June Apricot
        "I don't know what to say" I said as I stared at the pregnancy test slip.

      "But I....I thought people do have it" I added with my mouth hanging open.

     "Come on, it's okay guys. I'm happy you thought I had a chance, maybe it's not yet the time for me. Remember, I'm not even married" Rosie said and I felt really bad for raising her hope.

      She tested negative and it practically sucked. I really had high hopes for her, Kate pulled her into a hug and I joined too.

    We broke apart when a knock sounded on my door. I'm not expecting anyone, could it be Ivan coming to cause more trouble?

     "Come in" I said as the second knock sounded and the door opened to reveal a face that never seized to make my heart jump.

    "Uhm...I didn't know you're busy, I'll just leave" she said and I shook my head.

     "No no no, I'm not busy. Are you okay?" I asked and she looked at Kate and Rosie.

     "Oh so you want us to leave?, remember Royalty, I am your elder sister. You break my heart...don't worry, I'm gonna leave!" Kate said performing a melodrama which earned a chuckle from all of us.

   Soon, she and Rosie disappeared leaving just Royalty and I.

     "Uhm.. I was thinking....you could... Uhm....come paint with me sometime?, I'm tired of staying alone. Dad and mum aren't so much fun" she said and I laughed at the last part.

    "Of course.... Let's go to your room" I said and I saw her face lit up...she must have been so bored being the only kid among adults.. Sometimes I forget she's six and thinks she's sixteen. Whoever her mother is,she's surely missing out.

   I wouldn't give up on this heart wrenching beauty for the world,I'd fight for her with my last breath... Damn it, what am I saying.. Did I fight for Chelsea?, I just allowed my self to be kicked not thinking about the life in....

      "June, you zoned out" Rosie said tugging at my sleeve and I smiled down at her. We walked out of my room and down into where her room is.

     It was too neat, way too neat and I thought about my own room and I flinched mentally. I'm 26, she's 6....I'm twenty years older but she still manages to make me feel like I should look up to her.

     "Sorry, my room is a mess. I haven't gotten to cleaning or arranging it yet since I'm still gonna ruin it later with all the paint and all....sorry about the mess" She said and I had to fight to keep my jaw in place.

      "Uh....it's totally fine. Really" was all I could say as I sat on the sofa adjacent her bed.

     I watched her bring out her supplies and get settled, then she handed me a blue apron which I collected with a smile and muttered thank you.

     I'm on my best behaviour right now,she certainly makes me feel like I'm sitting in a conference room full of board of directors and deciding whether to fire me right on spot or not.

      "So what do you wanna paint?" I asked and her face totally lit up by maybe a million watts more. Darn, she reminds me so much of myself.

    "I was thinking why not try out the close your eyes and paint whatever comes to mind thing" she said and I grinned. I did that a lot when I was young...I can paint with my eyes closed through out. That's how talented I am.

     "Wow. Its actually so much fun....so what do you say,I'm gonna give you five minutes to gather your thoughts and focus on your inner mind, picture what you wanna draw. Then open your eyes,make a rough sketch and then try again with your two eyes closed" I gave her tips and she grinned.

     So adorable!.... I'd have given anything in the world to have Chelsea and me like this. Seeing this little girl do what we both have a passion for just increased my hate for Ivor and I wanted to ruin him, kill him, destroy him....bury him... The way I buried my baby...the way I buried my Chelsea... The way I watched her being lowered six feet under in that little box.

     When I heard her cry for the first time, I lost my heart to her... I wanted so badly to hold her but before I knew it, I passed out.

      "Can I....can I hold..." That was the last thing I remembered before I passed out.

     I woke up to an empty room, the thought of my baby brought a smile to my face and I sat up immediately.

     "Chelsea....Chelsea Apricot" I found myself whispering her name. Oh what joy motherhood brings.

     "You're awake" I heard the voice of the channel through which I came into this world say but nothing could put a damper on my mood. I was the happiest I've ever been in a long time..
    
      "Yes. Where's my daughter?" I asked and so much joy and pride filled my heart. My daughter, my daughter who would call me mum...or mummy.

      "June, what high hopes you have, did you expect the baby to live?, she was given birth to at seven months...She didn't make it" My mum said without a flicker of emotions and a laughter escaped me.

      "Liar. I heard her cry, I heard her cry mum.  She's alive" I said feeling like someone was pulling my heart apart.

     "Bring her in" she called out and Ivor, the bastard, came in with two other nurses , one of them holding a baby ..  

    My hands trembled, my teeth clattered against each other....I could feel my heart beat increasing with each step they took towards me.

       They stopped in front of me and handed me a tiny little girl...her lips was blue... No doubt, she was dead.

     I took her in my arms and held her little fingers, it was cold....too cold. I wanted to feel her squirm, to feel her move, hear her cry or laugh... I wanted her to open her eyes, I wanted to see what kinda colour of eyes she had... Would it be mine or her father's....but I couldn't.... My baby was dead!

      "Chelsea....Chelsea, its mommy....mommy loves you very much. Mommy can't live without you , Chelsea please... Don't leave me, you were my reason for holding on....you were my only reason for hanging in here...Chelsea please,please wake up... Don't...do this to me....Chelsea don't..."

      I was jerked out of my thoughts by someone hugging me...  

       "Please don't cry" Royalty said in her small voice and the tears just poured out freely.

      "I'm so sorry, I was just remembering some things. I'm sorry I made you uncomfortable" I said and wiped my tears. She was gonna reply when a knock sounded on her door and Kate poked her head in..

      "Everyone's heading out.....you guys wanna come?" She said and We looked at each other and shook our heads at the same time.

      "Ugh.  Fine.  ...so cute" we heard her mutter the last part before leaving.

     After about an hour of painting, joking and laughing, Royalty became hungry.

      "I want pizza" she said and I called room service but they had none. The person who makes the pizza called in sick and the substitute was on leave. Really?!

       "I don't wanna eat anything except pizza" She said and I groaned. Spoilt little princess.

     "Its okay... I'm gonna check downtown for something" I said and walked out. I got out and realized...no chauffer was around...I groaned loudly.

      I had no cash in my purse, just my ATM cards...I was gonna walk back in when my mind went to the death machine. I walked to where Cameron parked it the last time and yay me, it was there.

    There was no need for keys, it had a power button. Damn, I blew God a kiss. I got on and wore my helmet.

      I muttered a prayer and revved up the engine. I was driving awkwardly at first but later I got the hang of it..

    Every shop I saw was either a noodle restaurant or a shopping mall so I kept driving. I was moving far away from the road, then I decided why not just go to where we had our coffee the last time.  They make pizzas.

     I was on my way there and feeling myself for such awesome driving skills when I saw a mad sports car heading towards me, his speed was so crazy, I swerved my hands urgently and I lost control... I hit something and next thing I knew I was on the ground.

      "Cameron is gonna kill me" was the last thing I said before I passed out.

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