I hadn't moved from the spot that Ivan left me in. I wasn't expecting that response, I was expecting him to beg for forgiveness and for him to tell me that he wanted this to work, but instead I got nothing but a cold shoulder and a reality check.

He had made his decision to leave and now I had to make mine, staying here was now not even an option anymore, it was to painful, i couldn't bare seeing him and knowing that I would never be his.

I now can say that I've experienced true heartache... It's a feeling I never want to feel again.

I was all cried out at this point, i was emotionless and tired. I had given everything to him and he had threw it right back in my face.

Standing up I make my way to the bathroom, I stepped into the shower and turned it on. The ice cold droplets hit my skin but it slowly switched to a soothing warm temperature.

For the first time ever my thoughts were empty, nothingness pondered in my brain as a dark and dull musk lingered in my mind.

My shower was time consuming, my finger tips had began to wrinkle and my teeth had chattered, that was my bodies way of telling me to remove myself from underneath the water but I remained still.

Finally I had finished, using the nearby towel i tightly wrap it around my body.

Standing in front of the mirror, i carry out my normal routine. Brushing my teeth, combing my hair and moisturising my skin.

Instead of getting changed I ended up sitting back down on my bed. My eyes drifted from object to object as I sat still in the silence.

I was so spaced out and uninterested that the sound of the door knocking hadn't even disturbed my self pity.

"Rogue?"

Slowly lifting my head up, there stood a very sympathetic Miss Jones holding a tray of well prepared food.

"Oh my love, oh you poor girl,what has he done to you" sadness was laced in her voice as she neared my side.

"Mr Stone insisted that I bring you some food, he was worried that you hadn't been eating properly. He also sent me to get you out of bed but is seems to me that you've already done that" she states as she prepares the food.

"You're to kind Miss Jones, but I'm not very hungry, surprisingly I've lost my appetite" i sarcastically say.

"Please Rogue, Ivan made it very clear that he would be holding me responsible if you i returned with a full platter" she confessed

"A threat? That doesn't sound like Ivan" my response was even more sarcastic then the first one.

"Never mind that bully, will you eat it for me. Tasha, Nicole and I are very worried about you. If you eat something it will bring us some comfort knowing that you're not torturing yourself in this room"

"I guess starving myself won't get me anywhere" I reply

Reaching for the well prepared sandwich, I pick up the closest triangle that had been cut with care.

"Thank you, I'll get you something to wear, whilst you finish your food"

She gets up and makes her way to the wardrobe before I had time to object.

When she returns the tray of food had been devoured, I was very thankful I ate that as a good meal was more than needed.

"I hope these are alright, I've never seen so many beautiful clothes, fashion is definitely your specialty have you ever considered doing something in the retail industry?" She asks as she places the clothes on the bed.

"Thank you, I never really thought about it to be honest, I was so busy working that I had completely dismissed the thought" I reply

"Well maybe that's something you can do when you leave here"

I looked up at her with a confusion expression on my face, I was unsure of why she knew of my plan to leave.

"What's the matter?..... You are leaving this place right?" She asks

"Yeah" I slowly nod my head

"Good, the girls want to see you before they go, so make sure you don't disappear without saying goodbye"

"I won't"

"Now here take these and go change, I'll be out here waiting for you"

I pick up the blue fitted jeans and the white vest top she had left out. I took in into the bathroom where I quickly changed into them.

When I came out I slipped on my white loafers, I left my hair down but brushed it from my face and shoulders letting it rest down my back.

"I'll have to leave now I have other things to attend to" she sadly said

I walk over to her and pull her into a warm embrace, her arms wrap around my body tightly as she hugged me back even harder.

"Thank you for everything you've done" I confess

"You're more then welcome Rogue, thank you for making my job worth doing, I hope I'll see you again when you're in a much happier place and you better be wearing that beautiful smile once more"

She leaves a delicate kiss on my cheek as she pulls her away. Looking at her face her eyes were watery and her cheeks were red.

