To be honest, my papers aren't going good. I can't manage to study, all I do is think about him. I tried to talk to him through calls and texts but he just avoided me.

Kartik has been worried about me, seeing my behaviour he asked if anything is wrong with me but I couldn't say that I broke up with Rudra. Otherwise, he would beat the shit out of him and break his bones.  So i decided to not speak and just said that 'I haven't prepared for my exams much' and he got convinced with my excuse.

Few days ago, I was just going through my texts and I found Ayaansh's chatroom there, loaded with 4-5 texts. We talked for a while and he was being really nice to me.

I got to know even he applied for London business school and got selected for the MBA programme, but he is opting for information technology whilst I'm going for international business.

After the exam, which was okay-ish for me I was searching for my pendrive in my bag, suddenly Rudra bumped into me. It felt nice to talk to him, but keeping in account how we ended up I didn't encouraged myself talking to him.

Ayaansh's presence kind of saved me until Rudra agreed to join us.

Not going to lie, I didn't liked how he was just staring at me, so I decided to play games with him when Ayaansh mentioned about Aditya.

True, Aditya was my first crush but I wanted to see if Rudra still had feelings for me so I just gave in and said he was my first crush. When I heard Rudra clearing his throat so that I acknowledge his presence it gave me the surety that he still had those feelings for me.

My heart swelled with joy knowing this, though I knew he was trying to convince me to get back together but it felt like it was a filter put on him but making him a lil jealous gave me a candid display of his love for me.

I finished my work immediately and then I bid my bye to Ayaansh. I thanked him for accompanying me and he did the same. Afterwards, Rudra and me decide to go in his car and talk about us.

I didn't expect he would say something this shocking to me "Can we ugh- can we get engaged before you go to London" I was busy seeing the greenary in front of me when I heard those damn words. Engagement at 21!? Isn't this too soon for us.

I got out of the car. I hear Rudra telling me to come back, but I just need some time to myself. I get him, I get him he loves me but we haven't even dated properly and we are taking this so fast. It's not that I don't love him. Hell I love him with all my life, but aren't we going too fast? I need to know him, know every part of his life and be there in his highs and lows and see every aspect of the Rudra Rane..

I bit my nails in anxiousness whilst I hear the car's door getting closed. My hips were resting on the other side of the car as I was lost in my thoughts.

"Preshtha, what happened?" He cupped my face, he was concerned about me. I didn't replied him, I just saw those beautiful orbs and drowned in them. They were an escape for me from the chaotic world.

"I-I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said about the engagement thing" he distanced him self from me and pinched the bridge of his nose as he regretted his words. I was just blank there, not knowing what to say.

I still love Rudra till this date, he is someone whom I would love to be with, in every phase of my life and I won't regret any of it, but I just want to experience dating with him first for first few years and then get into marriage thing. Getting married is such a big responsibility, and atleast now I don't think I'm that responsible at 21.

I placed my palm on his shoulder, messaging him to look at me. He did looked at me with stress and pain.

"Rudra please don't think that I'm not in love with you.. I do love you, a lot, but getting engaged? Isn't this too soon? We need to take this slow" I put my views forward. I made sure to not hurt him at the most but I knew the words were kind of harsh that he would get hurt.

He just nodded and walked towards his car, not caring about what he said.

"Rudra, say something please" I was worried as he just placed a facade on his face, whereas I was trying my best to not breakdown in front of him which was successful to some degree.

"You are right" he said looking at nothing and sat in the car. "Come, I'll drop you at home" I just nodded and I sat to the adjacent seat. He was being quiet all the time and that made me worry about him a lot. It has been 10 minutes and he didn't talk yet.

I couldn't take it anymore. I just spoke up, "Rudra stop the car" I wanted to talk to him and wanted to know what's going on in his mind. He didn't stopped it so I just bend ahead and twirled the steering wheel to the right.

