The door didnt budge, I knocked a little more and nothing, I knocked repeatedly in hopes to maybe wake him up and when I heard footsteps on the other side I set on a grin and stepped back ready to beam up at him as I held off the urge to bounce in place with excitement.

The door swung open and I was met with the tall god who was once full of life look paler than I'd ever seen him before, dark circles coated under his eyes and he looked far slimmer his inky hair a mess. His once vibrant green eyes now dull and tired looking.

My smile fell instantly.

I went to say something but my mouth was fumbling for words, why did I expect him to look completely fine?

I shut my mouth when he began to glare, his dark brows creased and his familiar lip curled in disgust. A disgust for me that I had not seen since the beginning of meeting him. 

"When I instructed Stark to give you the order to stay away I did not mean for you to return within the week." His voice was scratchy and angry and It made my heart plummet to my feet. 

"I-I was just-trying to-" I'd never stumbled over my words so much, and every time I did he seemed to get angrier. I went to turn and point to the stars illuminating the place in a wordless plea to look at what I had done for him.

But when I turned back around the door was slammed in my face and I flinched wildly. I was shaking as I gripped the railing to walk down the small flight of stairs to the bottom. 

Looking around at the plants hanging from different areas and glowing stars only made my eyes water as I scampered out of the penthouse. 

I just mess up everything. I can't even repay him in the slightest, who am I kidding? it was a stupid idea to even think I could in the first place!

I sat on the roof that night.

I hadn't since I had been found by him all that time ago, how I had let myself get so frail and grow to the verge of death at that point.

 I shuddered, but I let the cold wind whip across my tear-stained cheeks and tug at my loose pajamas as I crouched and hugged my knees looking over the building to the city below.

A gust of wind could easily knock me off. 

Would it be qui-

"what are you doing?" 

I flinched at the coldness of him behind me but didn't answer, I just rest my chin on my knees and continued to look down at the bustling colorful city. I heard an annoyed sigh and heavy steps, I didn't move but was forced to when my shirt was caught in a fist and I was yanked away from the ledge onto my back.

I groaned and glared at him as he returned it down to me before he bent down and scooped me up tossing me over his shoulder. I grunted and kicked at him "Let me go!" I whined tearing up as the lights were fading as we walked further back toward the door of the tower.

I and dad never got a nice view of the lights from this height and I wanted to enjoy them "you'll fall off" he grunted.

"What if I wanted to"  All my problems would be gone. I'd be free of worry.

He halted and I gulped. His body stiffened like never before and I tensed in return fearing I was going to be punished for saying such a thing, fearing the idea of a needle or blade puncturing my skin.

I squeezed my eyes shut as I was lowered to the ground. I didn't feel a punch, slap, or kick.

I felt gentle, yet cold fingers lifting my jaw and cupping my cheeks. 

"You mean too much to me to let you do that."

"Well, it doesn't feel like I do!" I felt stupid, irrational for being selfish with my feelings like this. But for too long had it been back and forth dancing over the fact that I liked him and deep down I knew he liked me too.

I felt silly, like a child with a crush and stuck on what to do with it not knowing whether or not we should continue to battle each other's feelings or to just outright confess them and get it over with. 

I wanted the second option. 

I let my eyes open and he stood there with a stoic hardy expression his fingers tucking loose strands of my hair behind my ears. The small actions sent tingles through my skin and flushed my cheeks despite the chill of the wind whipping them.

"I do not know how to express my feelings for you Sparrow" 

All composure seemed to go out of the window when he sighed and his tense form slunk with exhaustion, he pressed his forehead to mine and I felt his frigid breath against my face. "I-I am not someone worthy-"

I stopped his fumbling by pulling back and cupping his face in return as his hands slid from my cheeks, "you put yourself too high up Loki, have you ever asked what I was thinking?"

He pursed his lips and subtly shook his head "you wouldn't want a monst-"

"Loki...I dont want a monster you're right"

His brows creased and he went to step away but I caught him and kept him steady from leaving before I finished, "I want you, and you aren't a monster, not to me you aren't."

He seemed completely engrossed in what I was saying that not a single word left his parted lips,

 "Tony told me you gave up your magic for me, to come back here, and ever since I couldn't figure why you would take such a large part of you away...would you care to...enlighten me?" I paused to find the right word,

"It is because-because-"

I smiled softly, let go of him, and turned away, I walked closer to the door that took me back into the tower waiting for his cue. 

My feet were making their own way closer and closer to my exit, the wind pulling my hair away from my face and giving me a clear view of the other ledge of the tower as the stars twinkled in interest at the scene breaking out below them.

I'd refuse to admit it but my heart was racing like no tomorrow and the blood pumping through my face and ears was preserving the heat in my body preventing the chill from consuming me.

Any second now he'd-

"IT'S BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SPARROW!"

bingo.

I smiled so joyfully that when I turned around it completely caught me off guard when he crashed his lips into mine in a forceful heat of passion and love.