33

Background color
Font
Font size
Line height

"I'll be at the cafe Friday afternoon." he spoke lowly trying to throw another lure in the sea you swam in hoping that you'd bite.

~~~

And bite you did, which is how you had found yourself in the little corner store next to the familiar café.

'Browsing' the isles the scent of coffee met your nose each time a new customer entered the store only to be overwhelmed by the smell of aircon once it closed again.

He had said afternoon and it was only around 4 since you had begged Ectoplasm to let you out early after rushing all of your work to get it done.

You could have melted to the floor when he agreed to your offer but said it was a once time thing so why now were you not filled with that ecstasy?

Were the results of your actions gnawing at your brain more than usual? Did you lose your fleeting confidence?

'If I should go meet him give me a sign.' You asked to no one in particular. Maybe the universe to let it decide your fate.

"Miss if you aren't going to get anything I'm going to have to ask you to leave it's been 20 minutes since you entered." The aging lady behind the counter called out to you, packets of cigarettes littering the wall behind her.

That certainly wasn't the answer that you were looking for it was so blatantly said it wasn't like a bottle fell and the cap pointed to the door, it was a blatant 'go, do it.'

Bowing your head down you wished you could shrink into yourself that you had gone with the hoodie instead of the purple & black splatter tie dye shirt and ripped skinny jeans that were beginning to feel suffocating.

Had he put thought into what he was going to wear, did he try picking something with your favourite colour/s, wait you hadn't mentioned your favourite/s.

Closing the door behind you taking a breath of fresh, much needed air.

Slowly walking to the opening of the cat café you kicked a couple of stray pebbles that had found their way onto the path from the bitumen.

Raising your head, it was the final chance to turn around and never look back, you scanned the people sat down laughing and chatting amongst one another.

If he wasn't there you would feel far less guilty about leaving now.

Scanning your eyes across the room from the window you were standing at you hadn't caught sight of him until you squinted to the back corner and your gazes locked.

His eyes widen in shock as he almost spat out the mouthful of black coffee that he had taken, choking on it slightly before promptly swallowing.

Relaxing your tensed muscles, you knew there was no chance now and that you would have to take a seat.

Raising a somewhat shaky hand you opened to glass door, welcomed in by the warmth.

Trudging over to the small table you couldn't face looking at him as you slumped in your seat wondering if anything was going to even happen.

"Uh hi? I didn't actually expect you to come." Shinso spoke saying the last part more to himself than anything.

"I got the drink you had last time you seemed to like it." he scratched the back of his neck, lifting your eyes you took note of the cup that had been in front of you the entire time, but your mind was too preoccupied to notice.

'This isn't going to end well' you foreshadowed the conversation, actually you foreshadowed his next topic.

Bringing a cat onto his lap Shinso paid most of his attention to it "By the way if you're worried about me being scared of you, I'm not so don't worry about things being different." Averting the said attention back to you as he watched as you took a sip of the beverage not a single expression was made on your part.

"You know I met someone a little while ago, a girl I really liked." The words were like a knife in the heart, like your little lovesick feelings had been for nothing.

There was someone else the entire time?

"Well, I still do but I don't think like is a good enough word." He muttered, and that pang in your heart was back as your stomach sank.

A small gasp of a laugh blew out of his mouth "I feel like you aren't hearing anything that I'm saying." Shinso failed to notice your shaking figure as you nervously toyed with your hands much like how he played with the kitty's fur.

"She's gorgeous, the way that her (e/c) eyes twinkle under the light, how she leans to the person shes most comfortable with when something hasn't gone to plan, it's adorable. The look of achievement when she finally figures out the answer. God how she fucking destroys people in battle and when she loses she does it with a smile and continues to cheer from the sidelines."

Clenching your hands into fists an unwarranted jealousy began filling into your system, crashing in like waves.

He had every right to be with whoever made him happy, but at the end of the day you wanted him to be with you, for you to be that person.

I guess these were the consequences of your actions that you would have to deal with until you got over it.

That idea ridded the stabbing in your chest however the numb feeling that took its place was so much worse.

"I finally found someone who didn't see me as the villain" you saw tears beginning to pool at the bottom of his eyes.

"Someone who I wanted to call me their Hero, and y/n I tried so hard." His voice began to quiver at the end, clutching onto the fluffy cat like a lifeline.

"But nothing I did worked, I tried everything I could think of, I tried to make her happy, I tried protecting her, hell I even thought about making her mine."

"Please just talk to me" The broken boy pleaded "I'm so sick of the silence." he had finally cracked.

It takes a lot of turmoil to break someone especially Shinso Hitoshi yet here you were sitting across from his as he didn't even try hide the tears that ran down his cheeks.

3rd POV~

He stared over at the girl who sat complacent hoping that he would get the slightest reaction out of her, and he did she was being filled with guilt.

An exponential amount of guilt.

How could she not have tried seeing it from his side? Why was she so adamant to drive a wall between the two?

Upon hearing his words, the life on her face slackened and vision blurred. He was there and she knew he was there but no matter how hard she tried she couldn't see him.

She wanted to cling on to him for dear life and explain everything, why she did it and how long she'd repent just to have him within arms-reach, but nothing was happening not a muscle in her body dared to move.

From his point of view, he was watching a robot, one who sat still in front simply listening to his pleads and not responding.

Who just sat there taking in the information, processing it before awaiting for an order to be dished out.

That's what hurt him the most what she had done in recent events and the days after and the pain that had cause was made to look insignificant when the person he loves? Yeah, loves was the right word did nothing after he poured out his heart to her.

Slowly she stood up placing her hands on the table for support, feeling as if her legs would fall out from under her at any given time.

Swaying to the side she felt unstable as her mind span around in circles screaming at her to leave, to take a breath of fresh air before she drove herself to insanity.

Pushing in her chair she was on autopilot, no matter how hard her heart begged her to stay and talk things through though her brain had other ideas.

The heart was willing to be shrivelled to nothing if it meant that the soft lavender haired boy could hear her say 'I love you.' The minds job was to protect the body and keep everything and check. She couldn't blame the heart for losing the battle.

He watched her figure walk away with not one look back. Peeping at the cat as he scratched the underneath of its chin.

"She didn't even stay long enough to let me tell her how much I love her." 

~~~

Word count: 1490

Art cred: (I wish I knew because I want to know if the did a story with the drawings or it was spontaneous D: ) below ana form pinterest uploaded it V.

...I dont even know what to say(x_x) I really just did that...

I apologise for being gone for over 2 weeks the Holidays have been hectic and also that I returned and went "Angst? I'll take half your stock pls." but I hope that you've enjoyed the Holidays or at least been able to say a couple good things happened (。・∀・)ノ゙

I don't know if I can say, hope you enjoyed? Stay extra safe during these times!

As always your postly Shinso meme

As always remember to stay hydrated, have a snack if you haven't already and sleep well tonight ( ̄o ̄) . z Z

You are reading the story above: TeenFic.Net