It has been so long that I've talked to Rudra. I miss him would be an understatement because I was craving to see him and talk to him and confess my feelings in a go. The other day Manas encouraged me to confess my feelings to him, he made me understand the worst something can happen to me is that he will stop talking to me and I know that worst won't come, even if he decides to reject me, he will do it kindly so that I'm not hurted and left feeling vulnerable in front of him.

Yesterday I was talking to Rudra but suddenly he went offline and from then we didn't talked. I did missed talking to him, I think I should try calling him. I hit his name on my screen and on the third ring he picked it up, without listening to his hello I started blabbering things, "Hey Rudra why the hell did you left me on seen yesterday. I so wanted to talk to you... because you know my friend came back home and he was free there but looks like I'm not even considered a friend!??" I huffed with slight anger.

"Aga majhi aai, gapp bas (oh my god stay quiet)" I heard a voice from other side which surely wasn't Rudra's voice. As far as I know he doesn't let anyone touch his phone, then how the fuck did this whomsoever guy touched his phone.

"Who is this?" I questioned the voice on the other line. I was not recognizing the voice but, the other person said, "Preshtha how can you forget me??? I'm Manas. Your boyfriend's bestfriend"

I sighed, "He's not my boyfriend yet. So shut your ass up". Manas is such a teaser, I don't know how Rudra handles this stupid Manas.

Prolly by giving him a cold shoulder.

"Yeah but both of you like it when I tease you by each other" he said which is kind of true. Hell it is the truth my mind mocked me back. But wait, even he likes it? I blushed at that thought and I started day dreaming.

What would it be like when we start dating each other? Would we go to trips on mountains or go to beaches & make our body tan. Would we do PDA or have the steamy scenes inside the bedroom only. Better hope it is PDA too. We want someone to show our curves off. My mind mocked me. If our parents didn't agree for our marriage would we runaway or convince them and want their blessings. Anything, we would like to go anyway. But marriage? Chill Preshtha, you are not even his girlfriend now.

My daydreaming was interrupted when I heard Manas's voice. "Huh?" I asked him b'cause he was blabbering things which I didn't hear. "Arey, I was saying Rudra said that he is free today and he asked to meet you in Starbucks at five in churchgate" he sounded a lil bit stressed and disturbed, which concerned me all of a sudden.

"Manas, are you okay?" I asked him "Do you want to talk about anything"

He chuckled lightly, "what will happen to me. I'm cool"

My gut feeling was saying something bad happened, but, I'll ask him afterwards.

"Are you hundred percent sure?" I again asked him.

"Aga ho bai (yeah girl)" he laughed out hearing my concerning voice.

"If you want to talk about anything, I'm there okay?" I assured him. Manas has always been a great friend to me in the past months, the fact that he makes everyone feel happy by his antic jokes is what I like the most in him. He is good at sports and has good reputation all over the college, just like Rudra.

"Yes, I know that and if you are not I'll kill you and Rudra" he joked and we let out a good laughter. I disconnected the call after that and then I changed into a dress, which had sunflower print all over it, and it was a lil above my knees but today I wanted to look my best. I took over my loose denim jacket and wore it. It wasn't looking good so I slid one of the sleeve and was showing my shoulder which made me look extremely beautiful.

Today is the day when I'm going to confess my feelings to him, Rudra. I already ordered a rare football merchandise for him and it has already arrived. Kartik thought it was for and he was being all lovey-dovey. But when he got to know it wasn't for him he got upset. Which is not my fault okay?

I was repeating my speech which I'm going to tell Rudra that how special he is to me. This was made nervousness and excitement rush through my body simultaneously, but no I'm more excited for this.

Before taking the merchandise, I took a last glance of myself in the mirror, did my last minute touch up and gave a big smile to myself

I settled my stuff in the car and started the car. Started my journey towards my love. Started my journey towards a new start where I'm going to feel loved even at my worst.

I turned on radio and played some good romantic songs, I was really in a good mood and I can't wait to feel like this for the rest of my life.

I reached, Starbucks a little late but nevermind, he will be waiting for me there. I took the merch along with my handbag and slid my glares in my dress.

When I opened the door I couldn't find him, but my eyes finally caught him. He was wearing a black tee along with his ripped Jeans. He had his earphones plugged in and he was staring out of the glass. God knows what he must be thinking.

