Have you ever wanted to detach yourself from the world? To just runaway to this little place of solitude in order to avoid drama and even more problems than you already have? To just drown yourself in art or music or even reading or writing and stay away from any forms of social interaction?

I guess that's what I'm doing now. I rode my pickup truck all the way to the other side of town, to the place wherein a cliff overlooks the city and no one really bothers to drive all the way to. The air, the view, the quietness... these calmed me down whenever I felt suffocated with the things happening around me. I was taking up a course that I was pressured into but did not want. I was ignored by the ones whom I try to please and was belittled every single time.  I guess that's what it feels like to be in a family of over achievers.

"Where are we going?" He asked, the light coming from the lamp posts we've passed by illuminating his angelic features.

"You'll find out soon. We're almost there anyway." I said, giving him a quick glance before focusing back on the rocky path.

I eventually reached the place and I pulled up a few feet away from the edge. I went out and grabbed my guitar from the back seat. I climbed up the open cargo and took the instrument out its case. A few seconds later, Shawn joined me out back. We sat there in silence for a couple of minutes as he stared up at the star filled sky. I couldn't help but admire him as his eyes sparkled along with the heavenly bodies. I positioned my fingers on the strings and started to play the first song that came into my mind.

"Love of my life, you've hurt me
You've broken my heart, and now you leave me
Love of my life, can't you see?
Bring it back, bring it back, don't take it away from me
Because you don't know what it means to me "

I sang the lyrics softly, looking down at the strings instead of him. I could feel him staring at me yet I didn't want to meet his eyes. I've never sung in front of him, not even letting myself hum despite how long we've known each other. It's just something I prefer to keep hidden to everyone else. I was never really happy with how my voice sounded while his... it's like listening to a siren's song. It will lure you in with its beauty and before you know it, you're trapped.

"Love of my life, don't leave me.
You've taken my love, you now desert me.
Love of my life, can't you see?
Bring it back, bring it back, don't take it away from me
Because you don't know what it means to me."

He sang in reply, his gaze still on me. I could help but feel my ears heat up as I continued to play. We continued singing the song together, the first time we've ever done it. Once I played the last chord, I put the guitar down and stood up. I climbed on top of the car's roof and stared out at the view from the cliff.

"You never told me you could sing." He said, leaning against the space beside me.

"That's because I can't." I muttered, picking at the ends of my sweater.

"Y/n, I've known you since we were babies. How could you keep something like that from me for so long? Best friends are supposed to tell each other even their darkest secrets."

"I was just messing around, Shawn. I can't sing to save my life. In fact, I sound like a dying cat."

"Bullshit."

"It's true though."

"Why are you always so negative? You wouldn't listen to me even I am telling you is the truth! You always like to believe that there is no good aspect in you! Why? Why can't you see the best in you like I do?" He exclaimed, moving me to face him.

I didn't answer. How could I? I felt his hands press against either side of my waist and before I knew it, I was pulled off of the roof and back onto the cargo, a squeal leaving my lips. He placed his arms on my back and under my knees before jumping off the car, me in hand. He finally put me back down onto the ground and held me close to him.

"When will you see what I see in you? When will you find your worth?" He asked, putting one hand on my cheek as the other arm remained on my waist.

"How many times do I have to tell you that I have no worth?" I replied, meeting his eyes for the first time tonight. "This place... I come here to escape since everything is just suffocating. I'm not wanted at home, in school, in society... I'm not wanted at all.  If even there's a slight possibility of that, it would be by the police for killing my relatives but I apparently can't do that."

"Love of my life, you've hurt me. You've broken my heart..."

Before he finished the verse, the next thing I knew... he kissed me. His pink, plump lips on my pale, cold ones. It's not just those kisses that feels as if it was done for the sake of it or to shut someone up. It was filled with emotions. Emotions that I could not distinguish due to its effect on me. Everything else around me was just a blur as the kiss left my mind in a mess.

"You are not unwanted. You are not worthless. I want you, Y/n. I want you in so many ways. As my best friend, as my annoying little sister... as my other half, as the one I will love until the end of time itself. You're worth more than my own life to me, darling. And you sure as hell are worth more than the material things in this world are combined." He whispered against my lips, leaving only a few centimeters between the two of us. "And it breaks my heart to know that you can't see that."

He has left me speechless yet again. I didn't know how to respond so I just did what I thought was best. I closed the gap between the two of us yet again and at that moment, I knew what the feeling was. Passion, love, longing, lust, and adoration, all expressed in one action. I've loved him for years yet never had the guts to accept it. I flipped. Everything inside me did.

"When I grow older, I will be there at your side 
To remind you how I still love you.
I still love you."

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A/N: Apparently "based" means just having references of the song 😂 It didn't go how I was expecting it to but I really don't know what to do at the moment. My mind has been taken up by a certain guy whom I claimed as "just a friend" last June. Turns out, I've already had a crush on him when we were at the boat going to the convention and I only admitted it last November 17, when we first saw each other after a few months. Expect a slightly sad and true to life imagine based on what happened when they were here, coming soon. (If I have time to write since projects are piling up again because our Christmas break starts at December 14) 😂 

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