"Don't worry about me, I'll be fine"

"Don't go to far alright and stay out of trouble" she insists as she makes her way to the door

"I wont i promise but I'm not guaranteeing anything when it comes to the whole staying out of trouble thing....it's just not me"

She looks at me with her bright eyes before hugging me and turning away.

I turn back into the room to pack a few essential things before I left, I didn't know if I was going to have to sneak out or whether or not I could just walk past the guards in a nonchalant way.

Looking at my belongings there wasn't really anything that I needed, I could replace most of the clothes and shoes in the wardrobe, so I wasn't bringing them with along as it would only slow me down.

Instead I just ended up packing a small back with a few times as well as slipping my bank card in my back pocket and grabbing out my white jacket.

Once I had figured out what I was going to do I would have Tasha or Nicole bring the rest of my stuff to me.

Before I left, using the little bit of energy that I had left I managed to quickly clean up the room, straightening up the bed, realigning my furniture and moving a few things around. Once I had finished I took a step back to look at my work.

My eyes drifted from one thing to another until it landed on the jewellery box ivan had given me for Christmas.

Slowly walking over to it i reached out my hand to gently brush my finger tips over the delicate carved designs. Lifting up the lid, my eyes met with the heart filled inscription.

"Because no matter what......I'd still choose you"

I small smile creeped on my lips as I recalled the day when I first opened the gift. It wasn't the most expensive and extravagant gift nor was it the most romantic and heart filled but it was special to me.

After carefully emptying out the jewellery, I pick up the box and make my way to the door.

I let out a deep sigh as I looked around the familiar room, i was going to miss hiding away in here. There was no doubt in my mind I was going to miss a lot of things around here but this isn't the place for me anymore and it was time to leave.

I was almost out of the quarters but I stopped in my path. Looking to the side I found myself walking towards Ivan's bedroom door.

Pushing it open a cool chill had instantly hit me, walking over to the balcony, I pushed aside the white sheer drapes and stood outside.

The green filled scenery had brought me comfort, it always did. Coming out here whether it was with Ivan or on my own, the calm atmosphere would always sooth my soul.

I Inhaled in the sharp crisp air, treasuring the moment one last time before I head back inside.

My hands brushed over various furniture and items as i recoil my moments in this room.

Out of nowhere I found my self falling back onto Ivan's king size bed. The covers sent chills up my spine and goose bumps over my skin.

Reaching out for the lonesome shirt that has been left out on his pillow, I brought the fabric close to chest before inhaling his familiar scent.

The tantalising aroma had made my hear distend with sadness.

Staring up to the ceiling, my lip quivered as my eyes began to moisten. The thoughts of a life that could of been had been crushed by the hands of reality.

I leisurely rise to my feet to weekly adjust the bed covers.

Collecting the jewellery box from the cabinet i position it on the bed before continuing to delicately place my bracelet in the wooden container.

Just like the box the bracelet was a gift from Ivan and just like Ivan I had to let them go.

I was up and out of the quarters in seconds, I was afraid all those feelings would make me rethink my decision.

The only thing left to do now was to say goodbye to Tasha and Nicole

The walk to the other side of the mansion felt that extra bit longer today, everything seemed to catch my eye which confused me, but I guess it's my minds way of capturing the moment or whatever.

As everyone knows knocking really isn't my thing, so when I and reached the outside of Tasha's room I simply walked in and closed the wooden door behind me.

"Girls?" I call out as i suspiciously make my way further into the room. Whenever i visited they would always be laying on the bed it was unlike them to do anything productive.

"We're in here" Tasha called out

Making a left and taking the few short steps towards the bathroom, I push open the door.

"What are you guys doing in here?" I ask

"Playing Bloody Mary" Nicole responded

"Are you crazy!!! Have you not seen the paranormal activity franchise! Are you trying to get possessed?" I ask with wide eyes

"It was just something to lighten up the mood besides its not even real, she's nothing but a scary story" replied Nicole

"What so your telling me that it's completely normal for vampires, demons, witches and werewolves to exist but the possibility of a simple ghost being real Is just outrageous" I question with a straight yet confused expression.

