking towards me.

I stopped my work when they both stood in front of me.

"Do you know Nikita when we live in Saharanpur, Aditi used to come our house everyday as Divya's friend but now she lived with is as  Dhruv's bride." Nikhil bhiya said to Nikita bhabhi while looking at me. I gave him a small smile and looked down.

"Aditi I know you did not get the welcome you deserve. I am sorry for that but don't think we are not happy. I am happy that my brother choose you. He always have smile on his face when you were around. He always feel lighted and relax around you. I am not saying that Priya was the bad girl but she was not for him. You are....and this is what I want. His happiness. I just want my old brother back whom I lost somewhere in childhood." I saw a an elder brother in Nikhil bhiya's eyes who were worried for his little brother.

"...and about you.... for me you were always the first choice for Dhruv." He winked and then laugh. Nikita bhabhi also join him.

"Bhiya I am sorry of what happened yesterday. We never meant to..."

"Don't apologise. If you guys happy, I am happy." He palmed my left cheek and looked at me in a brotherly way.

Tears welled up in my eyes. I looked down to hide them and nodded my head.

"If you need anything asked Nikita. My wife is amazing." He teased bhabhi and she slapped on his shoulder playfully.

"Aditi, please fill you mang with sindoor. I know mom is angry but she won't like if you don't fill it." My hand automatically went to my forehead.

I wash my hair so it must be sindoor from yesterday washed off and I don't have sindoor to fill my mang. I just nodded my head even though I still don't have any idea where to get the sindoor. In the name of Bangles I only have two glass bangles in each hand.

"I should leave now. I am getting late for the office." After saying this he leave and Nikita bhabhi went to outside to see off him.

I also picked all the dishes from the dinning table and went to kitchen.

*****

It's been from day to evening. Sun already set birds went to their home but there is no sign of him. I know he used to come home late even Nikhil bhiya is not at home yet but I feel completely stranger in this house where he brings me yesterday after marrying me forcefully. Though Nikita bhabhi was being very polite and welcoming but still I did not get open up with her easily. I never had a good experiences with family so I don't know how to live in a proper family without feeling useless and unworthy.

Few minutes ago Nikita bhabhi bring me out from the room for evening Puja and soon Anuradha aunty and Divya also joined us. with Gautam uncle who came at noon from the school. When puja get started Nikhil bhiya came from the office and joined us also. Nikita bhabhi did the aarti while Rayansh was looking everything curiously. This is the first time I am seeing a family doing puja all together in which I am also considering.

After puja Nikita bhabhi gave the aarti to everyone one by one. Divya, Anuradha aunty and Gautam uncle left after taking the aarti. When I turn after taking the aarti, I saw him. He was standing there closing his eyes, joining his both hands. His suit jacket was hanging in his one hand and both sleeves were rolled up to his down to the elbows. When he opened his eyes, they met with mine and locked his gaze to mine.

They only break when Nikita bhabhi stood in front of him waiting for him to take the aarti.

"Dhruv, ruko..." He was about to leave when Nikita bhabhi stopped him.
(Dhruv, stop...)

He stopped and both Dhruv and Nikhil bhiya looking at her confusingly.

"Fill Aditi's maang. I asked her earlier but I think she forget. So you should do this to yourself." Nikita bhabhi was looking at Dhruv playfully and gestured him with her eyes towards the sindoor in the aarti thal which she was holding. Nikhil bhiya was also smiling, waiting for Dhruv to complete the task.

First Dhruv looked at me and I looked at him. We both were talking through our eyes. Today I didn't speak too much but now it feels like I am talking to him without moving my lips. His eyes were glistening under the hall light and they were filling with so much emotions.

He slowly walked further, took the sindoor between his thumb and forefinger and move towards me. I was feeling breathless as he was walking towards me. He filled my maang before but this is this time he is filling it in front of his family.

I looked down when he came closed to me. This time I could not fight with him as he already claimed me as his wife. My heart as usual was beating faster.

He raised his hand little and I closed my eyes when he again filled my maang with the sindoor.

I opened my eyes and looked at him with my teary eyes while his eyes were also reflecting many emotions. I saw sadness, a disappointment and most importantly they showed the hidden pain.

click...

We heard the click and turn to the side. Nikhil bhiya was smiling holding his phone.

"Now I have a proof you married her."

"Excuse me..."

Nikhil bhiya teased Dhruv but I think he is still upset with him as he leave after excusing himself.

Nikhil bhiya felt bad when Dhruv leave from there without saying a word. His mood fall immediately.

"He will be fine. Give him sometime." Nikita bhabhi comfort him while caressing his right arm gently.

"Yeah...", Nikhil bhiya smiled sadly and nodded his head while kissing on her forehead.

I walked out from there, giving them some privacy. I found everyone sitting in the living room busy in their work when two police constable came with two suitcase and put them in them in the Livingroom.

"Put it here." Another police constable come and put two cartons down on the floor.

"Now you can go." They all nodded and after saluting to Dhruv they left.

Dhruv took both trolley bags and about to went to upstairs to his room when...

"Put it here. I asked someone to out them in your room." Nikhil bhiya stopped him.

