I am getting worse.
I feel like im getting better;
but in reality im not.
I just get soo depressed all of the sudden.
I get sooo numb.

i just.....
i dont think i can do this for much longer.
Pretending that im happy when im not.
Pretending to be strong.
Ive already started giving up.
I just cant handle this.
Dont be surprised if i go through with it.