I smiled looking at him, he still wasn't aware my presence.

I checked out myself for the last time and walked towards him.

When I came near the table he was sitting, he sensed my presence and gave me a small smile. He had eye bags under his eyes and dark circles started taking place. That must have happened cause for one week he was in London and ofcourse the jet lag. How can I forget that?

"Hey" he said whilst he removed his earplugs from his ear.

I gave him a big smile and took my seat, "Hi"

"How are you doing, Bubble?" He asked me. People who call me Bubble are really special and of course he is that someone special

"I'm good as always. You tell me? How was London?" I was curious to know about what he did in London. & most important if he got my gifts which I asked him to bring for me.

"Don't ask me. I'm stressed till now" he chuckled.

"Hmm.. I can sense that" I played with my hair, but then i noticed we didn't ordered anything yet. I mentally slap myself for such carelessness .

"I have something really important to tell you" he said looking at me displaying unknown emotions which I couldn't identify. I gave him a small smile.

"Yeah.. let's order something first" I offered.

"But-" he said.

"Please we are ordering something I'm hungry" I cut him, " what would you like to order"

"Whatever you order. Same for me" he shrugged and plugged his earphones and again started staring at the glass which was in front of him. Wonder what he is thinking?

I place the order, and I was staring at him. I missed him so much, my only intention is to go hug him and probably hug him for a hour or so. I laughed at my own thoughts.

I was so lost in my thoughts, that one of the crew member was taking my name again and again.

"Preshtha Mohite" the crew member said.

I raised my hand and the crew member handed me the tray in which I had  two double chocolate chip in venti size and a small chocolate cake. I took the tray and placed it slowly on our table.

I gave a cheeky smile to him and he did the same. We are close to your suprise (probably) Rudra .

He took his chocolate chip drink and I took mine and sipped it. It was literal heaven. I mentally pat my back for my choice.

"By the way I said I got something important to say" he again reminded me.

"Yeah go on, even I've got something to say" now was the time where I felt my adrenaline getting pumped up. I was so fucking nervous right now.

"Umm.." he said "actually..." he was just saying a word or two, and it made me curious what he was trying to say.

"Cat caught your tongue?" I said the famous phrase and chuckled out looking at his nervous state.

"Na.." he said, he inhaled the air and said, "Okay.. I was saying that I'm dating Kiara"  I was sipping on my drink.

Oh he is dating someone that's cool. Wait what?

HE IS DATING SOMEONE. NOT SOMEONE BUT KIARA??!

That's not true right? THAT'S NOT TRUE!!

"Sorry?" I asked again. Maybe I didn't heard properly.

"I'm dating Kiara" he repeated curtly.

So what I heard was not a illusion?. I wish it was tho.

All of a sudden it felt like someone stabbed my heart with a big stone and I was struggling to breath, I tried to take long breathes, to relax myself.

"But you said, you will never date her again" I said. My heart still not wanting to believe that what he said was nothing else but truth.

"Yeah, but you know I talked to her when I was in London and she seemed good to me. So I thought why not give a try" he said with cold eyes on me.

For a second I thought he want to say something else but no I was mistakened.

"So you just called me here to tell me this?" I asked him. If this is the only thing he wanted to say he should have texted or called me. I didn't want to be vulnerable in front of him right now. Not at this moment atleast.

He nodded and my nostrils flared with anger.

"Cool" I said and again sipped my drink.

Tears were on the verge to fall but somehow I was stopping them.

I don't want to cry now

I chanted the affirmation again and again to calm myself but hell, even it wasn't working.

And finally, tears streamed down.

He noticed my tears and his eyes softened, "Are you crying?" He asked with concern.

I took a sip again, "Na, I got psoriasis in eyes so tears form up" I chuckled and took the tissue paper which was placed in tissue paper box, and wiped away my tears.

He made a 'O' shaped mouth.

"Take care" he said smiling at me. I faked my smile back to him.

"I think that's it then. I should depart, I got assignments to write" I laughed nervously.

"Yeah" he said. I stood up and gave him a side hug and went towards exit.

He is no longer a part of my life from now on, and I'll never disturb him or Kiara. I make myself understand. But would I understand that? I don't know.

A/N
Preshtha got hurt :( and I feel sad now.

But hey you guys better vote and comment now. 1895 words. Longest chapter haha :ppp