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12 Published 03.08.2020

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Warning! There will be bullying scenes ahead. If you do not like content like that, please do not read. Physical and verbal abuse will be shown. Don't read it if it triggers you. I do not wish to cause any harm, take care babies.

James|Roseanne

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ROSEANNE

"Look at her. Gosh, she's just a waste of oxygen." I hear a girl mutter to someone near my locker.

The locker door is open, so it blocks my view.

But I don't have to see them, to know that they're talking about me.

I hear a giggle before another voice speaks. "Do her parents even like her?" She mocks.

As soon as I shut my locker door, I hug the books to my chest and turn around.

As soon as I do that, I see the two girls, they look away when I glance at them.

I know who they are.

Mallorie and Irene. They're in the grade above me, both seniors.

I don't know them personally, but I know that they're really pretty.

Mallory with her blonde hair and clear blue eyes.

And Irene with her fiery hair and brown eyes.

Both of them truly are beauties.

Beautiful actually.

Something that I'm not.

And sometimes I wish I could be like them.

But I'm not jealous. I'm actually happy for them.

They are pretty girls and they know it.

Even if they hurt me, I wish them the best.

It's all I can do.

"Shhhhh, there she goes." Irene whispers.

I look down, but even then I can still feel their stares on me.

As I pass them, I hear their whispers.

I wrap my arms around me to provide some safety.

When I wake up, I feel something going down my cheek.

Raising a hand to my cheek I touch something wet.

My eyes are moist.

"I'm crying." I mumble.

I look around my room, it's still dark outside, but the moon shines brightly.

"It was just a dream." I whisper.

But in reality, it wasn't.

It wasn't just a dream.

To me, it was a nightmare that I lived everyday.

Sighing, I throw the covers off of me and stretch.

Not bothering to check the time, I head inside the bathroom.

I glance at the mirror in front of me and stare at the girl in front of me.

Shaking my head, I strip off of my clothes and turn on the shower.

Once I finish, I head into the shower, my body relaxing with the hot water hitting my shoulders.

As I wash my hair, my mind drifts to my dream.

Mallory and Irene were two of the many people that bothered me.

It had been a never ending nightmare since middle school.

And sometimes I wondered when it would end.

I shut my eyes as I rinse off my shampoo.

Grabbing my conditioner, I pour some on my hand before putting it on my hair.

Soon I'm done with the shower, and when I step out I wrap a towel around my body.

Grabbing my toothbrush, I proceed to brush my teeth until I'm done.

Eventually I'm done with all my dental hygiene.

And  I proceed to cleanse my face.

When I'm finally done with everything I head into my room.

Walking to my closet, I grab my winter uniform attire.

Yesterday it was warm, but today seems colder.

I change into my undergarments before putting on my uniform.

Letting my hair dry I fix my collar.

"Shoes." I mumble.

I grab my socks before putting on my shoes.

Sitting in front of my vanity I proceed to brush my hair before trying it into a fish braid.

I grab my phone and think about what term I should use today.

I'm about to type, angel, when honey comes to mind.

Honey it is then.

06:42 a.m.

Honey?

Good morning.

Just wanted to wish you a wonderful day.

I wait for a few minutes for a reply but it never comes.

After I'm done getting ready, I make my bed.

Once I'm done, I grab my bag and phone.

He still hasn't answered me.

He's probably sleeping or just busy.

06:49 a.m.

Hey, you're ignoring me.

You better not be cheating on me.

Come back to me 😭😭😭.

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● Later in the day

Stepping out of the bathroom I walk through the hallways.

I wasn't feeling well.

My stomach felt funny.

I was to engrossed in my thoughts, that I didn't notice the figure in front of me.

"Watch it, fatty." The person says as I land on my palms first and then my knees.

I lower my head hissing at the impact.

"Hey, she's so big, she can't even see where she is going." Another girl says laughing.

"Little girl, you tripped on my shoes. Apologise, now." The first voice says.

"Oh babe, don't bother with the garbage. It's a waste of time." A male voice says.

