I stepped back when the screeching redhead lurched out of the water and came flying toward me, in a flash Loki's back obscured my view and his voice darkened to her even though I couldn't really see the two's expressions.

"I suggest you pick yourself up and leave this instant. Before I order every guard in Asgard to lock both you and your entire family away in the dungeons for all of eternity." 

It was silent for a moment before she stepped away from him and scampered out of the large greenhouse we were standing in. My hands were trembling as I fisted the cloth material that slid down my legs and pooled at my feet.

"Loki. Really that was childish of me, Im...sorry" my voice was a bit shaky as I looked down feeling small for such an act, who was I to come in and push people around like that? I dont even know the girl and It felt weird to stick my nose in other people's business.

I heard him turn before he let out a soft chuckle "you scold yourself far more than I do sweetheart if anything you deserve an applause for such a great show" 

My brows creased as I looked up at him in confusion so he elaborated "I would have pushed her in myself had the idea crossed my mind quick enough and had I not been such a gentleman I couldn't risk tarnishing my reputation further here" my lip tugged up.

"so you were going to do it before I was?"

"All things aside, well, yes"

I let out a giggle and covered my hand over my mouth when he stepped forward and lightly took it from near my face and brought it to his lips. I stopped laughing and felt like a furnace when he applied a chat kiss to my knuckles.

"I appreciate what you did for me Sparrow, really I do"

I gulped "it-it was nothing really, um but-" He let my hand slip from his as I stumbled over my words "-I heard a lot and I shouldn't have I think a lot of what you guys were saying was very private-"

"if you'd allow me to I'd like to explain" I blinked up at him in surprise, He wanted to tell me more about it? 

I inhaled carefully and nodded, "Sure"

-

I and Loki spoke for hours, we walked the entire length of the massive garden room glancing at the multitude of colorful flowers while he explained. He told me that before all of the things that happened on earth he was caged in an arranged marriage set by his father.

Who figured that it would be best if Loki had a partner to ease his growing hatred for Odin. Of course, that partner ended up being a terrible match for him as she used him like a rubber band, pulling him forward with affection before snapping him away and pretending he didn't exist stretching his every limit of love.

It's what made him lose sight of the good things and contributed to the need to rule over people as she did with him. She cheated on him with countless men, hearing him explain and his voice crack made me want to punch a wall. Which, mind you, I've never wanted to do before.

One day he walked in on Thor and Sigyn getting it on in his own room. It stunned him entirely because she put up this perception of loving him for so long. 

He didn't hesitate to call off the wedding entirely and ignored how angry Sigyn's father was about the ordeal because he didn't target his vexation toward his daughter but to Loki.

Amongst all of this, he was still trying to gain an appreciation from his father who seemed to only push him out even further, disgusted with Loki's ideas and assuming that he canceled the wedding because he wanted to get out of it last minute. 

"We had an argument that night and I thought I'd never get to leave this place again, it was like a prison, as though I could not truly reach my potential when everyone here was bringing me down even if some of it was unintentional, aside from mother of course."

I sniffled and shook my head "It's so unfair, you didn't deserve that sort of treatment, you dont now, even after everything" He glanced at me and offered a weak smile before looking up through the glass.

"It is fairly dark, we should retire for the night"

I glanced up and agreed the sparkling stars twinkled in the black sky above us yet the greenhouse still had a blueish-green soft tone mixture from the moonlight that bathed us both.

I nodded softly and we headed toward the exit and when we got to my room I was surprised to be squeezed by him and my face pressed to his chest. I quickly eased and hugged him back as he whispered a quick goodnight before he let go, turned, and headed down another corridor as if it had never happened.

That night I couldn't sleep as my mind raged with all the different things that happened tonight and it kept me up till the early hours of the morning as the light began to turn a soft orange an yellow hue.

When I finally did manage to sleep It was not long before I was woken by a certain god who poked my cheek as I smacked his hand away "whaaaffff" I muffled into the cloud-like pillow muffling my word.

