The pale crescent moon shines like a silvery claw in the night. The distant sky is connected with the ground, forming a beautiful scene of heaven and earth. The blanket of stars appears to be stretched to infinity. The sullen and heavy silence is making my heart palpitate inside my cage rib as the horizontal misty waggles my body. I stare at the electric blue eyes that are glued to mine; waiting for the answer that will change everything forever.
"I don't think I can be..."
"You can't be with me," He says. I try to speak but he stops me before I have the chance.
"You can't move on with me after I did. You're hurting," He whispers shutting his eyelids and passing his hand over his head.
"Corbyn, I..."
"No," He mutters and walking to me; he strokes my cheeks with his fingers in small circles. His skin burns mine and I feel my blood pulsate through my veins.
"This is all on me," His eyes are blazing with self-hatred. He can't stand his own self; loathing himself for all his actions and decision that doomed both of us here. "I did this,"
"You didn't,"
"I did," He whispers. He offers me a brief smile and presses his lips on my forehead. I cover his hands with mine; their warmth putting a small part of me at ease. My eyes pool the second his hands leave me. He turns around without meeting my eyes again.
Tears stream down my cheeks as he walks away.
"I love you," I whimper freezing him in his tracks.
"What?" His eyes shoot to mine.
"I do," I whisper and split my heart open letting all the fears and pain out to my angel.
" T-The time, you-you were away from me, I couldn't stop thinking about you. I know we have been through a lot but I couldn't imagine my life without you. You hurt me but you mend me too. I fell in love with you so passionately that I don't know how I did it. I missed you every second of those days you weren't around me. And I k-know it's...it's selfish but I don't want to live without you. It might sound stupid because we're almost eighteen but I do." I pant entreating for a gush of air as he gapes at me speechless, frozen. I wipe away my tears sobbing.
"I'm scared of being hurt again. I have felt so helpless and broken that I don't think after my parents, you, and Edward I'll have the strength to get out of it alive. I just want someone to lean in and trust. I want to be with you and I'm trusting you but please..." I plea.
"Please promise me you won't hurt me like that again. I won't be able to take it again, Corbyn."
My voice cracks and a few seconds pass as Corbyn stands peering at me. He seems to be lost in his own thoughts; questioning and doubting if this a dream or reality.
My eyes don't get a glimpse of him while he moves and thrust himself in me. He pushes me against the wall with force before his lips crash into mine. My breath gets lost in my throat. The desperation and need for his kisses send sparkles all over me. The feeling I hadn't felt for so long crackles under my flesh flaring me. His hands band me fiercely around my waist and my fingers explore his velvety hair. His embrace squeezes all the air out of me.
His tongue pries its way into my lips and brushes against my own when it finds its way in. One of his hands tugs my hair raising my head so he has better access to my lips. My fingers lower and grasp the material of his shirt on his chest. Electricity quivers me causing my heart to pound even more loudly.
His hands grip my waist and his fingers touch my skin under my blouse squeezing his fingers into my flesh. A moan escapes but his mouth doesn't leave from mine. He slowly pulls away an inch from mine hardly disconnecting our lips. His forehead rests against mine feeling me with his warmth.
"I'm sorry, it's killing me to be away from you. I can't lose you,"
"You won't," I shut my eyes wanting to relish him; focusing on the feel of him against me, the unique intoxicating scent of his that used to relaxed me, or exploding desire in me.
"I'm so sorry," His shaking hands stroked the curve of my spine. "I'll do anything..." I shake my head unlocking my lids and find his eyes piercing into my teary ones. "Forgive me. I need you. I'm afraid of what I'll become if I lose you..."
"You won't," I utter circling my arms around his neck bringing him closer.
"I won't hurt you like that again," He promises. "I didn't know what..."
"Shh," I mumble placing my thumb on his lips. We stare at each other in silence.
"You meant it?" He whispers and I nod. "say it," He orders softly.
"I love you," Bending down his head in neck, he kissed me softly.
"again," My inside clenches as his breath fans my skin sending drops of anticipation all over me. I clasp his head in my hands looking into his eyes.
"I love you," I say again. His eyes don't leave mine and I decipher the flicker of doubt flashing through his blue ocean eyes.
"I love you," His lips fly to mine. The pressure is stronger than before and my knees buckles at the tones of sentiments that wash me over. He pins me to the wall pressing his body in mine so I can't escape. I can hardly breathe as he steals all the cool and refreshing air from my oxygen leaving me with burning lugs.
Feeling my light shaking, his hands grab my tighs and in one rapid move, I wrap my legs around his hip bone. A moan is heard from the back of his throat swelling my soul. I tug his hair softly while I play with his hair that surrounds my fingers. I break the kiss feeling the lack of oxygen creating dizziness.
He burrows his face into me. "I missed you,"
I peck my lips gently to his, tasting my tears. He sets me on my feet again carefully. He breathes heavily; his eyes stuck on mine. His hands are in my hair, holding me in place as he watches me. I can see his internal battle. He wants more yet he's not sure I can handle all of these. I tiptoe and kiss him giving an end to his doubts. And just like that, he ravages my mouth with desperate kisses all over again.
I melt into him, my fingers sinking into his arms that are tensed and wave under me. The haziness in my mind clouds and blocks everything else but his kisses. I tremble as his fire creates so many emotions I hadn't experience for a while. My eyes fill with tears behind my closed lashes. This is too much; my heart throbs and my soul is breaking slowly, almost painfully.
I realize that his needy and dependent kisses are telling me without words that he had missed me. My need for him, the pain I was experiencing the days he was gone is too much. The ocean of emotions that blooms in me overwhelms me. I try to suppress a sob but I can't stop it and let it escape. He pulls me closer to him.
"Don't," He breathes.
"It's just too much," I admit with a cracked voice. The back of his hand caresses my skin.
"I know, I hurt you..."
"Not that," I whimper. "How I feel about you," His finger raises my chin and he plants a long yet smooth kiss on my lips.
"I know. I feel it too," I press my head on his chest listening to his quick heartbeat.
"I love you," My heart swells with happiness.
"I love you," I reply for the first time and he takes my head in his hands. I gasp when I see his eyes glowing like never before. Happiness is swimming in them as it has never had before. His teeth pull away my bottom lip biting it and feeling my stomach with faeries. He dampens my dry lips before kissing me once more. The slow and tender kissing that used to blew my mind touches my lips reminding me how much I enjoyed every single one of the feelings he only had the power to blossom in me in a nanosecond.
"Your lips are so soft after you cry," He mutters to himself. He looks at me brushing his nose in mine. "I promise I won't hurt you, I won't lie to you again. I swear to whatever is out there," He says under an oath. "Please forgive me for all the things I caused you."
"Shh, we'll be okay," I murmur. "I love you," I add making him take a sudden sharp intake of breath. I know it going to take some time to get used to the feelings we create in each other when we say those words, and I can't wait until the day we have said it a million times.
"I don't think I'll ever get rid of those words leaving your lips," His thumb runs my lips as he browses the contours of my face.
The night sky that unfolds behind my glamouring angel and the bright moon along with the glimpse of the stars aid me built the memory that will always stay printed in my mind. A memory I won't ever be able to forget cause I will know.
I stand on my toes and place a kiss on his silky lips and before I can break it; he deepens it.
I will know that that endless and gusty night with ominous intentions helped me get my angel back. And for that, I will always be grateful.
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