"Soooo...." Rya planted her lunch tray down on the table as she took her seat next to me. "What does Roman's c um-face look like?"

  I choked on my drink and almost spat it out from coughing too much.

   "What?" she shrugged cluelessly. "Haven't you guys even...?"

   "We didn't." I replied. We did, or at least he did, but I didn't know why telling Rya was such a big deal. Seeing how humiliated and panicked Roman was about the whole thing would make me feel so horrible for telling Rya about it.

   "You didn't..." she repeated slowly. "Then what did you do?"

   "Nothing." I lied. She wasn't buying it. "We just kissed again." She wasn't buying that either. "Oh c'mon, Rya! You have no idea how innocent the guy is." He had never had an o rgasm. What kind of eighteen-year-old boy has never had an o rgasm?! I swear every boy in Ninth Grade was obsessed with comparing dick sizes and swapping links to porn sites.

  But Roman wasn't like the other boys.

  Oh, for Christ's sake! How fucking cliché was that.

  Every guy has biological instincts whether he likes it or not, so he must've gotten hard before. I knew he had gotten hard before from yesterday. And he was packing. Dude, not now.

  He didn't show for tutoring this morning which only led me to assume his embarrassment from yesterday meant he couldn't face me. Did he know that it was normal to even do that? But Roman loved Science meaning he must know how things... worked.

   "I don't understand it. Its like he's never done... anything before." I leaned in and whispered. There were too many girls at our lunch table who liked to gossip. I noticed Nikki continuously giving us side eyes.

   "When you say 'anything'... do you mean..." I gave her a look to make her understand. "Well, damn." She blew out a breath and looked around the hall. "Bathroom?"

   "Bathroom." I nodded.

  Rya grabbed her pizza slice and wrapped it in tissue before stuffing a handful of fries into her mouth.

   "Seriously?"

   "What?" she said with half a mouthful. "A girl's gotta eat."

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  'Bathroom' was a code every girl knew. It didn't really mean 'I need to pee' but more of 'I need to chat shit or spill the tea'.

No one else was in here considering most students used the bathroom to escape class and we were here during lunch.

   "I don't know what to do." I confessed. "I could deal with him not having kissed a girl but how can I.... how can he.... Urgh!" I threw my hands in the air.

  Rya pulled out a tube of lip-gloss and started applying it in the mirror. "Well, maybe you should show him."

   "You mean jerk him off?"

   "No – well yeah – but show him what he's been missing." She slapped her lips together and popped them after applying the gloss.

   "You're telling me to have a porn movie night with him?" a porn movie night? I didn't even know how to feel about that.

   "I'm telling you to get him used to the idea of sex and women. Has he even seen the act of sex? Seen a woman naked? If you throw him straight into the deep end, the boy's gonna drown. You need to get him used to the idea of swimming first."

  I huffed and walked over to the mirror; my hair was looking a little frizzy today. My natural hair was curly and so I spent at least an hour in the morning trying to tame it. Straightening it was my best option.

   "I don't even know what porn to give him. Most porn is super unrealistic and targets men. If he wants to be great at sex, porn will only bring him down by giving him stupid expectations." I hated how sex was so male orientated. When I lost my virginity, I was so disappointed because I thought it was going to be the best thing ever. Instead, I had the feeling a chainsaw ripping me in half, bloody sheet, and a sore pussy for three days. I was so confused and upset but Rya explained to me that it took time and the right partner to make sex feel amazing. I never understood why girls weren't taught that.

   "That, my friend, is why you have me." She pointed her lip gloss tube at me. "I know the best porn sites for women to help him learn realistically, and the best books that go into so much specific detail that not even the Pope couldn't baptise you."

  I laughed and ran a hand through my hair. "And you think he'll be more comfortable with it all?"

  "I promise you, that boy will be jerking off ten times a week." Jesus, you need to help this girl.

  I chuckled and nodded, "Just don't give him any of that BDSM stuff you like. I don't need him traumatised too."

