NOTE: I was like 13 or 14 when I wrote this. At that time, I wanted stuff to be romantic and have a happy ending so this is definitely not realistic. If you ever experience the scenario in the story in real life, please do yourself a favor and dump his ass. You deserve to be treated like a queen, not a punching bag, not a fuck toy. So I'm really sorry if this is shit.

She looks so desperate. She always flirts with any other guy she meets. Too bad he's mine. She twirls a strand her obviously fake hair extensions around her badly painted index finger making her even more of a slut. I ran to him and attack him with a kiss and a hug.

"Hey babe." He says holding me by the waist.

"Hey." I replied.

She starts to sashay away and I gave her the evil eye as she left.

"What?" He said looking at me.

"Huh?"

"What's with the famous 'eye'?"

"Nothing." I said brushing off the thought that I despise that whore.

"You're jealous of her aren't you?" I rolled my eyes at what he said. "Don't be. I love you. ONLY you."

I smiled at the thought but then I saw red stains on his neck, lips, and chest. That's when I noticed that his shirt's unbuttoned on the first 2 buttons.

"What are these?" I said looking at the red marks. "Lipstick stains?! You were making out with her, weren't you?"

He didn't answer.

"Scratch that. Making out doesn't seem like a good enough description, does it?"

Still no answer.

"Wow. No reply. And here I thought that you wouldn't be the one to hurt me. After all you did say that you would never be like the guys that have gone before you. Thank you for proving that you're just another asshole who will never be satisfied with what they have."

I turned away and started walking away until I was abruptly pulled back. I turned around and glared at the brown-eyed book staring at me with no expression whatsoever.

"What else do you want? Do you want to take my pride as well? Do you want to gather all the freshly broken pieces of my heart and shatter it even more?"

He still didn't reply.

"Answer me you son of a bitch!"

He slapped me as hard as hell.

"You say you love be, but you don't so why keep me around after I found out the truth about who you really are? You're an asshole. You're not different from every other goddamn player in this town. You're worse."

"Shut up, bitch! We made out a bit before you came, so what? It's not a big deal! Everyone else does that!"

"For you, it may be nothing but for me... You, of all people... My God! I was so stupid for not seeing through the glamour you were wearing!"

I ran to the rented apartment we were living in and went in the bedroom. I packed all my things as fast as I could. I heard the front door open and footsteps on the stairs.

"What are you doing?" He said pulling me by the shoulder to face him.

"Oh you know, packing up for a slumber party my mermaid friend is having in China." I said, sarcastically as I wiped the tears streaming down my face. "I'm leaving, Shawn! What else am I doing?! What kind of girl would want to stay with an inconsiderate asshole who cheats on the one who trusted him?! I'm done."

I grabbed my bags and car keys and left. I got in the car and drove away from the monster I fell in love with. I got to my best friend, y/bff/n's house since I have no idea where to go especially in this side of town.

"Y/N? Is that you? What's wrong?" She said confused.

"He cheated on me, y/bff/n. I can't believe he would do that to me." I cried into my hands when she gave me a friendly hug.

It hurts to know that she always helps me with my problems but I can't do it in return.

"It's okay. Everything will be okay. Trust me. He'll regret it."

"The problem is, I have no idea where else to go and what else to do."

"It's okay. Until you find out what you should do and find yourself as well, you can stay here as long as you want. I have an extra room on the 2nd floor, down the hall beside my room."

"Thanks y/bff/n. I don't know what I'll do without you."

She smiled at me as I got in her house. I went upstairs and down the hall. I saw the empty guest room and sat on the bed. I broke down crying until I heard my phone ring. I didn't need to look at the caller ID to know it was Shawn. I declined the call and I went out to the car to get my bags when I saw his hoodie at the backseat. I sat there, crying into it.

I still can't believe he would do that. I can't believe he said it was no big deal when he knows it hurts. I quickly wiped my tears and I grabbed my bags as well as his hoodie. I went to the guest room and unpacked. I cried again and again and again. I think I fell asleep because I woke up with dry tears on my cheeks. My eyes were red and puffy, I can barely keep my eyes open, and my nose was clogged. I miss him badly.

It's been a couple weeks since the fight. I have a feeling my friends told him that I've been spending my days working just to earn $50 an hour and my nights crying over him. His friends have also told me he wasn't doing any better than I am and that he says he's missing half of him.

I moved into my new apartment two days ago. It's kinda lonely without him though. I miss him, more than anything. But he left me broken hearted and I don't think I can ever forgive him for that. I was sitting on the couch, watching TV when I received a message.

I miss you. Can we please talk about it? I know for sure that both of us weren't thinking clearly when it all happened. At least, I wasn't.

I couldn't believe what I was reading. I'm not sure whether to accept the offer or decline it. I miss him but I think seeing him would make things worse. I love him but he doesn't love me back. He fucking cheated on me! How can I forget something that painful, harsh, and cruel? What should I do?

Fine.When and where?

It took a few minutes before he answered back.

Starbucks, maybe? Later at around 2? 

K.

That went well. It was better than I imagined. Should I go or ditch him? That question's been bouncing around my head during and after the text. Oh Shit! It's already 1:30, I better get ready. I ran to the shower and took a quick bath. I wore my peach ruffled blouse, brown leggings, and black boots and did my makeup. I grabbed my purse and drove off. I got into the café and the smell of coffee filled my senses. I looked around and saw him sitting in one of the booths across the door in his usual gray shirt.