"I can do my own work." He replied curtly without turning to him and went to upstairs with both bags.

I want to help him but I stop myself when I saw the look on Anuradha aunty. She looked angry and upset at the same time as she also leave from there without saying anything. Nikita bhabhi asked me go to behind him but after sometime.

After sometime when I comeback to the room with his black coffee, I slowly open the door when I noticed lights were closed. Bags were putting at the one side of the room and he was lying on the bed while covering his eyes with his left arm. His right leg was hanging down to the bed and he did not even change his clothes.

I know he wasn't sleeping, he just needs sometime alone. I did not disturb him and came back after putting his coffee on the nightstand.

*****

I was helping Nikita bhabhi in kitchen but all the time my mind was going to Dhruv. He looks tired and upset. I know I am angry with him but I care for him and looking at him like this leaves me restless.

I made the khir as Nikita bhabhi asked me to cook something sweet as my first dish in this house while Nikita bhabhi was preparing for the dinner.

"I don't feel good seeing both brother fighting each other." I looked at her and she had a gloomy look on her face when she was moving the spatula in the curry. She looked at me and move face to me.

"Nikhil and I both love each other from college. We had a love marriage. But my father wasn't agree for this marriage because of Nikhil's struggle in business. He already kicked out from his own start-up and Papa has no faith on him. But I only wanted to marry Nikhil. When we have no hope Dhruv came in front fir our help. He helped Nikhil to built up his new business and convinced my father to give my hand to Nikhil. " She had a sad expression on her face when she was sharing her experiences.

"What Dhruv did for Nikhil and I, we both could not forget. Nikhil touching the heights in business only because of Dhruv. Papa only let me marry with Nikhil because Dhruv's IAS status. Priya and his family only wanted their marriage because of his IAS status but no one knows he is more than that." I looked at her and I saw unshaded tears in her eyes. She walked forward and hold my both hands.

"Aditi trust me, Nikhil only wants Dhruv's happiness. If he knows that Dhruv have you in his life then he never forced him to marry Priya. He didn't even know about his engagement. He only come to know two days before the engagement." Though what she said was confusing but my heart melted and I feel guilty when I saw tears in her eyes.

"Bhabhi please don't..." I wiped her tears which fall from her eyes. Fights between both the brothers really affected her. She really loves Nikhil bhiya that's why she understands what her husband is going through.

"I just want both brothers go back to the normal self. Mummy is also upset seeing them fighting." She wiped her tears.

"Everything will be fine." I wasn't sure about this but the least I can do to convince Dhruv to talk to Nikhil bhiya. She smiled sadly and then again resume to her work. I started chopping the dry fruits for kheer.

Someone clear the throat.

It's him. He is calling bhabhi but I can feel his eyes on me. I lower down my eyes and didn't turn to him. His heating gaze boring the holes on my back. I can feel the goose bumps on my nape.

"I go and check Rayansh." After saying this bhabhi leave the kitchen.

I hear his feet walking inside the kitchen and feel his presence very close to me. I keep my gaze down and trying to pretend doing my work. Suddenly it becomes hard to chop the dry fruits. I was chopping them unevenly.

"How was your day?" He asked softly.

"It was fine." I said in a low voice still not looking at him.

"I am sorry, I have to leave early to settle down few things with my landlord." He said in a soft voice.

I just nodded my head.

I drop the knife and was about to leave when he hold my hand from behind. I still did not turn. My heart was beating faster and I barely feel my breathing. He gradually pulled me towards him. His hard chest touched to my back and I closed my eyes when he gently hide his face in the crook of my neck. He was not kissing, but I can feel his lips on my neck.

We both stood in silence. We can both hear the heartbeats of each other. Sometimes silence speaks louder than words. He is not hugging me but I still feel the warmth of his arms.

"Okay Rayansh, we should check your mumma on garden." Both Dhruv and I immediately stood apart when we saw Nikhil bhiya in the kitchen, covering Rayansh eyes with his hand. My cheeks flamed seeing Nikhil bhiya there.

"Your chachu and chachi are busy in romancing. You are too young for this." Nikhil bhiya say to Rayansh and tickled him in the stomach. Rayansh laughed and started throwing his little arms towards Nikhil bhiya.

I could not see myself getting teased by Nikhil bhiya So I leaved from there leaving both Dhruv and Nikhil bhiya in the kitchen.

*****

After dinner everyone left to their room while I stay behind with Nikita bhabhi to clean the kitchen. I asked her to go to her room but stay with me and helped me in the kitchen. By now I came to know that Nikita bhabhi has the golden heart like Nikhil bhiya. That's why Nikhil bhiya love her so much.

At dinner table when I served the kheer to everyone, Anuradha aunty didn't touch it when she came to know that I made it while Divya had two bowls of kheer. She still loved everything I cooked. She didn't say anything but the way she licked her spoon I know she love the kheer. Gautam uncle and Nikhil bhiya also loved the kheer but I don't know about Dhruv as he has no expressions on his face. He looked list. He didn't even have the food properly. He excused himself early and leave fir his room.

When I came to room

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