June Apricot.
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     Ivor.

   I blinked rapidly as I slowly regained oxygen. Anger, fury, resentment and hate shot through me.

    "Hello Rosie, June" he said and my anger intensified as a smile crept onto his face. He was mocking me.

     "And what are you doing here?!" Rosie said angrily and I held her hand down and gave her the "not here" smile.

   She looked at him with hatred and resentment before turning away.

    "Hey babe, are you okay...do you know Mr Ivor from anywhere?" Charlie asked and Rosie just told him not to mind.

     "Why hiding Rosie, you know we have history... So why hide it?" Ivor asked and my mouth fell open. What is he trying to do.

     "Excuse me?" Charlie asked looking between Ivor and Rosie.

    "Ivor what are you doing?" I spoke up for the first time and he smirked. I can't believe I once wished for this beast's last name.

    "Ah, June. Are we on talking terms now?" He asked and my hands balled into a fist. I was trying to keep my anger in check cause I don't want a public speech with my life story as the detail...it's what Ivor can do.

     "Ivor just leave" Rosie said and he shook his head and faked hurt.

    "Aww Robell...I thought we were close. I'm here to congratulate you and the Prince of course..my best female friend is getting married" he said and smiled. Those smiles that used to weak my knees just strengthened my fists.

     "You. Are. No. Longer. The. Ivor. I. Know. I don't want you near me...or June" she seethed and my heart swelled. Lucky us everyone is busy partying or it would have been downright embarrassing.

     "Stop defending June. Come on Ro, don't throw away our friendship over what you hear from this hypocrite" Ivor said and I turned red.

    "Who the fuck are you and who gave you the right to talk to June that way?" Ivan spoke up and stood up angrily. Aww booboo...damn June.

     "Oh...wow, you've got yourself a new man now.. Why?, cause he's rich and hot?....Did you tell him its hard for you to keep your body to yourself and your man?" He said and Rosie and Kate gasped.

    I turned bright red and I was about to reply when he spoke up again.

     "Judging from the look of shock on your faces, I assume you all never knew what a bitch she is, telling you she's a virgin and wants to remain so until her wedding night...not knowing she's giving freely to everyone on the side.... She used to be my girlfriend, I loved her.. Damn it, I did...until she Cheated on me with several men and even got pregnant with some bastard child...how pa.." He never got to finish the sentence cause he was punched and he fell straight to the floor. I turned to see who punched him and it was Cameron.

     I couldn't hold my eyes from getting blurry as he stared at me with uncertain eyes... He was angry, very angry... And ...scared too

     Ivor stood up with blood oozing out of his damaged nose and mouth. He laughed and I realized one tooth had fallen out. I smiled inspite of myself.

     "A punch?.... Hahaha, it doesn't matter. I got a better reward....Something that makes it all better, you know what it is June?... That you never got to hold that baby" he said and I hit him hard on the face... Even my hand stung.

       "That's so low of you Ivor. The lowest a man could ever hit...even animals don't go so low" £

    I grabbed my purse and pushed my way out of the loud and banging bar. The path to the elevator was blurry cause of my tears.

    I tried not to bawl my eyes out in the elevator cause of the others...immediately I got to my floor, I let the tears fall as I walked to my suite, my hand was on the doorknob when someone called me.

    "June wait" I heard and I turned to see Cameron hurrying towards me. I wiped my tears with the back of my hand and pushed the door open, leaving it open as an invitation for him to come inside. I hated the way people stared at me with my swollen eyes.

     "June.. Is it true?" He asked immediately he closed the door and I ran my hand through my hair.

    "Im...I'm not a whore" I said and my tears poured freely...that was the only thing I wanted to shout out to the world....I'm.not a freaking whore and I can remain faithful.

    "I know you're not....June, did you...get pregnant?" He asked and my baby's thought just brought more tears to my eyes.

     "Yeah.... I got pregnant." I admitted and he inhaled sharply.

     "The incident from six years ago?" He asked and I nodded.

     "Yeah, he was the first and only guy I've ever being with.. He took my virginty....and left me fifty dollars" I said and laughed humorlessly.

     "Fuck" he swore and I let my tears pour.

