[ FLASHBACK ]—

“Jungkook!”

A voice cried from behind the walls, not much far from where Jungkook was standing.

He lifted his head, and gave Lisa a piercing glare. “You’re not a damn criminal.”

She went towards him and snatched the gun from Jungkook.—

“Revenge is different from justice Jeon—“

“It’s just the same — revenge is just more brutal.”

Just awhile ago, Tae was kneeling down, begging him to drop the gun. But instead, Jungkook pulled the trigger that made Tae fall onto the ground.—

He did not shoot Tae, he just fainted out of fear. And Jungkook shot the bullet onto the side, not to Tae’s direction.

“I’m not liking the way you’re talking.” Lisa said, she immediately called the callesa over.

Jungkook carried Tae on his arms.—

He hated the feeling. Coz you know what? He’s never thought of doing this.

Right after he went to the US, all he can think of was to go back and hug Tae, give him kisses, and shower him all the love he had for him.

But it just hurts that they’ll meet again like this.

“I checked on him, he’s asleep.” Lisa went inside Jungkook’s room. They’re both currently living in the same house because of pretending.

Jungkook did not even spare her a glance and just continued doing paperworks.

“I don’t need that information.”—

Lisa sighed, she sat on the couch in front of Jungkook’s desk to talk to him.

“You’re such a coward.” Lisa said, making Jungkook look up to her with an annoyed expression.

“What is it again?” He asked, and dropped the quail.—

“You’ve told me how much you wanted to make the person who killed your brother suffer. I’ve known you like my brother Jeon, and I also know that you can’t hurt him.”

Jungkook didn’t want to talk about it, he continued to do his business and ignored Lisa.

“Shut it.”—

“The most common punishments for prisoners is getting beat up right? But instead, you chose the thing with the water because you know that you can’t stand seeing him being hurt.”

Jungkook glared at her, “Stop it, get out.” He ordered.

“Its true right?”—

“I mean you could already kill him that night, even If I stop you, you won’t let me. But you shot it on the ground instead—“

“Shut the fuck or I’ll cut your tongue!” Jungkook stood up in rage, slamming the table hard.

Lisa knew she was right.—

“You don’t have the right to shout at me like that—“

“And you don’t have the right to dictate me about my life either!”

Jungkook was shaking in anger. Lisa had seen him in this state, but she knew that he can be worse than this.—

But Lisa, she felt hurt, and offended. She knew that he’s gonna throw her some words but she didn’t expect this.

Not from the person whom she treated like a family.

“You do not fucking understand how hard it was for me when my brother died!”—

Jungkook clenched his fist, his eyes were tearing up. He hated to go back to time where he suffered the most.

“You don’t know how much I was starving because I had no money for food. You don’t know how many houses I knocked onto just for shelter,”—

“That motherfucker burned our house to make sure that nothing is left. I was fifteen that time and I don’t know how to survive! My brother was the only family I had left and they took him from me— you’ll never understand my pain because you are not me!”—

“I was in the verge of dying that I had to force myself to eat the leftovers in the trash just to fucking survive!”

Jungkook was breathing so hard as how hard he was crying.

He felt quite light since he’s been stopping these emotions for years.—

“And you...you’ll never get the pain I felt on that time that I saw the pictures and found out that Taehyung was the one who killed my brother. And you know what?”

Out of pain, he didn’t even realize that his fist was bleeding because of too much clenching.—

“I wanted to punch him, I wanted to shout at him and kill him for good!”

He was bawling in tears, he didn’t know that these emotions would be a lot painful now.

“But when I saw him again? Smiling at me so sweetly? And even bruised his hand just to make me present?”
—

“I don’t fucking know where my anger went. Because when I saw him, I just wanted to hug him, tell him everything and cry on his shoulders. You don’t know how much I longed for his presence. And its not fucking easy for me to send the person I love the most into suffering.”—

“But I want to get the justice I promised for my brother. And now you’re here telling me everything that I was such a coward of?!”

Lisa flinched as soon as JK swung his arms onto the row of vases & it fell on the ground.

It shattered, but their hearts were more broken.—

“I know you’re hurt. But you don’t also have the right to point on me like that like you don’t know what I’ve gone through.”

Lisa harshly wiped her tears as soon as it fell. “My own father killed my fiancée, Jungkook. I was so mad at him that I almost tried to kill him.”—

“But I found out that I was defending the wrong side. My fiancée was just using me for money, and my father just wanted to protect me.”

It was so hard for her to hold back her sobs since the scars from the past still hurts.

“All this time, I hated him for no reason.”—

“I cursed at him, disrespected him, I even heard him crying in his room because he was hurt. Do you know how much I hated myself for that?”

Nothing could ever be painful, than a child seeing its parents cry in silence.—

“I know this isn’t about me. But I was just trying to help you. I was also surprised when I found out that Tae was the killer. You don’t know how much he loves you Jungkook, I don’t think he can do this to you.”

Jungkook threw himself.on the chair then cried his eyes out.—

“I’ll go out. Get yourself some rest.” She said, then left.

Jungkook let out a shout — a painful shout that only him can understand.

“Why does it have to be you Taehyung? Why do I have to find it out just now that I’m deeply inlove with you?”