CHAPTER 21 (Part One)

(A/N: Let me know if you find any grammatical mistakes. Sometimes my laptop changes the words automatically and gets them wrong.)

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The feeling of hands detaching me from Kaiden jerk me back to reality. My eyes glare into Jamie’s as he pries my paws off Kaiden’s face. “He’s dead, Scar. Come on, let him go and Patricia will take him. I’m so sorry honey.” He pulls me into his embrace and I cry openly in his arms. 

“I’m having his baby. What am I supposed to do?” I whisper, choking on a sob. 

“Live your life. You have a part of him inside you. Just remember that.” He murmurs in reassurance. 

A savage roar breaks the silence and my head whips towards the sound to find Cade his eyes pitch black as he finally lifts his head from the dead rogue he’d literally ripped to pieces. Oh God. The curse. So lost in my distraught I’d forgotten for a few minutes. 

I watched in horror as he runs wild towards pack members his intent on killing clear to see. I had to stop this before someone else I loved died. 

Not thinking about the consequences I sprint in wolf form towards Cade darting in between him and another female, leaving about 20 metres in between us, enough time to try and calm him down. 

Shifting back into human form, knowing full well I’d be completely naked, but also aware that I wouldn't be able to talk to him while shifted I begin, “Cade, Cade! Look at me. It’s me. Scarlett. Please calm down.” 

Cade comes to a quick halt in front of me, but the look of danger is still in his eyes and I proceed, staring into his eyes hoping to see the real him behind the dilated pupils. 

“Come on, Cade. This is not you and you know it. You can beat it. I know you can. You want to know why? Because I believe in you. You hear me? I believe. In. You.”

I watch as Cade struggles internally to fight the curse his eyes wild slowly beginning to dim before he collapses onto the ground in a heap. 

Falling to the ground with him I pull his head into my lap, accepting the long tee Jamie hands me that I slip on over my naked flesh. Brushing the hair off of his face I murmur sweet words to him as he slowly regains consciousness. “You’re okay. I’m here. Everything’s going to be okay.” Even though I didn't exactly believe my own words I knew it was true. Everything would be okay. Maybe not in a few hours or even months, but eventually. 

I take in a sharp breath when I notice Cade’s eyes flicker open. “Letti?”

“I’m here Cay, you saved me, I’m here.” Using his nickname I reassure him. 

“Don’t leave me. I know I’m a monster, but please don't leave me.” I nearly burst into a new set of tears as I notice the vulnerability in his eyes. 

“You’re not a monster. You’re you. Caring, Compassionate, but not a monster. Never a monster.” I kiss his forehead and take him into my arms, knowing it was exactly what he needed right now. 

We just sit there for a few minutes before he breaks the silence with a question. “Where’s Kaiden? I want to thank him for coming when he did.”

I shake my head sadly. “He’s dead. The rogues killed him.” 

“Oh, pretty girl, come here.” He pulls me back into his embrace as I begin to tear up. “I’m so sorry. Really, I am. He was what you deserved.”

With Cade’s arms around me I let my tears free.

“Come on, let’s get you inside so you and Little One can sleep.” Without a second thought I curl up into his embrace as he lifts me in his arms bridal style, tears continuing to flow down and around the curves of my cheeks.

I faintly notice that Cade is taking me to his room, but at this point in time I don't care. This is what I need. His comfort. If only just for tonight. 

When we reach his room he lays be gently under the covers and into the warmth of his bed. After he’s settled me in he gives me a featherlight kiss onto my forehead and then begins to leave the room. 

“No! Don't leave me. Please, please, don't leave me.” The words come out of my mouth as a breathless whimper. I’m swallowing back tears. 

Immediately he’s back by my side, brushing the hair that has fallen across my face away. “I’m just getting a blanket so I can sleep on the couch, okay. I’ll be back in a second, promise.” 

As promised he reappears minutes later holding a blanket and a pillow. He settles himself on the floor beside me and reaches a hand up. I intertwine my fingers with his and feel a strange comfort. 

“Sleep, pretty girl.” Cade whispers and with those words I drift off to sleep with his hand in mine, sad dreams awaiting me. 

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When I wake in the morning my hand is empty and Cade isn’t lying on the floor anymore. The panic begins as a pit settles in my stomach. My heart beat falters and my eyes start to burn with unshed tears. 

I need him, I need him, I need him.

A door opens to my right and my head whips in that direction to find Cade with a towel wrapped around his waist and another in his hands as he dries his dripping hair. When he sees the panic in my eyes he immediately sprints over to me and pulls me into his arms and onto his lap, rocking me back and forth to calm me down. 

As if knowing why I was panicked he whispers gentle words to me: “I’m here, Letti. I was just having a shower. I’m sorry, baby. I’m not leaving you, I swear, pretty girl, I’m not leaving you… or Little One. Ever.” 

I begin to relax as he continues to rock me back and forth. 

“I need to call his parents and organise his funeral.” Not knowing where my phone is I ask Cade if I can borrow his. 

When Brandon answers the phone I almost burst into tears once more. They sound so alike. 

“I’m so sorry. I couldn’t do anything to stop them.” I choke out the words. 

“Oh no. Please, no.” And the next thing I hear is Kaiden’s father sob. I begin to cry with him, especially when I hear Trisha’s voice on the line asking whats wrong. Not seconds later she begins to cry too. 

Some rustling occurs and then Trisha speaks. “But the baby, the baby’s okay?” 

I nod, then realise she can’t see me. “The baby’ fine and healthy. Kaiden saved us.” I pause. “Trish I’m so sorry. This is all my fault.” 

“No, honey. Don’t say that, don’t ever say that. Kaiden would hate you for thinking this is your fault. No one is to blame but the person that killed him.” 

I sob once more. “I don’t want to say goodbye.” Cade, who had walked out of the room to give me some privacy comes back inside and pulls me into his arms, giving me the comfort I hopelessly need right now. 

“Honey, you don’t have to. Kaiden will always be with you, in your heart and in that beautiful baby of yours you both created.” 

“Thank you, Trish. That’s exactly what I needed to hear right now.” I murmur. “I don’t know what to do about the funeral.”

“Don’t worry about that, we’ll all handle it together. Even if Kaiden’s gone Brandon and I are still your family. Why don’t you pack yourself up and come here for a while and we’ll sort it out when you get here?” 

I barely whisper an ‘okay’ but manage to give her some sort of confirmation. We say are goodbyes and then hang up.

I am so not ready for this. 

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