    "I lost a lot of things that night.....I lost my everything.... And then, my baby. Inspite of the situation that brought her to the world, I loved her...I was willing to work my butt off for her......You know what?" I asked as I took a seat on the edge of the bed.

     "What?" He asked and I sniffed and let a smile take over my face.

     "The...the money her dad dropped, I never spent it.. I kept it and when she was two months due, I bought her a bracelet worth 50 dollars, and nothing less or more. I was going to tell her that was the only thing her dad left for her because he loved her so much......I never even got to even give it to her" I recalled and fresh tears gathered in my eyes.

     "I don't know why I'm still keeping it but....I can't bring myself to throw it away. I was willing.... Willing to be a mum, a dad, a sibling, a friend, a teacher... Everything for her...since everyone abandoned us" I said shaking from the tears.

    "damn it, I'm sorry" he said and before I could ask him what for, his lips met mine and the words died in my throat.

      He pressed deeper against my lips asking for entrance, which I gladly gave him. It was better than the last...He pushed me slightly on the bed and hovered above me.

    He pulled away much to my displeasure and I could see raw desire...matching my own, in his eyes.

     "June I want you... So much, I feel like I'm gonna go insane" he said and a blush crept onto my cheeks.

   I pulled him down and pressed my lips against his own and he smiled against my lips.

     "Take me then. ....now" I said and it felt like I had the world down my feet...It felt perfect to say....and it was indeed perfect.

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           I felt him between my legs and it felt good, a moan escaped my lips and I ran my hand through his silky hair.

      I tried opening my eyes but I couldn't.. After a while it fluttered open, and his face was blurry... I couldn't see what he looked, I held on to the leather car seat and moaned loudly...this felt really really good.

     He drove me mad, he drove me over my edge and when we hit climax, I screamed and we fell back, breathing loudly.

    Before my eyes stuttered close, I opened it once more and I saw his face....Cameron!

      I woke up immediately and perspiration formed on my forehead. No no no.. It can't be...it can't Cameron.

    I had been having this same dream occasionally for the past six years but I've never being able to see his face....and today I did.

     Cameron can't be the guy from six years ago.. He can't lie to me like that... He can't deceive me like that, I gave myself to him,told him everything about me yesterday...if it was him, he would have showed it, he would have told me.

   I shook my head trying to put away the unhealthy thought when He woke up. I looked at his shirtless upper body and for a minute my head went blank.

        The face pooped back in and all of a sudden, anger surged through me.

    "June, are you..."

     "Stay away from me...it was you.. It was you" I said and jumped out of bed. I grabbed my robe from the hanger just within my reach and I put it on and tightened my belt.

     "June what are you saying?" He asked and I felt my eyes getting watery.

     "I saw your face.. It was you.. You lied to me... No,no no...you deceived me." I said and when he made a move to stand up, I ran into the en-suite bathroom and locked the door.

     I sat on the tub and ignored the banging of the door. It went on and on..but I ignored it.

      I sat there for solid thirty minutes and let my thoughts wander...and the conclusion I came to was...."I'm such a fool "

     Cameron's face probably came to my mind cause he's the only guy I've being with since that guy happened. I just jumped into conclusions and embarrassed myself...  

     The banging had stopped for a while now so I had time to collect my thoughts before I go to apologize since he must have left.

   I opened the door, just to find him, fully dressed and sitting on the edge of my bed.

    "June..." He started but I cut him short and walked towards and I did the first thing that came to my mind. I raised on a tiptoe and kissed him.

     He was resistant at first but later he took control and I felt myself wanting him even more than I did yesterday...

    "June wait" he said and we broke apart. He ran a hand through his hair.
   
     "June.....that guy.. " he was saying and I smiled.

     "Cameron, I'm sorry. I jumped into conclusions...that guy isn't you. You're different, you're better... You're not him..I'm sorry" I said and he shook his head.

     "July 7...at H2SO4...six years ago... That guy was me" he said and my mouth went dry.

     "You're lying" he said and shook his head.

     "I'm not.  That lowlife who took advantage of you and then left fifty dollars on your bedside table.. Is me" he said and the tears dropped.

      "Get out" I said and he did.

     "Get out!!!" I screamed.. Even though he had left. I'm just insane.

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.hmmm
That was one crazy night.
Guess the truth is out.
What's June gonna do.
Ivor lost a tooth.. Lol