"Shawn." I heard someone say as I stood outside of his apartment followed by moan. "Harder."

I could feel my heart racing and breaking at the same time at the thought that maybe he was cheating on me... Again. I don't know why I even stayed with him after his first two times. The thought that he was doing this for like the hundredth time made me want to hit my head on the wall. Am I seriously going to let him hurt me again?! How stupid can I get?!

I stood there for a few moments, hearing their groans as I built up the courage to make my presence know. I took the key out from my pocket and unlocked the door. I was right. There he was, hovering over a naked whore on the couch, taking his time in inserting his dick into her.

Once the door slammed, they both looked up and their eyes grew wide. He immediately pulled out and rushed to grab his boxers from the floor. He slowly walked over to me, guilt taking over his features as the slut took his shirt and used it to cover herself.

"Y/n, I can explain." He stuttered as I just stared at him.

Before I knew it, a laugh erupted from my mouth, taking him by surprise. I just laughed at him, trying to hide the pain and shook my head as tears started to form in my eyes and slowly streamed down my cheeks. I raised my hand and slapped him as hard as I could.

"No need to explain. We're done." I said, wiping my wet cheeks. "I hope you're happy."

Days after days, I've cried myself to sleep. Letting him go was for the best even if it hurt to admit it. We're not meant for each other. Everything we had just wasn't right. We only put each other down. We only left the other one broken. I admit, I fell in love with him hard but sometimes, you need to think about what's good for you.

"Y/n..." I heard him call from outside of my door as I leaned against the wall beside it, crying. "Y/n, please baby. We can work this out."

"Leave." I croaked out.

"Baby, you know I won't. Please... Let's just talk this through."

I took a deep breath and wiped my eyes. I pushed myself off of the floor and opened the door. It took everything in me not to run over to his arms and hold him tight. There he stood, in his usual flannel and jeans with his hair messed up and eyes red and puffy.

Control yourself. Don't run to him... Don't... Please... Have mercy on your heart...

"Y/n..." He said once again before taking me in his arms.

I stood there, forcing myself not to hug him back. I kept my arms at my side as I wish this would end. I can't let him see how much his actions affected me. I can't let him see that I am still head over heels for him. It took everything in me to place my hands on his chest and push him away. You could see in his eyes that my actions hurt him more than just physically. And trust me, it hurt me to. I took a step back and kept my distance from him.

"What do you want, Shawn?" I asked, making my tone as harsh as I could.

"I... I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry that I've hurt you in the past. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you as much as I would like to. I'm sorry that I've fucked up." He said, tears streaming down his face as he stared at me in disbelief.

Be harsh. Be strong. Don't be affected by the fact that he is crying. Y/n, hold on for now please. Don't let him see you cry.

"Past is past, right? I forgive you. I've forgiven you a long time ago. If that's all you're here for-"

"Please give me another chance."

"I... I can't."

"W-what? Why? "

I took another deep breath and turned my attention to the sleeves of my sweater. I couldn't meet his eyes since he would know that I was lying if I did. He knows me well enough to find out what I really feel just by looking into my eyes. I sent out a silent prayer, asking for strength to do this. If only this was easier than it seems.

"You've cheated on me a hundred times before then ran to me, apologizing, saying that it was a mistake, and did it all over again. I'm tired, Shawn. I've forgiven you but that doesn't mean I could just forget that it ever happened. I would only be hurting myself by doing so."

"I promise I would change!"

"You've also said that before. How am I supposed to believe you if you keep making promises you don't keep? I know I've hurt you before by constantly believing the rumors about you but what am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to believe when I've caught you cheating on me before? I think it's better this way."

"I love you, can't you see that?"

"If you loved me then why did you sleep with several other girls when we were together?"

"It never meant anything."

"THIS IS EXACTLY WHY I WANT TO END IT, SHAWN!" I yelled, bringing my hands to my head, my nails digging into my scalp out of frustration. "I'm tired of constantly thinking that maybe I wasn't good enough or that I did something wrong or maybe I'm not pretty enough or talented or rich enough for you! I'm tired of thinking that it's my fault that you slept with another girl when in reality... It's yours! You can't control yourself! You think that sorry fixes everything and by promising to change, everything will get better but you're only killing me over and over again! I don't want to be that stupid girl that is willing to get hurt, to suffer all because of someone she loved!"

"Y/n..."

"Leave. If you really did love me, you would let me go since you know that I'm in pain... That I'm not happy."

He bit his lip and let his tears go before nodding. It took everything in me not to breakdown in front of him. It took everything not to kiss him one last time before he left. My lips let a few lies slip when my heart and mind just wanted to have him hold me and let everything fix itself. But that's never going to happen since it's not only our relationship that was broken but us as well.

It's time to say goodbye to the islands that we named and the earth that we have claimed. Once the door shut, I fell on my knees and bawled my eyes out once again. I'm alive... I'm breathing... That's all that matters. All will be alright in time.

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A/N: I'm not sure if I liked this but the cheating scene was fun to make. 🤣 I honestly have been obsessed with this song for days and I'm honestly proud of Ate Reese for it. (Pronounced as Ah-teh btw) I've been using OPM songs as basis but I can't help it! Not to mention that Ate Reese is part of the Catholic community I was born in and our moms used to be friends before we left Manila. Also, SHOUT OUT TO THE ONES WHO KNOW WHAT SONG THE LAST LINE OF THE IMAGINE IS FROM! 

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