They both look at each other with worried expressions before quickly pushing past me and running into the bedroom.

"Yeah that's what I thought"

"Come sit down Rogue" Tasha demanded as she patted the spot in between her and Nicole.

The offer was to hard to refuse so plopped my bum onto the comfy bed.

"Are you alright?" Tasha asked whilst Nicole looked at me with pitiful eyes

"No.....not really"

"I'm sorry Rogue, I wish things were different you deserve someone worth your tears and love rather then wasting them on Ivan"

" uh thanks Nicole" I half heartedly reply

"I don't want you to leave Rolo, the two of us have been through so much, all three have of have been through so much in fact, it just won't be the same without you, don't go just stay here in my room with me, nobody will even know" Tasha hopefully suggested

"I'm not a vampire or the smartest of people but even I think that is stupid, I'm pretty sure the mansion filled with vampires would be able to pick up and recognise her scent" Nicole spat back at Tasha earning a laugh from me and a glare from Tasha.

"Alright take a chill pill girls, I'm not going to hide in this room for the rest of life and I'm certainly not going to stay here"

"It's that bad huh?"

Instead of replying I just let my head drop down, this isn't a topic I want to discuss right now. I had been trying to push it out of my mind all day and right now i cloud feel the unwanted thoughts sneaking back into my mind.

"Urgh, I'm filled with misery yet so exasperated. I can literally feel the hatred and disgust growing inside of me. He's making my bood boil. I'm completely and utterly devastated that he didn't want me but I furious at his audacity. After everything that has happened, following the pervious incidents and conversations we shared yet he has the nerve, the cheek to walk up to me al nonchalant to look me in the eyes and kiss to then go and tell me that he can't do it. He's got balls of steel I'll tell you that, if I wasn't human and I was a vampire or had even the tiniest portion of his powers, I would of smacked the crap out of him!" I declare as I pace up and down the room.

"Fuck him!" Tasha shouts as she raises her middle fingers in the air.

All three of us laugh aloud in sync as we mimic Tasha's actions. We were all stood tall with our fingers in the sky shouting profound words.

"I'm gonna miss you girls, if there was anything stopping me from going it's most definitely you two psychopaths"

"Girl if my Lincoln wasn't such a maniac I would totally come with,but after last time with the whole being caught situation I'm not to sure I feel like being killed today, you feel what I'm putting down?"

Tasha's sudden change in dialogue had caused me to lightly giggle.

"It's alright Tasha i can go on my own, I'm gonna miss this place but it's what I have to do, I just wish things were different you know, I wish things were normal, I wish.....god I wish I never met Ivan, I wish I was never his mate"

Frustration and anger fuelled my words, As always I found my mood suddenly shifting from calm to crazy in seconds.

No matter what I was doing thinking of Ivan would always get me fired up, before it wouldn't of bugged me as much but now I hate myself for even giving the pompous a second thought.

"Look don't get upset, no more crying he isn't worth your tears, you're gonna walk out that door with your head held high. You're gonna make Ivan wish he never let you go!" Nicole boomed

"Woah woah woah there hulk, we don't want you turning green, relax alright" I joke

She takes a few breathes then shyly sits back down

"Sorry, I tend to get a little wild sometimes" she apologised

"Look on the bright side of things, I'm doing this so I can be happier and its it like I'm NEVER going to see you girls again, I'm sure Colt and Lincoln wouldn't mind bringing you down to visit. I have still have a lot of inheritance i haven't spent yet so I can buy car and visit"

"Where will you stay? You can't go back to your house Ivan and his minions would only find you" Tasha questioned

"I was planning on going to stay with the witch Rosalie, she was such a lovely lady, I was hoping that all the green scenery would help me find comfort, you know?.....it's crazy right but it's the only option I have" I responded

"Do you think you'll come back....for Ivan? What about him?" Nicole asked

"What about him? He had his chance Nicole, he doesn't deserve her remember" rudely stated Tasha

"He said it himself that he couldn't do it, there's no point loving someone that doesn't want to be loved. I tried to make things work, I guess I'm done fighting"

They both look at one another with sadness in their eyes before continuing to lean towards me for a well needed hug.

