When I get to Hamilton resort one of the receptionists are waiting for me. "Excuse me, Mr Wilde."

"Yes," moving over to her I lean against the table. "Is there a problem. Your card has been declined and we had to remove your things from the room."

Fuck, this day keeps getting worst. Where am I going to go now? I have nowhere to go. I'm not going to spend time with mg brother and his family. They have enough to deal with and not add me to the mix.

"Thank you, madame. Can I have my stuff? I'll leave the premises immediately." Getting my stuff from the receptionist I take the bags and walk out of the resort.

My car is brought down to me and I put my stuff in the trunk. I start driving around town trying to find a place for me to sleep the night.

Ding,

My phone goes off and I look at it. Seeing my brothers on it I read the text.

Calvin: Mom and Dad are at mine. They want to see you.

Me: I can't. I have a few things that need my attention right now.

Going through my bag I find the drugs that Casey's been giving me for a while. I take one and throw the tablet back. Grabbing the bottle of bourbon that I have in my bag I start drinking.

Calvin: I'm coming to the hotel with our parents. Tell me which room number you're in.

Turning off my phone I let the outside world stay there while I do what I want inside my car. Climbing out of the car I make my way over to the lookout and watch the sunset from where I'm standing. A group of kids arrive at the lookout and they have beer and smokes with them. They start drinking without a care of who's around.

"Hey, Darryl. Do you have any weed?"

These kids are stupid for saying shit like this in the open. Even if I'm the only adult round for miles.

He puts his finger to his mouth and says. "Not so loud. We've got an old geezer up here. He probably doesn't know what pot is."

I let them talk shit about me because right now I don't give a shit.

"Hey, old man." One of the teenagers call. "Do you have any hard stuff in your car?"

"No," I start swaying. "I drunk it. Do you have any hard shit I can have. This days been fucked and I want to get fucked up."

Darryl moves towards me. He has sandy blonde hair and blue eyes. Tanned skin and has a band wrapped around his wrist. He holds his hand out to me and says. "I'm Darryl. I have everything you need. From pot to cocaine."

"Just give me the pot." I give him the money and walk over to my car. Grabbing rollies out of the glove compartment I roll the weed into it and start smoking. Looking around the back seat I find a bag of chips. Opening it I start to snack on it.

This wasn't the way I planned to spend my Monday evening. Sitting in the back of my car smoking weed and eating what I find in the back seat of my car.

Turning my phone back on I see twelve text messages from my brother.

Calvin: We're on the way to the resort.

Calvin: Where are you?

Calvin: We we're just told that your card was declined for the rest of the stay. Where are you now.

Calvin: Mom's worried about you. She's been crying for the past hour.

Calvin: Please tell us where you are, Austin.

Calvin: Austin, WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?

Calvin: We're going to start a search for you, Austin. You shouldn't be alone.

Calvin: Please, tell us you're safe?

Calvin: Why aren't you answering your phone?

Calvin: Brother, tell me where you are. I'll pick you up.

Calvin: You can stay with my family. You won't be putting us out

Calvin: Mom's in the hospital. She had a panic attack and it was severe. If you care about us please message me back.

That last text was sent five minutes ago.

Fuck, I'm not the best son for putting my mother through this. I better let them know I'm safe and where they can find me.

Me: Calvin, I turned my phone off. I wanted to be alone.

Calvin: Where are you?

Me: I'm at the lookout. The one you met me at a couple weeks ago.

Calvin: I'll be right there. Are you able to drive?

Me: no, I'm high as fuck and drunk.

Calvin: Stay there and don't move.

Me: I'm not stupid enough to drive anywhere. Especially, in my state.

Turning the radio on I listen to music and it makes me fall asleep.

***

Bang, bang, bang. I'm woken by someone hitting my car. Opening my eyes I see my brother on the other side and he looks pissed. His eyes are narrowed and his face is red. "You're a fucking asshole, Austin. How the fuck could you put your family through this."

"Through what? It's my life that has been ruined. You have your family and Mom and Dad on you're side. I have NO-ONE." I scream the last part.

"You're so full of shit, brother. You have Amanda, the kids, me, Mom and Dad. We're you're family and when you fall we'll be there to catch you."

"That's the thing, Calvin. I don't want you to catch me. Hitting rock bottom is what I deserve. I stayed with Casey. Even when people told me not to. I hurt Eliza because I was still pissed about her leaving me to take care of her mother. The kicker out of the whole thing is that I loved her again. Having a child with Eliza was what I wanted when I was with her, but when Casey called and told me she was pregnant I had to go. She had ways of ruining my life and career. She's nearly succeeded in doing that. I'm just glad that she's leaving Eliza out of things."

Calvin helps me out of the car. "Sit in the passenger seat and I'll take us to the hospital. You should talk to Mom. There's a lot that needs to be said between the two of you."

"Okay," I sit in the passenger seat and put my seatbelt on.

Calvin starts the car and pulls away from the lookout.

The car he rode in is following us through the streets.

"Who drove up here with you?"

"Dad. Amara and the kids are at the hospital with Mom. It's not safe for my wife to drive up here. I know how rough the scene can get at the lookout. When I was younger I used to go to the lookout up the road from our place. The parties their were amazing too."

"Those kids are the ones that got me pot. It's been awhile since I've been high. The last time I smoked a joint was in my last year of College followed by the last year of Law School. I needed something to relax me and Casey was the one that had everything I needed."