  Rya's face went bright red and her eyes widened. "I don't like –"

   "Oh, shut up! Every book you read has a picture of someone's wristed tied or a whip plastered on the cover, and you forget to delete your tabs on your laptop all the time. Last week I saw leather bondage on there –"

   "Okay!" she waved her hands frantically for me to stop. I grinned at her cherry red face as she tried to compose herself. "I'll make sure I get the right ones."

   "Perfect." I smiled contently and walked out of the bathroom.

   "And keep your fat ass out of my sex life!" I heard her call out which only made me giggle and reply,

   "Never! As long as your small ass keeps being my best friend!" I winked and she laughed back.

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  It was now after school and the mall was calling me. Rya was busy being studious Rya and so I had to go on my own which sucked, but I needed my shopping fix. So, standing in Victoria Secrets, examining the several thongs before me, I wondered what to buy. The dark green one had a sexy flare to it, but the light blue was so cute and innocent it screamed 'fuck me'.

  I was never too into lingerie shopping when I was with Adam. I knew what he liked which was the baby doll dresses and so I bought myself a rainbow of them. I was never too into them because I found that they got in the way of things and I never thought I looked sexy enough in them. However, he loved them.

  I huffed and looked back at my phone. I couldn't find Adam at lunch and so I texted him to see if he was okay. He left me on read. Adam had never left me on read like that before and it was slightly heart-breaking.

   "See anything you're looking for?" a voice popped up beside me, one of the workers at the store came up to me and smiled. Sometimes I believed Victoria Secret's workers were drones of some kind with the constant smile glued to their faces.

   "I don't really know what I'm looking for." I confessed. I didn't even need to buy lingerie. Was Roman going to judge my basic cotton panties? The boy would just be excited to see a woman's panties.

   "Well, most of our thongs here are part of a matching set." She took the marigold yellow thong and pulled out one of the draws below to take out a matching lace bra. I didn't think yellow could even be a sexy colour, but it somehow worked with the set. "D'you want me to set you up in a fitting room?"

Why the hell not? I nodded.

  I was surprised by how hot I looked in the piece. My tan skin worked well to make the yellow not as loud but more fun and playful and my boobs and ass were accentuated massively. Damn, get it girl!

  I decided to buy  the set and got another pair in a deep plum colour, and happily walked up to the register. Who knew buying underwear could give you a boost of endorphins?

  However, it was when I was at the register, a familiar light blonde was buying a back of neon coloured booty shorts. Emily Lewis. A.K.A Roma's big, fat crush. What a perfect coincidence.

   "Emily?" I asked innocently. She looked back at me, slightly in shock.

   "Um... yes?" she nervously smiled. Oh yeah, girls like Emily think they don't exist to girls like me.

  I glanced down at the underwear she was buying and nodded. "I didn't strike you as the booty shorts kind of girl."

  Girl, you were literally having a mini crisis in what lingerie you like.

  Not now.

   "Erm, yeah." She smiled softly back.

   "Why the pick?" I curiously questioned. Tell me something sexual so I can teach it to Roman please!

   "I don't know. I was talking to Chad Willman and he said booty short are really sexy, so I thought 'why not' I guess." She was obviously awkward being in my presence which was something I'd gotten used to over the past years. People easily expect me to beat them up or ruin their life, but I wasn't about that. I just wanted to be on top. If you didn't get in my way, there was no reason to do any of that.

  But Chad Willman. He was captain of the Football team which meant ultimate cliché jock.

   "You should never listen to anything Chad says. The guy can't tell the difference between Harry Potter and Percy Jackson." I laughed to myself. Emily looked confused. "They're books, I – never mind." Think back to Roman. "What I mean is, you should want to impress someone smart. Someone who'll see you beyond ass and tits." Someone like Roman!

   "And Chad isn't smart?" Emily furrowed her eyebrows.

   "The guy thinks The Catcher in The Rye is about a baseball star."