"It is time to awaken we must eat quickly as I have something to show you, I peeked an eye open and narrowed it at how bouncy he seemed this morning a large grin split on his face.

"You seem very excited so I'll give you the chance" I groaned and sat up, he nodded "I will give you some time to fix yourself"

I nodded drowsily and listened to the door shut after he left, I bathed and cleaned myself up fixing my hair and letting it flow down my shoulders for this morning. I grimaced at the sight of my stretch marks and scars on my legs and torso when I was getting changed, I never liked them but I couldn't remove them.

I sighed at the thought of Georgia telling me my stretch marks were completely natural and perfectly beautiful because each and every one of them was unique. I chuckled at the memory of her drawing blue lines over them and claiming they were like little lakes.

But the thoughts turned bitter when I thought back to Megan. What ever happened to her? to my dad?

I ground my teeth, why the hell did it take me so long to start wondering this?

I inhaled sharply letting the soft cream dress with a crisis cross lace back hug my figure in the mirror as I turned out my slip ons tapping the floor when I whipped the door open. Loki nearly fell into me but steadied himself.

He gave me a look of surprise as I began rushing out my words like no tomorrow "Loki what happened to Megan and my dad? No one even told me what happened after that day and-and it just doesn't make sense! did you guys catch them I-"

"Sparrow, calm yourself you-" I inhaled sharply and exhaled and suddenly my lungs were restricting how much air I was taking in. 

"you-did you even-" I opened my mouth in an attempt to suck in more air but it was only failing.

I saw his panicked face through blurred eyes which only worried me more, what if he's still out there? planning? what if he hurts Jhon? or someone from the team? I'll never forgive myself.

"Sparrow. breathe." His hands gripped my shoulders but I only stumbled back over my feet as he caught me. My hands were shaking and my heart was hurting as I couldn't escape whatever I was stuck in.

I couldn't feel my legs and hands and all I could hear was the fuzzy voice of Loki but my vision was too blurred to make out where he was. I felt sick to my stomach and the bile rose up my throat when I thought about him massacring everyone I loved.

My legs buckled and it felt like I weighed a tonne as he sunk me to the floor slowly.

"Spar-

Sparr-

Sparrow!

Sparrow. listen to me. You are alright. He's not here, he won't ever hurt you again because-

because he's dead Sparrow. Your biological father is gone."

I choked for a moment and blinked rapidly as I felt his hands grounding me on my shoulders, "now I need you to breathe for me, take in deep breathes and focus on something, anything"

I looked into what I could easily make out were his eyes and I gripped his hands tight, I focused on his lips when he began breathing "that's it, focus on how I'm doing it"

I watched his chest rise and fall before my eyes focused on his lips. The bile that was rising stayed put in my stomach and feeling in my legs and arms were returning. I blinked rapidly and gasped for breath reaching for him as he instantly caught me and pulled me into his lap as I sobbed.

I had major conflict in my mind, he's gone but did I want him gone? of course, I did. Didnt I?

"Loki-why-why do I feel sad about it?"

 I choked out and grabbed at his tunic as though it would ground me. He sighed softly stroking my back carefully, 

"because you wanted a connection with him, you can't help the things your heart long for, you may not have known him personally because of-what he did, but that doesn't mean it's unnatural to have longed for a real bond with your biological father..."

I nodded and let out a muffled cry as he hushed me carefully and rocked me softly until my eyes could cry no more tears and exhaustion swept over me. "Your-" I cleared my throat "-you wanted to do something today and I ruined it-"

"no, no, hush now, we will have none of that, it's alright, you will rest and if you are feeling up for it later we can go if not, any other day will be just fine"

I peered up at him and sniffled as his brows creased "Are you sure?" I mumbled feeling bad about ruining what he had in mind. If it wasn't for my stupid thoughts we could have been doing what he was so excited for right now.

"Hey" His hands cupped my cheeks and titled my head up when I looked down "do not go blaming yourself for your rational panic, come let's rest we have enough time to do things later"