"So talk." Caleb said as he chugged his beer.

"I don't know where to start." I said quietly.

"Riley you aren't eating properly, why?" He asked as he sat up and looked at me with his 'serious big brother' face.

"After what he said to me i didn't like myself." I gripped the beer in my hand tighter as i took some down my throat.

"Who?" He asked.

"Who do u think?" I said back annoyed at the thought.

"How long for?" He asked.

"A couple months."

"Stand up." He said a he stood up. I hesitated at first but did as he said. He slightly lifted up my top and i flinched at the sudden movement, but he look in my eyes giving me reassurance. "Riley your ribs are sticking out." He looked back up to my eyes.

I stayed quite, what was i supposed to say.

"You need to start eating otherwise I'm telling Issac." He looked angry, like he was about to hit the roof.

"Please don't tell him." I begged and i looked to the ground.

Caleb threw his hands through his hair. " How did it get so bad, and how the fuck did i not notice?"

"Don't do that please, Don't fucking blame yourself for something that i did to myself. Its not your fault i got sexually assaulted, that i got emotionally abused and all of it." I shouted at him, loud enough that people could hear.

"What the fuck do you expect, I'm supposed to protect you and i clearly did a shit job because look what's happened." He shouted back.

"How are you supposed to protect me from things you don't know?"

"Because i should KNOW! You should have told me."

"I'm sick and tired of being expected to tell you all my whole life, i can't live my life properly. I want to be able to stand up for myself and deal with things on my own, not be the girl who's brother come to protect her all the time. Don't you understand how weak it makes me feel." I was so angry i couldn't do it anymore.

I pushed past Caleb, I'd had enough of it all.

"Riley where are you going?" He shouted but i ignored him.

I ran downstairs and straight out of the house. I had no idea when but i started running, i hadn't had the intention to but it some how let all my anger be let out. The rain started pouring down which hid my tears and red cheeks.

10 minutes later i was at Harrison's house.

I banged on the door completely wet through. Mason answered the door, when he saw me he immediately called Harrison down then let me inside. Within a 30 seconds Harrison was at the top of the stair case running even faster when he saw me. When he reached me he brung me into a hug and i melted in his arms. I began to sob harder.

"Hey it's okay i got you." He said while he rubbed my wet hair.

"I'll go get a towel." Mason said, and then disappeared. A minute passed and he was back.

I wrapped the towel around me as Harrison grabbed my hand and brung me upstairs. We got to his room and i sat down on the bed while Harrison kneeled in front of me.

"Riley what happened?" He asked softly.

"Me and Caleb were talking and we started shouting at each other and i got mad and ran out the house." I said without a breath.

"What were you talking about?"

"Well at first it was about me eating and then he was blaming himself for what happened and that gets me mad." I said quickly again.

"Hey it's okay , calm down I'm here." He got up and sat on the bed near the headboard. "Come here." He said.

I Moved over to where he was and laid my head on his chest. We stayed like that for ages it was relaxing and i needed that right now.

I checked my phone because no doubt my brothers had texted and rung e a million time. When the screen flashed at me i saw they had.

Where the fuck did u go

get your arse back here now

Riley tell me where you are so i can pick you up

It's raining your going to get ill you idiot

it's dark Riley and its not safe

Tell me where you are NOW!

your going to get so shouted at.

I hadn't got a text from dad, half of me was glad but the other half was annoyed that he didn't even care, not in the slightest. I clicked off the family chat and went to just text Issac.

I'm safe, i'll text you the address to pick me up in half an hour- Riley

Okay, but your getting shouted at when u get home jut a heads up. Caleb's more pissed than me- Issac

Has he told you anything- Riley

No why? - Issac

It doesn't matter, i'll see you after-Riley

"Is everything okay?" Harrison asked.

"Can i ask you something?" I replied sitting up to face him.

"Yeah sure what is it?"

"If i asked you to kiss me, would you?" I asked shyly.

"Yes why?" He asked with a smile.

I didn't hesitate i kissed him.

He kissed back and it lasted for around 10 seconds. It was my first kiss and it was perfect, the only thing perfect in my life right now. And i was glad it was him, i didn't want anyone else but him.

When we pulled away his hand remained on my face as it cupped my check and i smiled.

"Your beautiful, you know that?" His smile was contagious.

I moved in to hug him. "Thank you." I whispered.

"For what?" He asked.

"For being my reason."