(Lol I'm telling you right now, you guys are either going to hate or love the ending)

"Are we going to talk about the fact that Lia has seen your thingy?" I asked Alex as we sat in his car waiting for Lia outside of her therapist office.

Lia kept to her word and agreed to start going to therapy about her problems, this will be her third appointment.

"It wasn't on purpose, It was when she caught Abigail and I and it was super embarrassing." His face began to turn red.

"Is it really that........ya know big?" I asked curiously. See I've never seen a real penis before except online but that's not the point im just curious.

"Clarity I don't know! I don't go around comparing dicks with other guys and i don't want to talk about dick sizes to my best friend." He grumbled.

Just as I was about to open my mouth, Lia opened the car door and sat in the front seat I noticed her face was slightly wet from tears.

"Were you crying?" I asked.

"My therapist laid down some heavy shit and I just wasn't ready for it that's all." She shrugged her shoulders and wiped at her face.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" I asked curiously.

"I don't want to talk about my feelings anymore today I just want tacos. Now onward to taco bell peasant." She smacked Alex in the car.

"I hate taco bell." I frowned.

"And I hate men, now that we got that out the way, ONWARD TO TACO BELL!!!" She bellowed at the top of her lungs.

"Okay okay no need to be screaming." Alex covered her mouth.

As Alex drove off toward taco bell, I reached up and began playing with Lia's hair.

"When are you going to cut this?" I asked as I slightly tugged on it.

"Tug on it harder." She said seductively.

"Or what?" I smirked as i reached forward and placed a kiss on her lips.

"Guys im still in the car." Alex said uncomfortably.

"I would finger bang Clarity in this car with you in it so what's your fucking point." Lia said as she flicked her tongue at Alex.

At least she was slowly getting back to normal.

"Since you're forcing me to prom I need to see what my dress looks like first to make sure my hair matches with the outfit and I need to know the type of shoes, does the dress come with a train, are we painting my stupid nails-"

"Oh my gosh you are so excited for this!" I squealed, interrupting her.

"No." Her face began to slightly turn red.

"No you're so excited I could tell! I have your entire outfit planned out from makeup to shoes and I guess it's great you haven't cut your hair yet." I continued squealing.

"Great you can deal with what happens to my hair." Lia said nonchalantly.

"Stop acting like you're not excited." I scolded at her.

I noticed the small twinkle in her eyes and the smirk on her face, I knew she was just as excited as me.

"So what did you and the therapist talk about?" I asked as Alex pulled into the taco bell drive thru.

"Shhhhh tacos." She said.

After Alex ordered their food we sat in the parking lot, watching Lia practically shove tacos down her throat.

"Those aren't the only type of tacos Lia enjoys eating," Alex smirked.

"Damn right," Lia muffled through the food in her mouth, I slapped her arm and scrunched up my face.

"I see your eating more now, does your stomach feel better?" I asked her.

Her mood immediately changed after I asked, she looked away and put her head down almost like in shame.

"Yeah, I still have to take medication for the pain and there's still some slight bleeding." She said lowly.

"Medication for what ? Are you alright Lia?" Alex asked.

"For her miscarriage." I answered Alex without thinking.

I looked over and noticed Lia staring at me with an annoyed expression and shook her head.

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"So what the fuck are you and my sister wearing to prom?" Lia asked as we all sat at my dining room table.

Sure enough a hand came swiftly down on the top of Lia's head as my mother scolded her.

"You're going to learn to control that potty mouth of yours." My mother said as she went back into the kitchen.

"Clarity I don't like coming into your house and being attacked, your mother is supposed to love me like a favorite child." She pouted.

"Stop cursing in the house." I said as I snatched at her taco.

"Something like royal blue colors, what about you guys?" Alex asked.

"Burgundy."

"Ya know it will be really weird to not have my dad at my send off, he's been to all of my dances, performances and things like that and my mother has barely been to any of them." Lia said seriously.

Lia decided not to press charges against her father but there was a restraining order against him. I know it wasn't easy for Lia because he was all that she had even if he was beating on her. He always tried to make it up to her whenever he inflicted his anger onto her.

Before I could say anything my mother walked into the dining room and held out her hand.

"Cecelia come here I want to talk to you about something." She said as she grabbed her hand.

They both walked up the stairs leaving Alex and I alone.

"Damn.....I know that's a big change for Lia, all she knows is her father and her mother was never there." Alex said, making sure the coast was clear before he cursed.

"I know I feel so bad, who knows how long he was abusing her."

"Do you think her mom will actually be there for her?" Alex asked.

I shrugged my shoulders.

I honestly didn't have an answer for that.

"Well at least she won't have to worry about that when she goes off to state college." Alex said.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"She didn't tell you? She got accepted into state college, that's where she decided to go." Alex explained.

