<WARNINGS: ANGST (The way I write angst might suck though lol)>

<This AU is where the Y/n is a different entity created by Killcode himself. Rather than created from his code, Y/n was made from scratch. You (The Reader) get to decide what Y/n's appearance is; Animatronic/Human/etc. But they are only in Moon's mindscape and they are around the same size as Lunar.

Y/n is still developing their feelings and intelligence so they're sort of like a curious kid that asks a lot of questions. Then later on they act more of a sligtly rebellious teen.

Killcode gets attached to them and decides to keep them safe in Moon's mindscape with him. Y/n eventually becomes aware that they don't really have a purpose and they interrogate Killcode trying to find some sort of purpose. Y/n becomes distressed as Killcode doesn't give them the answer they wanted.>

You wring your hands in thought, staring at them before looking up to their 'Parent'; Killcode.

"You’ve seen their nightmares come alive."

He tilts his head down to you and observes you, acknowledging your statement. He doesn't seem to do anything but stare down at you as you speak.

"You’ve seen their sweetest dreams
Blossom and die." You continue, reminiscing on some glimpses of the adventures and fights the brothers have encountered that you have watched.

"You’ve seen it all before, you’ve seen it all.." you mull over your next words, trying to think of the right way to word it.

He lifts his chin slightly as he gazes down at you, awaiting for you to get to the point patiently. He was always so patient with you and thoughtful, always answering your questions to the best of his ability. You adored him for that, seeing him as a caring father figure to you. But you needed to know..

"So why do you build us
Up to crumble and fall?" You look up at his face, awaiting the answer curiously.

Killcode pauses as your words hover in the air, joining the sounds of bubbling corruption and crackling thoughts echoing through Moon's mindscape.

"Why do you build us up to crumble and fall?" You ask once more, your shoulders lowering slightly as he doesn't answer your question.

He remains silent as he gazes down at you, his eyes narrowing thoughtfully. He sighs and gently places a clawed hand on your head, careful not to poke or scratch you.

He crouches down and cups your cheek in a caring way.

"Give me strength and gratitude."

You close your eyes slightly at his tender touch on the top of your head. You tilt your head slightly as he cups your cheek, your curiosity continuing to sparkle in your eyes as you look at him. You nod at his request and nuzzle into his hand and wrap your arms around his arm, giving him a small hug.

His sharp grin softens into a small, caring smile as you hug his arm. You continue to hold his hand with your much smaller ones. "You have a ways to go before you need to worry about things such as that little Rosebud."

The corners of your mouth turn up into a tiny smile which makes Killcode's grin to widen as that was your first smile, it was like watching his infant smile for the first time.
He picks you up and cradles you in his arms as he looks down at you with a hint of pride that you smiled at him.

You tilt your head at him as you lean comfortably against him. A specific thought going through your head.
'Tell me what it is I can ask of you.
Tell me what it is that I can’t see..'

Tell me now, oh

"Tell me now who is it I’m supposed to be." You say with a bit of eagerness to find your purpose.

Killcode hesitates, uncertainty flickering across his eyes for a mere momeny before he smiles down at you. "You are my precious little Rosebud, silly little thing." He says, humor lacing his tone as he boops your nose with one of his knuckles.

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You watch as Moon and Monty talk about things that are happening outside of the mindscape. You hid behind a pillar, curiously gazing at the two interact.

"You’ve given us a glimpse of paradise.
You’ve given us a glimpse of what
Will be our sweet demise." You mutter as you watch the alligator push Moon off the side and then observe as your 'Father' comes into view.

"You’ve given us everything and nothing at all." You say to yourself under your breath as your eyes following the gator as they run off, escaping Killcode.

Your gaze switches to look at Killcode, the words exchanged between the other two earlier ringing through the silence in your mind. The question you once asked your 'Father' coming back to haunt you.
'So why do you build us
Up to crumble and fall..?'

Killcode turns and notices you, his smile relaxing. You had dissappeared from his line of view and it made him stress out. The stress made him more irritable, the encounter with the gator caused him more frustration.

Finding you made him forget the frustrating ordeal from before. He quickly made his way over to you and scooped you up into his arms and holds you close. "You had me worried Rosebud! Don't just run off like that again."

You kept silent as you stared at where the gator stood. Killcode frowned slightly at this, and desired your attention.

"Tell me what it is I can ask of you
Tell me what it is that I can’t see." You tell him, staring at the darkness that seemingly devours the underside of the castle.

He glances to where you're looking and narrows his eyes then turns to leave, carrying you in his arms. "When you're ready..
You are feeble and delicate, you are not yet ready."

Your brows furrow slightly at his words.
"Tell me now, oh
Tell me now! who is it I’m supposed to be?" You demand, having a slight tantrum.

He ignores your outburst and continues to carry you. You bang his chest with your small fists but it makes no difference. Your frustration cools down a bit after a few moments. Tears prick your eyes and your tantrum stops slowly.

You curl up into a ball, holding your head as tears fill your eyes.

"Something is wrong with me
Can’t make up my mind.."

Killcode softens as you whisper. His hold becomes more gentle and caring. He eventually sets you down and wipes away a tear with a knuckle. He tenderly wraps his arms around you, hushing and consoling you.

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You watch your 'Father' interact with your supposed 'Brothers' you weren't sure how to feel about having such devious 'siblings'. You can't help but wilt slightly under the fact that you were the only pacifist of your 'Family'.

Eclipse even denies the possibility of you even being 'related' to all of you in that way. You couldn't help but feel like he hated you.
Bloodmoon barely even acknowledges you in the first place, acting like you're more of a pet or a decoration hanging from Bloodmoon's arm Which was fairly easy since you could only watch from the mindscape.

"I’m falling apart at the seams, I can’t deny..." You slouch slightly, hugging yourself as you sit down on the ground, your back against a wall of the castle in Moon's mindscape.

"I’m losing grip of what I thought I knew.
Oh I’m losing it, I’m losing it for you.." You mutter in despair, clinging onto your knees.

Killcode comes back over to you and he frowns as he sees the state you're in. He comes over and kneels down next to you, rubbing your shoulder gently.

You look up to him, tears slipping down your face, your voice quiet.

"Give me strength and gratitude.."

He picks you up and places you in his lap, rubbing your back to comfort you. His gaze caring and concerned. It seemed the more your code developed the more you wanted to do something you deemed important.

The fact that you couldn't do anything made you feel 'sick to your stomach' as humans say it. You felt so useless and replacable like a vase or mug that someone dropped.

You grit your teeth and glare at your 'Father' with hurt, tears stinging your eyes. "Tell me what it is I can ask of you.
Tell me what it is that I can’t see!
Tell me now!! oh.."

"Tell me now who is it I’m supposed to be.." You look into Killcode's eyes, the desire to know why you're here glows in your irises.

Your shoulders droop and your voice becomes soft and broken.

"Something is wrong with me, can’t make up my mind something is wrong with me.."

Killcode sighs and places his hands on your shoulders. "I created you on the trace of a feeling..
You are the calm after the storm, the essence of life after a wildfire."

You soften slightly, your eyes filling with shock. 'That's what my purpose is..?' You sniffle and wipe your tears away then swiftly hug him, delighted that you finally knew the reason you exist. The hole in your mind and heart filling with wonder, curiosity and hope.

Your eyes fill with joy and determination. "I will fulfill my purpose!"