"Babe? Come on, open the door" I heard Jahseh say after he knocked on the door. I didn't even realize I locked it. I wiped my tears and took a deep breath then opened the door to see him looking sad down at me. He walked in and shut the door behind him.

"If you're going to say 'I told you so', please don't" I begged quietly. He cupped my face with his hands and sighed.

"I wasn't planning on it" he said back then wiped a single tear that fell from my eyes. He let go of my face and grabbed my hand. He walked us over to my bed and sat down so I did too. His hand didn't leave mine though. He just held on a little tighter now. I just looked down at our hands and took a deep breath again. All that's heard right now is the music playing from outside. I had forgotten that there's a whole party going on at our house.

"You should go back outside to our guests" I told Jahseh as I looked up at him. He shook his head.

"I won't leave you"

"Ill go down in a little bit. I just need a few minutes" I said to him.

"Then I'll wait with you" he said making me kind of smile with my mouth shut. I squeezed his hand. "Why did it make you cry?" He asked me as he tilted his head a little. 

"Because he's suppose to just be my best friend. He's always been in my life and yes he's told me he used to love me like two years ago, I thought that would have passed by now because just the other day he was telling how he can see how happy you make me and he's happy for me. It's just- I- it's just weird hearing him say all that. Like I- I don't know how to react to that. I didn't expect any of that" I explained to him. I sighed and let go of his hand to cover my face with my hands. I groaned. "Why did he have to say all that?" I complained into my hands.

"Did it bring back old feelings for him or something?" I heard Jahseh ask. He sounded as if he didn't want to hear the answer. I looked up at him quickly and grabbed his hand again with both my hands.

"No no no. It's just not something you want to hear from someone who's like family to you" I reassured him. I guess that's a way to say it. He slowly nodded. I moved one of my hands to his neck softly. "Thank you for always being here for me" I said to him then kissed him. He put one hand on my waist and one on my thigh. He gently squeezed my waist making me gasp and slightly pull away from the kiss. I'm ticklish and he knows that. He had a smirk on his face causing a small smile from me.

"I just wanted to see you smile" he told me. I rolled my eyes playfully and the smile on my face didn't move.

"Could have done something else or said something instead. You know I'm ticklish" I said and shoved him lightly. He chuckle then put his hand on my waist again and start to tickle me. "Jahseh!" I yelled laughing and grabbed his hand pulling it away from my waist. He had a proud smile on his face. "You suck" I joked as I stood up.

"So do you... on this dick!" He joked back then started to laugh loudly. I smiled and gave him the middle finger. He grabbed both my hands and pulled me to him as he stopped laughing. I stood between his legs as he stayed seated on the bed.

"You're a fool" I joked again and just smiled at him shaking my head.

"You ready to go back down stairs?" He asked me as he caressed my cheek with his thumb. I nodded. He stood up so I walked over to the mirror. There was black under my eyes from my mascara and eyeliner.

"Hold on" I said then walked into the bathroom. I took a wipe and cleaned myself up. I felt Jahsehs eyes on me. I sighed.

"Come on babe" I heard him say. I look over at him to see he's holding his hand out for me. I just took his hand and followed him out the door. We stopped in front of his door and he let go of my hand. "I wanna take my sweatshirt off" he said then started to take it off revealing a T-shirt underneath.

"Can I wear it?" I asked as he took it off. He nodded and handed it over to me. I slid it on and kept the hoodie up. "Ight lets go" I mumbled then he grabbed my hand again and we walked down the stairs. I saw Isaiah, Trunks, Coolie and Craig standing in the living room talking. Then they all looked over at us. I just looked down and followed Jahseh over to them. I really hope no one talks about what just happened. I didn't let go of Jahs hand.

"Are you okay, Stas?" I heard Isaiah ask me. I looked up at him then nodded.

"Let's not talk about it" Jahseh told them.

"I'm gonna go get a drink" I said quietly then went to talk away, but Jahseh wouldn't let go of my hand. I looked up at him confused. He pulled me closer to him then kissed me. When we pulled away, he let go of my hand. I just walked away and into the kitchen. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and saw Faith texted me. Oh shit I forgot she wasn't here yet. Oh my god. I don't want to have to tell her everything.

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Faith: hey I'm here wya?

Me: sorry just saw this I'm in the kitchen
Me: I was upstairs with jah

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I put my phone back in my pocket and grabbed a cup then walked over to the Henny. Ya bitch having hella Hennessy tonight. I got sober now, but I'm getting more drunk than I was an hour ago.

"Hey" I heard Faiths voice. I looked up to see her walk in with a cup already in her hand.

"Hey girl" I said back then went back to pouring my drink. "I got shit to tell you" I said then sighed. I took a sip from my drink and looked at her again.

"I was just with Ski. He told me what happened with Ki" she told me. That makes my life easier. I took another sip from my drink, but a longer one. I need this shit to hit me. "It surprised me"

"Me too. I was speechless. I wouldn't have expected that" I said shaking my head. "Faith, he started to cry. I saw his eyes get glossy like he was bouta cry then when he walked away, I saw him wipe his face like a tear fell or something" I told her. Her eyes widened. "It broke my fucking heart" I mumbled and again took a sip from my drink.

"Do you think he'll text you in the morning since he'll be sober?" She asked. I shrugged.

"What do I even say to him if he does? I-I'm not in love with him anymore. Those feelings are old as hell. I thought he'd feel the same way. I guess not" I said and shook my head.

"He's almost two years late on that" Faith joked and I nodded agreeing. "But he's also been in love with you since we are 15" I just looked down at my cup.

"But now he chooses to say something. When I'm happy and completely head over heels with someone else"

"He knows that. I think it was just the alcohol and him seeing you two together" She explained. I nodded and looked back up at her.

"Let's go find my boyfriend" I said then we walked out of the kitchen. I saw the boys in the same spot, but Stokeley is now with them. We walked right up to them and I instantly wrapped my arms around Jahseh from the side. He wrapped one arm around me then kissed the side of my head. I don't want to party anymore. I just wanna get drunk then go to sleep.