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**Anastasia's P.O.V**

I got drunk the second people started to show up at our party. It's been over an hour and I haven't drank so I think I'm sobered up. At least a little bit. Kinda.

"Lil zay" I joked as I walked up to Isaiah. He laughed and shook his head.

"What's up Stasy girl?" He said as he put his arm around my shoulders and made us walk into the kitchen. I saw we had so much alcohol.

"Damn why'd we get so much?" I asked as he moved his arm and I walked over to the island staring at all the liquor.

"Ion even know bruh" he said back shaking his head. "You sobered up quick. I wish I was like that" he said with a laugh. "Well I mean you're not sober, but you aren't drunk"

I laughed too and said, "I'm glad I'm not drunk. I actually want people to enjoy my company tonight" he laughed at my joke as he started to pour another drink for himself.

"Nah you cool when you're drunk. It's just not fun when you and Jah fight while drunk" he told me. I nodded understanding that.

"Yeah I still feel bad about that" I said then smiled a little because it was kind of funny looking back on it. "Shit was too crazy" Jahseh walked in so I smile at him.

"You're friend is getting pulled out of the house by his friend" Jahseh told me with a chuckle. I looked at him confused.

"Huh?" Isaiah asked him confused as well.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Skies friend that he brought is legit pulling his drunk ass out the house"  Jah explained to me.

"Are you serious?" I asked confused. This probably isn't good. He nodded and nodded his head towards the door way meaning for us to follow him out. So we did and followed him to the front door that was wide open. I saw Stokeley, Ki, and Kis friend Nick standing out there. Ki looked drunk. Nick has his hand on Kis shoulder was telling him something. He stopped and groaned.

"Bruh you gotta chill. I'm helping you out right now. Just leave while you can" I heard Stokeley say as we got out there. What does he mean by that? Ki looked up as he noticed someone walked outside. Stokeley looked back at us and sighed.

"What's going on?" I asked them.

"Stas I gotta tell you-" Nick cut off Ki.

"Skies stop. For real. Stop I'm taking you home" Nick said to him. He was clearly trying to stop him from something and was getting a little annoyed.

"Nah man. You chill out" Ki said back then pushed Nick off of him. He looked back at me. "I know I'm drunk. I know I'm fucked up right now. But I gotta get something off my chest" he told me.

"Skies chill bro" Stokeley tried to stop him too.

"Nah Ski let him say whatever it is. I wanna know too" Jahseh said as he stepped next to me.

"Listen, X, I got a lot of respect for you, man. I do like I look up to you. You're an amazing artist and a good person, so I'm not trying to disrespect you, but-" again Nick cut Ki off.

"Just get in the car bro. It's right at the end of the driveway. Let's go" Nick said and grabbed Kis arm again. Ki pushes him off again then looks back at me.

"I'll help you take him to the car" Stokeley told Nick then they both grabbed an arm and started to pull him.

"Stas I'm in love with you still" Ki yelled out making them stop pulling on him. They all kind of just stared at me waiting for me to say something. I just stared at him confused.

"What?" I quietly asked. I barely got the word out.

He's still in love with me? I thought he would have gotten over that. Why is he telling me this now? Stokeley and Nick let go of him.

"I'm in love with you" Ki repeated. "I tried to stop loving you like that. I wanted so badly to just love you as my best friend and nothing else. I thought after two years that it would go away, but it hasn't. It never did" he told me.

I wasn't sure what to say. I didn't expect this. Everyone around us stayed quiet watching us. I'm surprised Jahseh hasn't punched him or said something yet.

"I'm glad you found happiness with someone that you're in love with. I see everyday how happy he makes you. But it kills me knowing I can't be the one to help you like that. I know you're gonna say, you're my best friend you do help me. But not like that, Bunny. I can't kiss you like he can do every fucking day. I can hug you, but he can hold you until you fall asleep and you guys can wake up in each other's arms. Every time I see you and you smile, it just comes back to me that I can't love you like he can. You're my best fucking friend. You are the only person that stayed in my life and actually gave a fuck about me and helped me through everything.
You made me fall in love with you. Because of that, because of your smile, your laugh, you're absolutely stunning, you help me like no one else can, you're the only one you truly gets me. Bunny, you drive me crazy, but you're the only girl I've ever felt like this about. And of course it's my best friend. I- Stas I'm fucking in love you" he ranted and stood there with his chest heavily going up and down. I saw his eyes are glossy. "I-I-" he stopped talking and shook his head then turned around and started walking away. I felt my tears start falling down my face.

"Wow" I heard Isaiah mumble from behind me. I felt all eyes on me. Without looking at anyone, I turned around and quickly walked back inside. Tears start streaming down my face more as I ran up the stairs and into my room. I shut the door and leaned against the wall.

Why would he tell me all of this now? When I'm in a happy relationship with someone who I love with everything in me. Someone who I see a future with.

Why does it have to be my best friend? Why did Jahseh have to be right about Kis feelings for me? Fuck.