  Emily frowned down at the booty shorts like they ate her cat. "Oh." She then lightly chuckled to herself. "You're probably right. Thanks for the heads up, Sienna. It means a lot." It probably meant a lot because she didn't expect a girl like me to talk to a girl like her.

   "No problem. Us girls have to have each other's backs, right?" she nodded at the comment and paid for the shorts.

  Roman so owed me.

  I got a to-go coffee at Starbucks and was about to walk back to my car. I needed to show Rya the underwear I bought to make sure I looked as sexy in them as. I thought.

I swear girls could send each other nudes and it's be viewed as completely normal.

I also needed to go round hers tomorrow morning to collect all the stuff I needed for Roman. I could t imagine how embarrassed he was today to not even show up this morning. Maybe my reaction wasn't as sympathetic? Maybe I needed to be more careful? Maybe he didn't wasn't to do this anymore?

Calm down, Sienna. If he didn't want to do this, he'd tell you.

But he hasn't told me anything after yesterday.

You'll talk to on Sunday.

Yes. Sunday.

I was almost at the glass doors that led to the parking lot when two figures in a shop window stopped me dead.

  Sam's Silver & Gold. A jewellery shop in the middle of the mall with an LED white sign against a gold background. The shop itself had preteen, white, marble flooring with gold and silver accents everywhere inside.

  I had been in the shop before with my dad when he wanted to get my mom a present for Valentines Day, but it wasn't the shop that stopped me dead, it was the people in it.

  Adam was placing a gold necklace around Leah's neck, whispering something in her ear that made her giggle. I didn't ignore the way he took his time, allowing his fingers to brush the nape of her neck. Leah was on Cloud 9 at whatever he was saying and turned back to him when he finished and placed a soft kiss on his lips.

A kiss.

  I knew Adam had gotten with girls when we were on breaks, but I had never seen it. I didn't know what I would have done if I had seen it, but I wouldn't have hated him. I slept with other people too. However, there was something about the way he looked at her that made my heart hurt.

  He used to look at you that way.

  Anger bubbled in my veins and I fisted my hands. How could he do this? How could he fall in love with someone else whilst all I wanted was him?

  I noticed them about to leave the store and I jumped behind a wall. What would they think of me spying on them? I would look creepy and desperate. No. Sienna Callum was as cool as a cucumber.

  Yeah right.

   "You know you didn't have to get me anything." Leah told Adam as they walked out.

   "I know." Adam sighed, "But I wanted I prove something to you."

  I could imagine Leah's sweet smile. "And what's that, hmm?"

   "That you're the only one I've ever felt this way about."

  A lump gathered in my throat.

  You're the only one.

  You're the only one.

  You're the only one.

  What was I to him then?

  Without time to think, I stormed into the jewellery store. A woman at the front desk with strawberry blonde hair and stunning blue eyes stood at the counter, examining emerald cut rings with a magnify glass.

   "Excuse me." I walked up to her. "But I was wondering if you could help me?"

  She looked up and smiled, "Of course, sweetheart."

   "The couple that was just in here." I prepared myself. "What did he buy for the girl?"

  Around a year ago, for Valentines Day, Adam got me a gold necklace. It was of a heart and I wore it every day we weren't on a break, when I didn't, I hung it up on my vanity. It was the first real 'in love' gift I had ever gotten from him. It meant so much to me. Almost too much.

  The woman nodded and took out an i-Pad. "He designed it himself so it's one of a kind, but I've got it all here." She turned her i-Pad to show me the image.

  It was gold, with a crescent moon as a charm and a shimmering diamond glinting at the tip of it. It looked too similar to mine.

  What kind of game was he playing?

   "Thank you." I smiled and stormed out of the store.

  It didn't matter what kind of game he was playing. This meant war, bitch.

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❤︎ okay, so remember the last update where I was freaking out how this book has over 500 reads. It got to over 700 in the space of 24 hours and I can't be grateful enough! Sorry it's not a sexy time chapter but good things come to those who wait soooo ;)

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