49 - Love and the London Eye

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Nathan

Last summer, I was on the brink of depression. I was kicked out from school, my parents had divorced and my dad had left me with my abusive mother. My then boyfriend's father had threatened me to leave his precious son's life if I wanted my own intact.

Not an ideal setting for a lost 17 year old prone to anxiety.

If you had told me back then, that the summer camp I took as an escape from my shitty life, would lead me to my salvation, I would have told you to quit the weed.

But it did. The summer I wanted to die, was the same summer that taught me how to live and love - In the form of this one white boy I never expected to meet or fall for.

I'm not saying a relationship is the cure to a shitty life.

I'm not saying that he magically solved all my problems or got rid of my anxiety or the unpredictable panic attacks or the insecurities, but to an extent, he did. By just being there for me.

He didn't expect anything, my Kaiden. He was stubborn and the rich kid who always got what he wanted. I don't know what possessed him to want me. I still don't.

He just adamantly helped me, even when I pushed him away. At first I thought it was pity but then he didn't completely smother me. He only helped in little ways, like a friend would. When I found out he liked me, I freaked out.

What if he expected sexual favours in return? was my first thought. Eventually I let him in and found out that Kaiden was an angel sent to me, just for me. That is one thing I don't doubt.


Kaiden bettered me in so many ways.

He annoyed me initially but he made me realise that I am so much more than the life I was given. I had no fight left in me, I was determined to get through the year alone and friendless.

Until Kai taught me what friendship meant and rekindled my past friendships too, ones I had pushed away because I was hurting.

The difference a year with the right company can make is phenomenal and I consider myself living proof.

Granted some things were pure luck - like my dad deciding to mend his ways and moving back to our hometown, or Kaiden's dad changing his mind about us.

But even then, I am a better person now. I have learnt to give people a chance, I have learnt it is okay to be vulnerable at times and that anxiety is a part of life. It would always get me down but that I can always bounce back, that relationships fail but they can be mended with some space and some effort.

My summer love changed me through and through and for that I am infinitely grateful. And I'm right here, with the love of my life - my Kai-Pie, who taught me the meaning of that word.

Unconditional love.

I watch him run to me, holding giant candy floss, one purple and one pink. He sits beside me on the bench, facing the river Thames.

"Penny for your thoughts?" he asks, feeding me a piece of the sugary goodness.

"Just thinking about you."

"Really? What? How handsome I am?" he chuckles.

I press a kiss to the side of his head.

"Definitely that. And also how utterly adorable you look carrying the cotton puffs."

He grins, doing a hair flip.

"I know I'm fabulous. Anyway, we're going to the King's Campus tomorrow okay? Kane said it's a must visit. And then we're going to see the Abbey and then the natural history museum and then to the Buckingham."

"Slow down baby boy, we have all the time in the world. The entire summer lies ahead of us."

He blushes at the nickname and I get the urge to coo at his cuteness. He rests his head on my shoulder.

"Would it be absolutely ludicrous, if we just made out right now?" I ask.

"Really? You're quoting the fault in our stars?"

I nod, happy that he got the reference almost instantly.

"It wouldn't hurt to try," he whispers.

He pulls me in and our lips meet in the softest way. It is a kiss of promise, gentle, unhurried and full of love. He pulls away, red faced and rests his forehead against mine.

"I love you so much Nathan. Would you like to christen Kane's bedroom later?" He asks with the most mischievous grin on his face.

"We still have to stay here another three days and I would very much like for your brother to not kick us out."

"Psh, we can always change the sheets."

I kiss him in reply and he chuckles, the throaty sound warm against my hand on his neck. It's been a perfect day. The sun is about to go down soon.

"Hey, you wanna go on the London Eye?" I ask, standing up. He nods immediately.

Our hands are locked as we walk leisurely to the world famous attraction. We buy the tickets after a while of waiting and in the meantime, Kaiden buys some slushies.

"You're gonna be diabetic soon you know? Your sugar addiction is concerning," I laugh and he flips me off.

"Let me enjoy my youth, you're not my mum. I swear you sports kids are born with a health conscious personality or what?" He huffs.

"Alright grumpy, you're gonna have a sugar crash soon. And then -" I step closer and kiss the sensitive spot below his ear " - we won't be able to christen Kane's bedroom."

He is blushing when I pull back.

