I had to write a new chapter today because I just saw this book hit 10k reads thank you all so much for reading this book that I thought no one would like lmaooo love y'all
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I finally laid in bed and I instantly heard my phone ding. I don't want anyone to bother me after everything that happened tonight. Too many problems for me within one hour. I grabbed my phone to see Jahseh texted me. It's been only thirty minutes since I got home.

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Jahseh: you okay?

Me: yeah
Me: you?

Jahseh: yeah wyd

Me: just layed down
Me: come in here☹️

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A few minutes later, my door opened revealing Jahseh. He quickly run and jumped into my bed making me laugh. He laid down on his side and stared at me.

"Sorry I was rude to you earlier. But I think you understood where I was coming from" he said getting serious. I nodded and rolled to my side also.

"I would have been mad too" I told him. He leaned in and kissed me. I smiled as he pulled away. He just laid back on the pillow and stared at me with a small smirk on his face. I mirrored him staring back.

"I don't want you to think I would just use you to have sex or to just mess with your feelings" he told me making me frown a little.

"I know. I'm just used to that from all the boys I've been with. Trevon and I were together for so long yet he cheated on me many times, yet claimed he loved me, and I think it was just all for the sex. It stills hurt me to this day because it made me feel worthless and it had me wondering for a long time, am I not good enough for someone? It really made me over think, who could I really trust? It fucked up my feelings" I explained to him. He was now frowning.

"He's a dick and clearly didn't care how he was hurting you. That's not love. From what you just told me I could say that ain't love. When you're in love, you would do anything not to hurt the one you love. You just want them happy and never want them sad. And don't ever feel like you're worthless. You're an amazing fucking girl, Stas. I have felt that same way for a very long time due to my past relationships. They both really messed me up also so I get it. I completely get it. But you aren't the one that messed up. It was him. It was not you. He should be the one feeling terrible. You're good enough" he told me as he put his hand out for me. I grabbed it and gave him a small smile.

"I'm sorry you were put through shit too. You didn't deserve it. You have a good heart" I said back and he squeezed my hand lightly so I did it back.

"I try to be a good person. I want to make a change with myself and the world" he said causing me to smile a little wider.

"I think you're going a good job. You're a good fucking person, Jah. You really are" I said and he smiled too. He leaned in and kissed me again.

"Thank you" He said back.

"You always know how to make me feel better. Thank you"

"I never want to see you sad" he told me. He went to continue to talk, but there was a knock on my door.

"Come in!" I yelled as I sat up. Jahseh staying laying down and went onto his phone. The door opened to Stokeley standing there. He had a big goofy smile on his face making me smile.

"Oh my bad. Y'all busy?" He asked. We all laughed.

"What's up?" I asked without answering his question.

"I'm just bored. I couldn't find Jah so I was gonna ask if you knew where he was and I wanted to chill with you also. I'm so bored" he told us. I giggled softly. "But I can leave y'all alone-"

"Nah nigga come here" Jahseh said and sat up. "We talking about fucked relationships" he said as Stokeley walked in and sat on the end of the bed.

"Oh don't even get me started vro" Stokeley said making me laugh. "Hey we still gone fuck up Trevon if I see that nigga" He told me. I nodded.

"Please do" I said back and leaned against the headboard.

"Yeah ima beat the niggas ass" Jahseh added.

"Y'all having a party without us?" I heard Isaiah's voice. I looked up to see him and Gabe walk in. I smiled.

"Y'all can join" I said back and brought my knees to my chest so there's room for them on my bed. 

"What y'all talking about?" Gabe asked us.

"Fucked relationships" Stokeley answered him.

"Oh hell nah ima tell y'all about this bitch" Gabe started to talk making me start cracking up. These boys are so funny. I'm so lucky to be surrounded 24/7 by these boys and the other ones like Trunks, Coolie, Craig, all of them. There's so many of them and I love them all. I'm so glad I moved in here. These boys keep me sane and happy.