"I know, but I just want her to apologise to me." She starts. "Hey, bitch! Are you not going to apologise?" The girl kicks my tights with her heel.

I flinch in pain causing me to look up.

I come in contact with three people.

I recognize Rachel the one that I tripped on. And then her boyfriend, Elias. Both are juniors like me and share one class together.

The other girl seems familiar, but I don't remember her name.

"What are you looking at?" Rachel frowns jabbing me in the stomach this time.

The back of her heel was long so it made the pain worse.

"You should stop eating so much, I could feel your fatness with my heel." Rachel tells me and I wince.

"I only ate a granola bar today." I say quietly.

"What? Did you hear that? She only had a granola bar today. Honey, with your weight, you shouldn't be eating at all." She crouches down to my level and pulls my face with her hands.

I avoid her eyes, but I still manage to see the smile on her face.

And for some reason that hurt me more.

My misery brought her happiness.

"I'm sorry." I croak.

"Omg, can you please speak louder?" Rachel lets go of my face and and grips my arm with so much force, I have to bite my lip to stop from crying.

"I'm sorry for tripping on you." I repeat louder, my bottom lip quivering.

"Hmm, I guess that's enough. Hopefully you learn in case you ever think about tripping on me again." She proceeds to stand up with the help of her boyfriend. "Oh and think of this as a warning for next time." She says and I feel her step on my shoes hardly.

Her heels dig in my shoes and I clench my fists in pain.

With that she walks away, Elias following behind her. They're laughing as they go.

I make a move to get up, but I'm shoved harshly agaisnt the floor.

I look up to see the other girl still here.

She leans forward to me and grips my hair, causing my neck to lean backward in a weird angle.

"Pathetic." Is all she whispers while looking at me with disgust.

After that, she walks away.

And I'm left there on the floor.

I sniffle and I wipe my eyes with one hand, while using the other one to cover my mouth.

But even then, a sob breaks out.

"I don't even do anything to them." I whisper quietly.

After I manage to stand up I wince in pain.

At least she didn't hurt me a lot.

I make my way to the library, limping on each step until I'm there.

Entering the library, I request a study room for myself.

I wanted to be alone.

Once I'm there, I shut the door and pull out my phone.

I wanted to talk to him.

He made me happy.

Honey?

Hey, can you talk to me.

Why?

Just talk to me. Distract me.

Why? What's wrong?

Nothing, you just make me happy.

You sure?

Of course I'm sure! I know what makes me happy. And it's you.

Please, just talk to me.

Okay, umm, I'm at school. I have a free period right now.

School, it's a mean place.

Why do you say that?

No reason.

Are you okay?

Yep, I am.

I'm at school too.

I just want to go home.

Me too, I want to see my dog.

You have a dog?

Send me a picture of your dog.

Pleeeease.

I would say something about how you are a stranger, but I feel like you would really like to see him.

So I will be nice.

●Loading image●

He's a puppy. Meet Theo.

●Image sent●

As soo as I see the picture, I smile.

He is adorable.

And for a few seconds I managed to forget about my life.

How old is he?

He's so cute.

Almost three months old.

I want to pet him.

I bet he would love that.

I'm about to say something sarcastic, when I feel a pain in my stomach making me moan from the pain.

I'm so glad tomorrow is Saturday.

Honey, I'm going to go.

I don't feel so good. So, I'll leave you alone.

Don't miss me too much.

I'll check up on you later.

Take care.

Smiling I check the time.

School is almost over, but I still have two more classes after this.

When will the pain ever stop?

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Helloooo.

I am back.

I started writing this at 5:46 a.m. but it's alright.

By the way, the picture in the beginning is Roseanne's uniform for her current school.

So, this chapter is different. I just showed what Roseanne's life is at school. And there will be more chapters like this.

Guys, it doesn't matter what your weight is. As long as you're happy and healthy, nothing should matter.

If you wish to change for the better, than do it because you want to, not because someone is bullying you into changing.

Love yourself.