Why wouldn't she have told me that? I already knew they accepted her but I still didn't think that she was going to pick that school, I thought she was thinking about us now and which direction this relationship would go in. Was she going to tell me? But when was the question.

"No, she didn't tell me at all, I was hoping she was going to pick the school that I was going to and we could be there forever." I said sadly.

"That's a bit immature of you to think." Alex chuckled.

"Why-" Just then Lia and my mother came back downstairs but now Lia was in a much better mood unlike me who wasn't feeling so hot right now. What was going to happen to Lia and I now that our schools were hours away from each other, in the past Lia has been the most faithful person when it came to casual partners but would she actually take us seriously or would we just drift away?

I was still frustrated at the fact that Lia wouldn't tell me something like this sooner, forget a relationship, Lia and I have never been separated since we were 6, what would happen to our friendship?

"Clarity!!!" I looked up to see Alex and Lia staring over at me with confused expressions.

"What?!" I snapped accidentally.

Lia gave me a weird look and then shrugged her shoulders.

"We were just having an argument on who would win the fight between a bear and an alligator." She said.

"Obviously the bear would win and also I just want to rep my college since the mascot is a bear." Alex said proudly.

"No way, what college are you going to?!" I asked excitedly, suddenly shifting out of my mood.

"Alberny Westside College," He smiled.

I jumped up and squealed as I ran over and sat on his lap to pull him into a crushing hug.

"OH MY GOSH! We are going to the same college! We are going to be best friends in college, I'm going to be in your dorm all the time!" I said as I continued to squeal and hug him.

"Clarity I like breathing!" He gasped as he tried to push me off of him.

"Sorry." I blushed and sat back down in my seat.

"That's cool though that we are going to the same school," He smiled as he rubbed the back of his neck.

"What are you majoring in? I questioned excitedly.

"I'm majoring in-"

"Hey guys, I'm still here even though I'm not going to the same school." She waved in between us.

"No that's because you decided to pick State College." I snapped in her direction.

She looked taken aback for a moment and then looked at me with confusion.

"Clarity I've been saying this entire time that I want to go to State College." She said still confused.

"Okay but why didn't you tell me that that's where you finally decided on," I huffed in annoyance.

"You literally did all of my college applications and you were the first one to see that I got accepted, I'm having a hard time trying to figure out why you're so mad right now," She slightly laughed.

"Because I applied to so many other schools for you that were closer to my school! You even got accepted to Alberny but you still decided to be selfish and choose Sate College which is hours away from each other. It's like you don't even care about us," I yelled.

I watched as she opened her mouth and then closed it, then opened it and closed it once more. Her facial expressions showed that she was thinking hard about something, trying to find the right words to say.

"You've been talking about applying to Alberny College ever since we were freshman right? It's your dream school isn't it?" She questioned.

"Yeah, what does that have to do with anything?"

"Well that's what State College is for me, a dream. I was accepted with a full athletic scholarship because someone recognized the only talent that I seem to have, this is the only chance I have to better myself even if that means being far away from my family and friends. I don't even know what I want to do with my life yet Clarity but this is giving me a chance to figure that out and if that means that I'm selfish then so be it. But at the end of the day all I have is me." She said, staring me straight into my eyes.

I blushed from embarrassment and looked down. I was the one being selfish, Lia was recognized for her talent and this school was an opportunity to get away from her toxic household and get herself better but all I thought about was me.

"I'm sorry, I just don't want to lose you," I said quietly.

"Just because we are going to be hours away doesn't mean I'm going to throw years of our friendship away, I'll always love you but my therapist told me I've always been putting other before myself, thinking about how everything I do affects others but I've never thought about myself. I want to start doing that now." She explained.

Those therapy lessons were actually paying off.

"Is it my turn now to point out that I'm still here?" Alex awkwardly butted in.

"Don't worry Alex, you'll always be invisible to me." Lia smiled sweetly at him.

"Whatever." He mumbled under his breath.

"Oh Alex you never said what you were majoring in." I pointed out.

"I'm majoring in-" Alex was once again cut off by my mother coming into the dining door and motioning for Lia and I to come upstairs with her.

"Sorry to interrupt but I want to do one last measurement for your outfits." My mother said.

We both got up and followed my mother upstairs but before we headed into the room Lia pulled me to the side.

"Clarity you gotta stop this." She said seriously.

"Stop what?" I asked.

"Whatever is happening right now, jumping to conclusions or whatever the hell this is, you know damn well I would do anything in my power to make sure I wouldn't lose you but if you keep acting like this then you'll just force my hand," She said before turning away to follow after my mother.

I stood there in shock for a moment.

I didn't want to lose Lia.

(Not the last chapter)