It's been about three months since Sam and I have been dating and I think I'm actually getting over Colby.

I think I love Sam.

And I hope he loves me too.

Sam and I were in his room, hanging out. We were both sitting comfortably on the bed, talking, while Grey's Anatomy was playing on Netflix. He suddenly turns around and looks me straight in the eyes. I could feel myself tense up, hoping for him say he loves me. He has been the best person to hang out with, I love to laugh and go places with him.

Is that love?

"Ashlyn Neil, I've been meaning to tell you something for such a long time..." He begins to say. He grabs both my hands and kisses my knuckles softly. I begin to blush at his cuteness.

"Yes?" I ask, smiling.

As he begins to speak, his face, his appearance, everything about him, begins to change. His golden hair faded into a dark brown shade and his clothing was swapped with black skinny jeans and a black sweatshirt. In fact, his face, wasn't even his anymore.

Sam wasn't even the person that sat before me three seconds ago,

the person was Colby.

"I hate you."

"Colby?" I asked, shocked.

"Who does it look like I am?" Colby says, yanking his hands from mine. "If you thought we would ever be together, stop thinking. Honestly, just kill yourself. You've only competed against me to get close to me, but of course you lost every event in our competition."

"That's not true," I murmur, looking down into my lap.

"You're a bitch to think that. Yes, it's true. I'm better and I always have been."

"Why tell me this now?" I say, tears brimming my eyes.

"At one point in my life, I thought of you as someone I could love," He rudely says.

My mind got confused at this information, he thought of me as something more too?

"But then I remembered, you're just an annoying asshole who loves to take away other people's happiness," He finishes.

"Colby Brock, I know you. You're not actually this cruel," I stammer, now actually spewing tears.

"Oh but you don't. You're selfish, face it." He stands up and all of a sudden the scene changes. We're at the mountain we were at, the day Ellie and I showed him and Sam around California.

"Why'd you bring me here?" I question, looking around, "This can't be happening."

Colby walks by the ledge where he and I took our first picture together, when we could've been friends.

"Remember this? I thought of liking you, but then I remembered I had your hot best friend to fuck with," He says, crouching over the spot.

I start bawling quietly, "Colby, take me back, fucking now." I bury my face in my hands.

He walks over to me, concerned. "Don't cry baby, I want to see your beautiful face." He picks my hands off of my face. I look up into his eyes, believing his words. Oh how stupid I am.

He smirks. A devilish smirk. A menacing smirk that will rattle all the organs in your body.

"You thought," He steps away from me, "In Highschool, did you ever think about the opportunities you ripped away from other kids? Ellie, for example. She could've been more popular than you, she could've felt like she was worth something."

"Ellie's my best friend, she is worth everything," I sternly say back.

"But only to you. If she weren't friends with you, she could've been student council body president, but didn't run so it didn't ruin your chances," He points to me. "You ruined opportunities, you're selfish. You did what you did in Highschool, so you could compete with me. But you never won anything from it."

"I'm n-not selfish," I sniffle.

He moves quickly in front of me, his tall, lean body standing above me. He angrily says into my ear, "I loved you, Ashlyn Neil."

I couldn't move but looked down, "You never loved me, Colby Brock."

"But you loved me."

"I know, but I don't want to love you. I can't," I cry, tightening my fists. He shoves me to the edge of the mountain. I look down, and the drop was enormous. My legs begin to tremble and my face shakes at how high up we are.

"Jump," He says, nudging my arm. And then shoving me off the cliff.

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I sit straight up.

That might've been the most cliche and chilling dream I have ever experienced.

When did I start living in a movie?

I had just woken up, alone in Sam's bed.

My forehead beat sweat and I couldn't seem to catch my breathe. I inhale and exhale immensely and wipe my brow. It was a nightmare. Not reality. I couldn't believe what my brain was making me go through. Was everything that Colby said just my fears that I've never really thought about?

Yes.

He can't actually get into my dreams. What a creep.

I'm shook. Shaking. My nerves are sending me chills.