I squeezed them as tight as I could, not wanting to let go. A hushed sniffle had caused us to separate.

Looking to the side at Nicole she had puffy eyes and a red nose, fresh tears trickled down her blushed cheeks.

Using my hand I wipe away her sadness, she forces out a weak smile and I return one.

"This isn't fair, why do we have to suffer because of him? God he's such a jackass, why can't you just deny him as your mate and get it over with....let him suffer" Tasha fiercely spat out

Deny him as a mate? The very thought had made my stomach churn, I didn't have it in me to do something so evil besides its not what I wanted......I still wanted this to work.

"As if Tasha, I can't do that, it could ruin any chance I have of getting him back" I sheepishly reply

They both look at me with a displeased expression, clearly my hopes of making things worked hadn't sat very well with them as they shake their heads from side to side.

"I should probably get going,the last thing I need is people finding out I'm about to leave"

I hold out my arms wide and they both hurry into my embrace.

"I love you two" I confess

Reluctantly we all pulled away and made our way to the door.

We all walked in silence as I made my way to the main entrance, Miss Jones had been kind enough to arrange a driver for me. He was aware of supernatural creatures and new where the witches house was.

I was just about to reach for the handle when a small recognisable figure came into vision.

"Ana!" I call out

She turns around to look at me but instead of running towards me she runs in the opposite direction.

"Wait Anastasia! I want to say goodbye!" I hollered

Before I could stop myself I was right on her tail.

"Rogue! What happened to keeping things quiet!" Tasha called out

"Relax, I just wanna say goodbye!" I shout back

"That's not a good idea!" Nicole States

Nicole and Tasha pick up my stuff before chasing after me.

I had chased Ana all the way towards the main ball room. She had been giggling and insisting that I catch her, I was in no mood for games but she doesn't no any better and I t would of been unfair to get angry with her.

Using my left hand I reach out, my palm touching the door.

"No stop, what are you doing?!" Tasha questioned

"I just want to say goodbye to her" I confess

"That's the main hall Rogue" Nicole added

I looked from Tasha to Nicole with a sad expression.

"Alright fine but be quick, I don't want to get in anymore trouble" Tasha gives in

"Anastasia where are-"

The three of us all stop in our tracks when a load of cold glares came our way.

"Oh shit Rogue, I told you didn't i" Tasha spat harshly in my ear

"Rolo you found me!" Ana screeches as she runs towards me wrapping her small arms around my waist.

"Rogue.....look" Tasha nudges my arm then flicks her head up signalling for me to look.

I turn to the side to look at her then followed her gaze.

Ivan stood in the centre of the room surrounded by his parents and various other vampires.

My heart pounded against my rib cage, each thump increased my breathing making my throat dry.

His jade green eyes had captured my gaze and manipulated my mind.

The intensity of his gaze had became unbearable very quickly, I turned my head to the side and stared at the polished marble floor.

"It's alright" Nicole whispered in my ear. Her fingers intertwined with mine in attempt to comfort me, it didn't solve my problem but it was soothing knowing I had them both by my side.

"Rogue what are you doing in here?" Rose had asked

My head remained buried away as i patently waited for my confidence to rise. By the looks of things my response wasn't happening anytime soon.

"Where are you going?" Ana asks

Her question left me wide and shocked, I had forgotten that I had a bag with me.

"It's mine, I was planning on getting away for a little while" Tasha quickly answered earning a glare from her mate.

She cowered behind me feeling intimidated by the multiple sets of cold eyes beaming at her.

A protective demeanour over powered me, drowning me with the confidence I lacked earlier.

"Actually it's mine" I speak up, my voice lacked power but it was loud enough to be heard catching everyone's attention in the process, especially Ivan's.

"And what are you doing with that?" She questions taking a step forward

"I'm leaving"

"Is that right? And where do you plan on going?" She challenges taking another step closer.

Her posture and the anger in her voice had suggested then she was