Blair POV
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   It's been one week. One week and I haven't talked to Grayson. I don't even get to see him since winter break started. One week where neither of us had tried to reach out.

   I'm sure all my friends know what happened. I told Natalie myself. But Noah texted me, heard what happened, wanna talk about it?, I said no of course.

   This winter break sucks. Natalie and her family are gone on vacation so I've spent it alone. Emma has also been gone, but she got back today. Tomorrow is Christmas, and after that there's only one week left of break. Luckily I just got a text from Emma.

    Do you wanna hangout today? I want to give you your Christmas gift- E

   Yes please, I'm dying of boredom-B

   I have no idea if Emma knows. But if Noah does, I'm sure she does too.

   Yay! Come over whenever- E

   I'll come in ten- B

   I am beyond relieved. The fight, or whatever it was, between me and Grayson ended weirdly. I had no idea where we stood, and I was scared that Emma wouldn't talk to me. I know Emma isn't that type of person, but it's her cousin. So I had no idea what to think.

   I grab Emma's gift and head to my car. She just bought herself a record player, so I bought her the record of a band she likes. I suck at gifts and that's all I could think of.

   I get to her house and ring the doorbell. Her mom answers and gives me a huge smile and hug. "Hey Lisa."

   "Blair, I've missed you!" She starts to rant, "Charlotte told me that something happened between you and Grayson, I was scared you wouldn't want to come over anymore." My eyes widen what she said. How would Grayson's mom know about what happened? I hope she didn't, because that would be way more embarrassing. "Oh, and then I heard you went on a date with Drew a couple weeks ago, did the fight have to do something about that?" My cheeks turn a deep shade of red. I didn't want their family to think I was causing drama. Especially between the two brothers.

   "Mom!" Emma scolded from up the stairs, "Mind your own business, Blair come up here!"

   "Fine, fine" Lisa rolled her eyes, "Go on and head up to her room." I give her a smile, and run up the stairs.

   "God, I'm so sorry." Emma said when I walked into her room.

   "How does Grayson's mom even know what happened? That's so embarrassing."

   "She doesn't," Emma said. "She just knows that something did happen between the two of you."

   "How?"

   "Ok, don't tell Grayson I'm telling you this, or he would probably kill me. But ever since your guys fight or whatever, he's been acting super grumpy. His whole family is home for the holidays, and they all kept asking him why he was in such a bad mood. And apparently Luke overheard Grayson telling Carter and Noah what happened, and so when they asked again Luke told everyone that you and Grayson got in a fight. But he didn't go into details about what, and Grayson didn't want to talk about it."

   "Oh." I was speechless, and very embarrassed. Because if his little brother knows what happened, I'm sure he would tell the rest of the siblings. Then what she said suddenly kicked in. "He's been in a bad mood because of it?"

   "I mean yea, he misses you. You're like his best friend and you guys literally would hangout every day."

   "He misses me?"

   "I mean duh, don't you miss him?" Did I miss him? Yes, a lot. I didn't realize how much time I spent with him until this past week. I miss the sleepovers, and the talks, and even the sometimes kisses. Even when they didn't mean anything to him, they meant something to me. And I really missed them and him.

   "Yes."

   "Then you guys should talk and fix things, I don't even know why you guys aren't fine."

   "He didn't tell you?"

    "No, it's like a unspoken rule that none of us could bring up your name. Noah did once and they got in a fight."

    "Seriously?"

    "Yea, it was bad. I don't know what happened between you guys, but Noah was yelling at him to fix things. Apparently Noah warned him this would happened, but apparently he chose to continue to be a, and I quote, big dipshit."

   I sigh and tell her everything that happened. I told her Grayson didn't do anything wrong, it's not his fault he doesn't like me. I shouldn't have gotten mad at him, he was letting me down nicely.

   "Well, he shouldn't have said you were embarrassing yourself." She said, "He was definitely jealous and told the guys to get you, I don't know why he would say otherwise. I think he's just confused how he feels. It's always been Ashlyn for him. Ashlyn was his first love, his first everything, and I don't think he wants to admit that he might like someone else. I feel like he thinks he's betraying Ashlyn or something."

    "You think he might like me?"

    "Of course Blair, a guy would be crazy not to like you. You're literally perfect. And he acts like he likes you, the guys made a joke one time about asking you on a date, and he flipped." He might like me. No, she thinks he likes me. My heart starts to beat faster. She shouldn't have told me that, because now I have that stupid feeling in my chest. Hope. But I also don't want to ruin our friendship.

   "Girls! Come downstairs, the cookies are done." Lisa always makes cookies when I come over. Grayson told her and his mom about how much of a baker my mom used to be. And he told them about how I would come home and there would always be treats baking, like how it is with Charlotte. So now, Lisa always makes cookies when I come over.

   "God, I love when you come over." Emma grins and starts to head downstairs, I follow her.

   "So what are your plans for tomorrow?" Lisa asks.

   "Nothing."

   "But it's Christmas" Emma says confused.

   "Yea, but my dad left a couple days ago for vacation. He went with his girlfriend and her kids." Both of their eyes widen and they look at each other. They seem to be having a silent conversation with their eyes. Lisa gives a nod and Emma starts to talk.

   "Well, then it's obvious that you're spending Christmas with us."

   "No, I couldn't intrude..."

   "Don't be stupid honey, we love you. It would not be intruding, and I'd be offended if you said no."

   "Oh, ok. I guess I'm spending it with you guys then." I give them a genuine smile. Emma squeals and gives me a hug. I give her one back, just as enthusiastic as hers. Because I was, I was very happy I wasn't spending Christmas alone. "I'll give you your gift tomorrow instead then." She nods and says the same thing. We hangout for a few hours before I head home.

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   It's Christmas morning, and I'm up and ready. Emma told me yesterday before I left, that they tend to dress extra nice for Christmas. So I decided to put on a red dress, not too fancy but not too casual. I also curled my hair and put makeup on.

   I open my front door to leave, and suddenly stop. In front of my door, is a small box with a note attached to it. I pick up the box and note.

   A bee, like your name. B like a bee, if you didn't get it. Anyways, Merry Christmas B, love you always.
   Gray

   My heart stops when I open the box. In the box is a little silver bee charm. I smile, Grayson remembered that I had a charm bracelet. I'm actually wearing it right now. I told him how my mom got one for Christmas one year when I was younger, and every birthday and Christmas I'd get a new charm from her. But I haven't gotten a new charm in years, since she passed away.

   I smile and put the charm on my bracelet. I then head to my car and drive to Emma's. I feel very weird, and I can't explain it. It's like I want to cry, but I cant. And I feel butterflies in my stomach, but I don't know if it's a good or bad feeling. And I feel like I can't breath, but I'm breathing.

   Whatever I'm feeling, I need to push it away and just enjoy my Christmas. I get to Emma's house and walk in. "Hello?" I shout, opening the door.

   "Hurry up Emma!" Lisa runs into the room and gives me a hug. "You look gorgeous Blair."

   "Thank you, you also look stunning."

   "I do clean up nice I guess." She smiles at me. Emma runs down the stairs in a black dress.

   "You look so pretty Em." I smile at her and Lisa agrees.

   "Look at you Blair, you get prettier every time I see you. So not fair." I roll my eyes and give her a hug.

   "Ok! Are you girls ready to go?" We both nod and walk out the door.

   "Where are we going?" I whisper to Emma. She looks at me and gives me a sheepish smile.

   "Grayson's."

   You've got to be kidding me.

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