"How about, we do that on the London eye?" he whispers then winks, shocking me a bit.

" I - uhm- what?"

"Just imagine. It's a thirty minute ride baby," he smirks, his teeth grazing my Adams apple. I swallow hard, feeling aroused already.

"Kai... are you serious?" I moan softly, the line getting closer to the Ferris wheel.

The thought of being inside Kaiden in public is making ideas run wild in my head. He begins laughing before kissing me quickly, making me blush even darker than himself.

"Oops!" he looks down at the very prominent bulge in my pants.

"Kai! What the hell?" I grumble. He tries to playfully step away but I pull him to my chest, his ass against my crotch.

"Don't fucking move, you frisky brat," I whisper, tightening my grip around his waist.

I rest my chin on his shoulder, looking exactly like the hundred couples around us. A few kids stare at us, not expecting a guy to kiss a guy, but they don't say anything rude.

Or maybe they don't, because Kaiden stares right back with a very threatening expression. I've learned that he absolutely loathes the nosy kind of kids and doesn't care about their age. He will not hesitate to slap them if they annoy him.

Eventually we get inside the giant transparent pods of the London Eye, along with one other couple. They start kissing the second we take off from the ground.

Kaiden sets up his tripod and camera on a timelapse before turning to me, latching his hands around my neck.

"So?" he drawls, wiggling his brows. I flick his forehead.

"Shut up you nasty. We don't wanna get sued for nudity. Besides, there's a camera."

"I'm betting it's fake."

"And I do not wanna find out that it's not! Honestly, what's gotten into you?" I laugh.

"It's been so long since we've had sex. A guy has needs!" He whispers, his mouth working on my collarbones. I cup his butt, eliciting a rough moan from him.

"Alright, we'll go back after this yeah?"

He nods and hungrily kisses me, ignoring the other couple beside us. We pull away eventually and he turns to face the magnificent London skyline, head resting on my shoulder, my arms around his waist.

The sunset is stunning, painting the skies in gold, pink and purple hues. The Gherkin, the Shard, the Big Ben and the bridge look straight out of a painting.

Kaiden sighs softly.

"You always loved Ferris wheels hm? Remember the time we sneaked out from camp? The lizard had you sitting on top of me the whole time." He laughs.

"I remember that! I hate lizards okay? They're icky and disgusting. But that was a fun night, I think that was when you actually opened up to me. After that night you participated in camp and made an effort. Why?"

He hums, a serene smile on his face.

"I felt free around you. That night, you told me that I could choose my next happy moment. Like in the fair, I could choose the ride which would add to my enjoyment and in the same way, I could choose how to be happy. Even in something as meaningless as cotton candies or Ferris Wheels."

My heartbeat speeds up and I kiss his head, a bubble of warmth enveloping us.

"I can't believe you remember that. Did I really say that to you? Sounds fake as hell."

Kaiden laughs.

"Of course you did. It's what made me fall for you in the first place. You were literal sunshine for me. Always happy. You made me want to be like you and now, I like to think I am."

"You know Kai, if I hadn't met you, I wouldn't even have made it through the year."

He straightens immediately, eyes wide as he laces his fingers in mine.

"What?"

"You thought I was happy when I was struggling the most. Remember the midnight hike you followed me on?"

He nods, green eyes wide in understanding.

"I was gonna jump off that mountain."

He gasps, pulling me in a hug immediately. 

"If you hadn't found me and forced me to bring you back to camp after you fucking sprained your ankle, you wouldn't have seen me the next day. So, you saved me. You would have never known this. I owe you my life Kai, and everything in it."

Tears are running down his face when he looks up. He just grabs my face and kisses me. I kiss him with just as much fervour. He breaks the kiss just as we reach the top of the Ferris wheel.

I wipe his tears and he sniffles.

"I can't believe you're mine sometimes. You're a beautiful angel Kai and you deserve the whole world. I hope I can give it to you."

"You will. You are my whole world!"

He hugs me, resting his chin on my shoulder, our heartbeat in sync against each other.

"We're literally so sappy for being seventeen!" he says after a few minutes and laughs.

We watch the sun go down, content. Every ending is the promise of a new beginning. Our high school chapter has ended and well, I can't wait to see what my new life holds for me.

Summer has begun wonderfully. As long as I have Kai with me, I'm gonna be okay.


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