"I'm hungry" Faith complained as she sat on the counter. I shut the fridge and sighed.

"Same. Should we ask the boys if they wanna go get food?" I asked her. She nodded. "Ight let me go ask" I said then walked out of the kitchen. I walked down the hallway to the studio.

"Bro I just don't want to fall in love again. I get hurt every time. I don't want to be in pain again" I heard Jahseh say to who ever he's talking to. I stopped walking to listen.

"So what about Stas then? Don't mess with her feelings Jah-" Jahseh cut Stokeley off.

"I'm not messing with her feelings, Stoke. I have feelings for her. I really do like her. I just" he stopped and groaned. "I don't know bro. She's a good girl though. I'm just being complicated I know that. I don't know what to do" I walked away without hearing what else they have to say. I walked back into the kitchen and Faith looked at me confused.

"You good?" She asked. I nodded.

"Yeah, why?" I asked back. She shrugged.

"They not hungry?"

"I didn't ask them. They were talking about something" I told her and she nodded.

"How are you and Jahseh?" She asked me and I laughed quietly.

"We friends" I said making her laugh.

"Friends that fucked last night" she said quietly. I laughed and smacked her arm.

"Girl shut up. You didn't even hear what they was just talking about in there" I said getting serious. She looked at me confused. "He was saying how he doesn't want to fall in love again and doesn't know what to do. I guess about me" I told quietly.

"Oh shit what the hell?" She said back quietly. I nodded slowly. "Wait does that mean he's falling in love with you?" She asked with her eyes widened. I rolled my eyes.

"No. It probably means we aren't gonna be together. It was fun while it lasted" I joked, but it wasn't funny. It hurt me because my feelings for him grew every day. I wish I didn't have feelings for him. Time to ignore the feelings. I guess.

***

"What's wrong?" Jahseh asked as he took a step back from me.

"Nothing I'm fine" I lied. He just titled his head and looked at me confused. I knew he didn't believe me. "Jah I heard what you said earlier about you not knowing what you want and not wanting to fall in love again. I get that so I'm making it easier for you. You and I, I guess, are just friends" I told him. The confused look on his face was gone and instead he's looking annoyed. "I was going to ask you guys if you wanted food, but then I heard that. It's fine Jahseh. Really, you shouldn't have to be confused on what you want. Now you don't have to be" I added.

"And that's what you want?" He asked. His tone didn't sound annoyed, but the look on his face looked it. I shrugged.

"It's whatever" I said quietly trying to act as if I didn't care. But I do. It hurt me to say all that. It bothers me, but if he doesn't know what he wants then obviously it's not real between us. If he really liked me he wouldn't be confused. He chuckled and shook his head.

"You wanna hear me out or you just wanna push the feelings away because of the two seconds of the conversation you heard?" He asked me. Obviously very annoyed now.

"Honestly not right now Jah" I said and went to walk away, but he grabbed my arm. I looked back at him.

"You're serious?"

"Yes" I said pulling my arm away.

"Stas come on. It ain't like you doing something right now so let's talk" he said making me sigh.

"I'm really tired Jahseh. I have a headache I can't do this right now" I said back and opened the door to my room. He groaned.

"Man oh my god" he mumbled then walked into his room and slammed his door shut.

I don't like having him annoyed at me.