"Hey." He said, looking up and standing up.

"Hi." I said coldly and sat on the chair across his. "I'm basically wasting my time here so have mercy on me and end this as fast as possible. What exactly did you want to talk about?"

"Um... I just wanted to say that I'm sorry. It was just a misunderstanding."

"How is it a misunderstanding? There were lip stick stains on you and you reacted by slapping me on the face and calling me a bitch!"

"How else could I react? You started jumping to conclusions and calling me an asshole! I couldn't reply immediately! I didn't want to say something so cliché like 'baby, it doesn't mean anything, I promise' even though it really didn't mean anything!" He said, holding back the tears that threatened to spill out of his eyes. "She kissed me, okay? I tried to stop her but she still did it. I reacted that way since it hurt hearing you say that I didn't care about you. And calling me a son of a bitch was too much. I wasn't thinking clearly when I did it. I got too pissed at her and took it out on you."

"Why would I believe you?"

"Because I'm telling the truth. I would never do that to you... I would never... I would never hurt you intentionally."

"Oh yeah. Well you did." I said trying to hold back the tears. "You promised you'll never hurt me. You promised you'll never let anyone take you away from me. You promised..."

"I know, I know. I never meant to break those promises. Please, give me another chance." He said with desperation evident in his voice.

"To what? Break my heart all over again?"

Those were my last words before I left. As I left, I saw him crying into his hands. I don't know if I should give a fuck about hurting him but... HE HURT ME! And with that, my head started to hurt. My stomach hurts so badly and I can feel an acid-like substance burning my throat. Is this just the guilt of what I did or is it worse? I have to head home.

Once I got home I locked the door and ran to the bathroom to vomit. After that disturbing event, I changed into my usual clothes, which happens to be his old MAGCON hoodie and a pair of shorts. The remaining hours of the day, I just ate ice cream and fell asleep while watching A Walk To Remember. I heard singing coming from the door. I woke up, I dragged myself off the couch, and opened the door.

"Shawn? What are you doing here this late?"

"I think you should hear this." Shawn said.

Okay, I get why he's standing outside my door with a guitar in his hands but I'm confused by two things. First off, how did he find out where I live? And lastly, why are Johnson, Gilinsky, Cameron, Sammy, and Nate with him? (I just had to add the Jacks as well as Cam, Nate, and Sam. Don't judge xD) Knowing how unpredictable he is and how sleepy I feel, I decided not to question it.

"Guys, I'm not in the mood for a private concert. Can I please get back to sleep?" I said trying to sound polite.

"Please?" Shawn said opening the door further.

I groaned and invited them in, sitting on the couch once they closed the door. They started to play a familiar tune and I realized that it was my favorite song from One Direction.

"So your friends been telling me
You've been sleeping with my sweater
And that you can't stop missing me
Bet my friends been telling you I'm not doing much better
Because I'm missing half of me

And being here without you
It's like I'm waking up to

Only half a blue sky

Kinda there but not quite

I'm walking round with just one shoe
I'm a half a heart without you
I'm half the man, at best
With half an arrow in my chest
I miss everything we do
I'm a half a heart without you

Forget all we said the night
No it doesn't even matter
Cause we both got split in two

If you could spare an hour or so
We'll go for lunch down by the river
We could really talk it through

And being here without you
It's like I'm waking up to

Only half a blue sky
Kinda there but not quite
I'm walking round with just one shoe
I'm a half a heart without you
I'm half the man, at best
With half an arrow in my chest
I miss everything we do
I'm a half a heart without you

Though I try to get you out of my head

The truth is I got lost without you
And since then I've been waking up to

 Only half a blue sky
Kinda there but not quite
I'm walking round with just one shoe
I'm a half a heart without you
I'm half the man, at best
With half an arrow in my chest
I miss everything we do
I'm a half a heart without you

Without you, without you
Half a heart without you
Without you, without you
I'm half a heart without you."

The five of them smiled at me sadly before engulfing me in a group hug. They bid their goodbyes, leaving me with Shawn who was awkwardly standing a couple feet in front of me. He slowly walked towards me and knelt down in front of me, taking my hand in his.

"I mean it." He said kneeling beside me. "I never realized how accurate the lyrics of that song would be until the day I wished would never come happened. I never wanted this to happen. I know it was wrong to hurt you like that. I know I shouldn't have taken my anger out on you."

The tears start streaming down my face as well as his. He gently placed his hand on my cheek and ran his thumb over my lips.

"I'm sorry, y/n. I really am."

I looked into his eyes and leaned into his touch.

"I forgive you." I finally said after a few seconds of silence.

He leaned in and crashed his lips onto mine. I gasped as his lips touched mine and he took that as an opportunity to deepen the kiss. I kissed back and wrapped my arms around his chest. He pulled me down into his arms and held me close as we slowly pulled away.

"I love you." He whispered as he rested his forehead against mine, absentmindedly rubbing my hair in between his thumb and index finger.

"I love you too." I couldn't help but say as I looked up at him.

"I missed you so much."

"I missed you too, Mendes."

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A/N: I wrote this when I was 13 so bear with me on this xD I know it's shitty but I didn't have a lot of experience back then when it comes to writing something decent. And my focus is on SCHOOL and GRADUATING. But I'll eventually edit this (& the other chapters as well) and make it more realistic and stuff when I have the time.

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