It was almost going to get hit by a truck but Rudra turned the steering wheel and immediately stopped the car by putting on a break. Meanwhile the driver of the truck got out of the truck and knocked on the window and asked Rudra to come out.

Rudra gave me a pissed off look before getting out of the car. The driver was yelling at him and punched his left cheek. I got scared and got out of the car to stop that man but before that Rudra held that man by his neck and pushed him towards his car and punched him back.

"Kya huh? Kuch boluga nahi to kuch bhi karega kya?" (What huh? If I don't say anything you would do anything impulsive to me?) With that the man received slaps and punches, it looked like Rudra was taking out his anger on him. I seperated Rudra from him as that man was bleeding badly. I didn't want Rudra to get into legal matters, so I just calmed him down.

"Calm down please. We don't need to get into legal matters" he huffed angrily at me. I was getting scared looking at him, he just held my wrist and made me sit in the car whilst he took his driver's seat not before saying something to that injured man.

With that he stopped at an unknown area, he got out of the car indicating me to come out as well. I followed his indication and did as I was asked. I stood beside him looking at a angry Rudra.

"This is all because of you" he said in a calm tone but that tone was dangerous. It gave me the warning that he was going to lash out at me soon.

"I-I just-just wanted you-you to talk to me" I stammered at my words as I was struggling to speak. I get freaked out, when he is angry.

"Preshtha, you know what could have happened to us.. we could have died any moment" tears brimmed at my eyes as he almost screamed at me. I didn't knew what to say so I just stood there not saying anything. I took the support of the handle of the car as I couldn't hold myself together.

I wiped my eyes, bringing in the strong Preshtha so that I could talk to Rudra. "You were not listening to me.. you know what Rudra. You don't know how to communicate, you just know to yell" I taunted him, meaning every word that spilled out of my mouth. He held me by my shoulder and his jaw clenched looking at me.

"I didn't said anything because you were right, your point did made sense to me that's why" I felt he was lying, because he could have understood and placed his views then and there. His tone didn't felt satisfied with my views, I needed to know what is going on in his head.

"You are lying Rudra" I said, a sad smile formed on my lips. His hold on me loosened and he kicked the tyre of the car. He got caught red handed for lying.

"I don't know what I shall do. I don't want to let you go" his eyes softened and he rushed at me to cup my face. His forehead touch against mine, taking in the comfortable silence and calming ourselves.

"It's just 2 years, I promise you, I'll be the same Preshtha even after 2 years" I kind of pleaded him to let me go.

A small smile formed on his lips and he placed his palm on my cheeks caressing it. "I don't know Preshtha, my heart doesn't want to let you go" he just looked at me, almost looking like he could breakdown in middle of nowhere.

He placed a hand on his hips and looked at the right side. Staring at nothing but the nature. He looked so engrossed in his thoughts not knowing where he is, whilst I was just staring at him, thinking nothing but just living in the moment.

"I'm ready to get engaged, I'm going in 5 months so we have plenty of time to spend together.. we will get engaged within this 5 months" I told him. If he feels the sense of security by putting a ring on my finger, I don't mind. This engagement is another formality for me, my love for him and my commitment for him would never ever change.

His gaze moved to me, "Bubble, I'm not forcing you to do any of it" his eyes softened as a lil bit of guilt displayed in his eyes.

"No Rudey boy, because of your past you are feeling insecure right now" I placed my hand on his shoulder and squeezed him making him understand, "And it's okay, if putting a ring makes you feel secure than I'm totally fine with it"

Without saying anything, he pulled me towards him and engulfed me into a hug. I hugged him back tightly. As I hugged him, I wanted to put all his broken pieces together and mend his heart, but it will take a little time and I'm patient with him.

"You are the best girlfriend I could ever get, I love you so much" he said, still hugging me tightly

I chuckled at his childish behaviour, "I love you too, drop me home now"

"Hmm.. lemme hug you. It's been soooooooooo long" gosh he's a split personality.

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A/N: umm how's the chapter?