"Luanne, I think your son has some serious anger issues. I would highly recommend he be seen by a doctor." The smug asshole across the desk said right in front of my fucking face like he was speaking a different language.

"Fuck you," I grumbled at him.

Who did he think he was? He wasn't my father. I didn't have a fucking father. He left my mom and me high and dry a long time ago. We didn't mean anything to him. He was a fucking useless sperm donor and I was just another temperamental bastard with abandonment issues.

"Ezra. Stop it now." My mom scolded.

I caught her looking at my bloodied knuckles in shame. She hated when she had to come up to the school because I was in some trouble or another. Last week this joker performed a 'random' locker search and found a baggie of weed in mine. He threatened to call the cops but called her instead. She was practically on her knees, begging for him not to get the police involved. He had been friends with my parents when they were in high school and knew what she had gone through at my father's hands. He felt sorry for her. That was why he always was such a 'good guy' and looked the other way when I was brought into his office.

That and the fact that he also wanted to sleep with her, which is why he always found some way to pin something on me to get her to come down to bail me out.

Unfortunately for me, my luck had run out. This week was different than the last; I did exactly what I was accused of. To make matters worse, I wasn't just hurting myself this time and he had no way to keep this quiet.

I had decided to take my frustrations out on one of the jerkoffs who thought he was superior to me because his family owned like half of this little shit town. He had been picking at me for the past month because he saw me talking to his girlfriend, Amber, one day between classes. She was hanging all over my dick, practically pleading for me to pull it out right there in the middle of the hallway. She was the female version of me, labeled as the town whore and openly flaunted it. It was no secret what she did for his friends behind closed doors. I guess it was different when she was seen out in the open trying to seduce the town trash.

He pissed me off when he wouldn't let up, so I got back at him the best way I knew how. I fucked his girl at one of my cousin's legendary parties. Amber and I both snorted a crushed-up cocktail of pills and then I pounded the shit out of her with the door wide open so everyone would see it. I took her annoying ass like that every day for two straight weeks until I convinced her to break up with him. She had wanted me to be her boyfriend and kept coming back for more even when I told her I was done with her. I wasn't interested and had already gotten everything I needed. I got my revenge.

I introduced Amber to my cousin and the rest of our friends so they could have a go at her too. They always liked my sloppy seconds and I had a lot of them to share. She sought me out to cry on my shoulder one day when my cousin, Jake, took things a little too far and I told her to go away. She immediately went and cried to her ex-boyfriend about how I used her and that was how I ended up in the situation I found myself in today.

The neanderthal wanted to be her knight in shining armor to win her back and thought the best way to do it would be to challenge me. He cornered me in gym class and brought three of his friends with him to help fight me. Four against one. It was something I was getting used to. I had my fair share of fights and always ended up on the winning side. Everyone knew that you didn't try to go after me alone if you wanted to stay alive.

I stepped up to him and laughed in his face when he began threatening and calling me names. He swung on me and that was the end of him.

I lost control again.

When I came to my senses, I was standing over him with his blood dripping from my hands. His friends were trying to pull me off before I killed him. He was crying and even pissed himself like a little bitch. His face was purple and disfigured.

He wasn't so fucking tough now.

"Ezra, are you even listening?" My mom huffed. My blurry bloodshot eyes burned as I blinked rapidly. I needed some eye drops before they dried up and burst out of my head. I was starting to feel sick. It was time to re-up the toxins in my system. Coming down was not an option for me. I needed to get out of here to find my next fix.

I pulled at the rings in my eyebrow nervously to avoid my mom's sad eyes. I knew she had enough of my behavior. She has made sure to mention it every time we were in the same fucking room. She had even made my Uncle Charlie sit down to have a heart-to-heart with me to try to get through the murky water that filled my head. No one was ever going to get through. I was exactly who I wanted to be. I wasn't going to change for anyone, even if they sat me down to give me a five-hour lecture like I was receiving right now.

Fuck, I wanted to escape this room and be done with this.

I laughed at the thought.

Escape.

I was itching to go find mine in the drugs and alcohol I filled my body with. Every pill or puff I took made me feel weightless. Every time I swallowed it down, I felt the burning away of my existence. I became someone else. Someone who didn't care what people thought about him. Someone who had all the power. Once I got to that point, I would keep pushing further until I became no one at all—another mindless, aimless freak roaming the streets with no purpose.

"Luanne. We will have to suspend Ezra for his role in the fight until further notice. The school board will be meeting later this week and will discuss his expulsion. We can't condone this type of behavior at this school. I'm sorry. I will try to put in a good word for him for you, but I think you should start looking into alternative schooling options. Maybe try homeschooling so he can still graduate on time. He's a smart kid; he just needs a little more help than most because of his issues." He placed his hand on hers and squeezed it. He stroked the back of her hand with his thumb.

I wanted to punch him in his fucking throat for touching her. This perverted meathead with a beer belly was looking at her like he was imagining her naked. I knew this guy was a dickhead.

"I understand, Max. Thank you for helping him." She whimpered and held his hand for comfort. She was so naïve. How could she not see he was trying to weasel his way into her pants? He was practically holding up a banner in front of her face to get her attention.

"If you ever need anything, Luanne, you know I am here for you. You can call me anytime you need me. Take care of yourself." He said, standing up and motioning towards the door to escort us out.

My mom walked out first and was already halfway down the hallway of the empty school. I began to follow her when I felt a large hand grab my shoulder and hold me back.

"Hey Ezra, put in a good word about me with your Mom and I will get the expulsion thrown out." He patted my back and smiled like a sick depraved jackass. He turned his head and watched her ass as she walked away. "Mmmm, that's nice. I would love to get my hands on that."

"Fuck you, asshole. You will never touch her." I turned and pushed him back from me. I had a good six inches on him and towered over him like a giant.

"Hope you like home school then, bud." He chuckled. He didn't act like he was scared, but he should be.

He should be terrified.

"I hope you like eating through a fucking straw." I threw my fist straight into the side of his jaw and he collapsed on the floor.

He was out cold.

That was how I got into my second fight for the day and was expelled from high school without any chance of being able to return. My mom tried to get me into other schools around town, but I had already acquired quite the reputation for being 'difficult'. After a few months without any luck, I took a homeschool course and graduation test online. I passed it without even trying and ended up out of school at the age of sixteen with nothing to do but smoke, drink, swallow, play music, and fuck my life away.

Fortunately for me, I was really good at all of them.