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MISSING MORE THAN JUST YOUR BOOODDYYYYY

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Andrew

"Mikey, no!" I giggled as I ran away from my attacker. Michael laughed as he caught up to me, grabbing me around my waist and tickling me.

"Guys, calm down," a voice said sternly from behind us. We froze and I turned to face the intruder.

Of course, it was Ashton.

"Hi Ashy," I waved shyly, holding on to Michael's arm. Ashton smiled softly, waving back.

"Hi Andy. Can we talk?" I hesitated before nodding. Michael let go of me as I loosened my grip on his arm to follow Ashton upstairs.

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Ashton

"Andy," I started after Andrew and I had both been seated on my bed. I sighed, grabbing my brother's hand and noticing how small it was compared to my own. "You know I love you, right?" He nodded immediately.

"I love you too, Ashy," he said with a grin almost identical to mine- dimples and all.

"You're my baby brother, Andy. I love you more than anything..." I paused. "and it's my job to protect you. I can't stand to see you get hurt," I looked him in the eye- those eyes that are exactly like mine. "I want you to know that, no matter what, I'm always looking out for you. So, if I ever get mad about something, I'm not trying to scare you, okay?" Andrew nodded slowly. "I'm sorry I snapped at you yesterday. It's just..."

"You get called... that word too, right?" I looked up to see Andrew looking down at our hands, avoiding my gaze. I let out a slow breath.

"Yeah, I do,"

"It... it hurts, doesn't it?" He asked, finally looking up. I nodded, unable to speak. "That's why you got mad. You know how much it hurts when people make fun of you, call you names..." I saw a tear slip out of his eye. I acted immediately, reaching over with the hand that wasn't holding his and wiped away the tear.

"Andy, don't cry," I said softly. However, Andrew just shook his head, pulling away from me and using both hands to wipe his own eyes.

"I didn't understand it at first," he started with a shaky voice. "They would shout things at me in the halls, but I never understood what they meant," he paused, looking down at his hands. "Mallory had to explain it to me. I was confused at first, but she made it pretty clear. I thought to myself, 'why would they be making fun of me for being gay if they don't know if I'm gay or not?' and I would sit and think for hours, looking for an answer. I don't even know if I'm gay, Ashy," he looked up at me with teary eyes. "Mummy says it's too early to know,"

"Mummy's right," I murmured softly. "I didn't know until I was seventeen,"

"That's another thing..." Andy was hesitant before saying, "Mal says that they might have just been saying it because you are... she was right. Ben said if you are, then I must be, and that's why he hit me," I stared at my brother in shock.

"They do this because of me?"

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Calum

"...if you ever need anything, okay?" I slowed down as I passed Ashton's room. After a moment of silence, I was about to walk away before the door opened, and Andy walked out. He gave me a small smile before heading downstairs. I peeked inside the door of Ashton's room and frowned.

"Ash?" He didn't look up from where his head was in his hands. I slowly crept inside, shutting the door behind me. He didn't say a word as I carefully sat down next to him. "Ash," I said again, gaining no response once more. We sat in silence for a few minutes before he finally spoke.

"It's all my fault," Ashton muttered in a sad voice. I frowned deeper at that.

"What?"

"It's all my fault, Calum," he finally looked up at me with red, puffy eyes and tears streaming down his face. "Andrew- my baby brother that I love so much -is being bullied because of me," he choked out the words before looking away and clutching his messy hair.

"Hey," I gently took his hands away from his hair and held them in my own. He had a habit of pulling at his hair when he's upset, and I didn't want him losing any hair. (Yeah he's not Michael)

"I'm such a horrible brother," Ashton said with a helpless look on his face. "I don't know what to do, Cal. I can't help him. It's all my fault, and I can't do a thing to stop it,"

"Shh, calm down. He'll be fine. You can talk with your parents and have them call the school, okay? Everything will be alright; Andy will be alright," he looked up at me and sighed before nodding, sitting up straight and wiping his eyes. It broke my heart to see him like this. Although he was wiping away his tears now, Ashton looked like he could break down again any second. So, being me, I pulled him into a hug. He froze for a second before wrapping his arms around me and holding on for dear life. (#finishthelyrics)

I squeezed him tight before loosening my grip a bit and pulling away slightly. I looked him in the eye with a soft smile to which he, thankfully, returned. I cupped his face with both of my hands, wiping away his remaining tears. His face seemed to soften at the touch, and I felt the tension ease in his body...

Then I realized how close we were. I bit my lip and unconsciously glanced down at his lips. I mentally slapped myself and quickly looked back up to meet his eyes, only to notice him doing the same. I felt his breath hitch as I leaned in closer. I paused, giving him the chance to pull away if he wanted to.

He didn't.

In fact, he closed the distance between us. I froze in shock as I felt Ashton's lips press against mine. It was just barely a brush of the lips, but it was there. Deciding to be brave, I pressed in further and properly kissed him. I wanted to cry at the amazing feeling.

I slowly pulled away, my mouth slightly ajar in pure shock.

"Ash, I-" he shook his head.

"Shh," and with that, he connected our lips for a second time, this time with more passion. I literally almost moaned. I moved one of my hands to his hand and kept the other on his jaw while Ashton used both of his to grip my waist and bring me impossibly closer.

Is this what heaven feels like?

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That was so long and beautiful I'm crying

Also soz cheesy ending ew

But yeah hi that was fun

Idk wtf just happened

But I don't really care

Imma just leave it there

Love you all

I'm out

-Katie

P.S. that's not the end, there will be much more lol