I look that I'm still in my clothes from yesterday, I haven't even brushed my teeth or changed into pajamas. What a crazy night.

I try wiping my sweat away as best I could and pull the blankets off me. I walk out his bedroom and find him making breakfast in the kitchen. Or at least, attempting to?

"Hey Ash! You slept for such a long time, you must've been real worn out from last night," Sam laughs, setting up two plates with toast and eggs.

"Morning Sam..." I yawn, "When did you have time to make this food?" I ask, sitting down.

"Well, it's like one in the afternoon. I only got like six hours of sleep since I usually just wake up at nine anyways so I hit the grocery store while you were asleep," He says, putting some very crispy bacon on our plates. "Crap, I think I burnt the bacon."

I giggle, "Ha, it's fine. I like my bacon burnt and crispy." I begin to eat the breakfast. Or is it brunch?

"Cool, I normally make it pretty fine but I instead, I made the eggs super fine. Guess I swapped quality of bacon for the quality of the eggs," He laughs, sitting across from me and eating the toast.

"It's really good dude," I say, chewing but covering my mouth.

"Awesome, I felt like I owed it to ya for making you commit an illegal crime last night," He says, chewing with his mouth open. Boys.

"Haha, you sure did," I say, munching on the bacon.

We start talking some more about other things. I was about to finish my plate when someone opened the door.

Colby.

He wasn't looking up when closing the door and locking it behind him when he said, "Hey Sam, uh, do you know where Ash-"

But I cut him off, "Right here, Brock."I roll my eyes and stand up. I don't want to see his face, especially not after I saw him and my best friend getting freaky in my bed last night.

"Look, it's not what you think happened last night, Ash," He says, walking over to the table.

I ignore his speaking, "Thanks so much for my brunch, Sam," I say, hugging him. He stands up to hug me back.

"Of course," He says, food still in his mouth.

"I had fun last night," I say in a seductive manner, winking as I begin to leave. "Let's hang out tomorrow?" I smile, opening the door as Colby is watching, looking dumbfounded. I'm hoping Colby is thinking we did the deed last night too so he knows what we felt when we caught them.

"Sure...?" Sam replies, little confused.

"See ya, Sammy," I open the door and head out.

I couldn't bare to stand in the same room as Colby. Not for awhile at least.

I key into my door and open it. Ellie gets up off the couch. I turn around, to lock the door, but immediately roll my eyes.

I couldn't look at her either.

"Ash! I was worried where you were last night, you didn't come back to the apartment," She says, hugging me.

I hug awkwardly back, lightly touching her. "I'm fine, I was with Sam while you and Colby did, whatever you did," I say disgusted.

"It's not what you think," She says sharply.

"Really? 'Not what I think' Bullshit, Sam and I know what we saw," I snap.

"We couldn't resist, it was like an in the moment thing," She justifies.

"I can't believe you would do that, El! Like, why him. Why then?" I shout, spinning to look at her, dead in the eyes.

"Nothing bad happened, it's not like you like Colby anyways, why do you care?" She shouts back.

"You're my best friend," I state.

"And you're mine. What you think happened, is not what happened," She deadpans.

"Ugh, gross. My enemy and my best friend."

"Colby and I did make out a lot, things did get heated but-"

I barge in, "I don't want to talk about last night anymore! Details suck, and I can't even bare to look at you," I say, reverting myself to my room.

"But Ash!-"

"Nope, today is my work day. I'm staying in my room to only work on editing my videos," I say to her on the other side of my half open door, "Only come in when you're dying." I slam the door shut.

I trudge my way to my bed and bellyflop onto it. I don't want to deal with this crap.

They had sex.

End of story.

I bring my knees up to the fetal position. A wave of emotions hit me, hard. The ocean rained.

And I automatically thought of Colby's eyes. Ocean eyes.

Then my eyes began to water, my sides began to ache, and my heart began to shatter.

I was full on bawling my eyes out, beneath the sheets of my security blanket. I miss Kansas now.

Homesick, is what I feel.

I've been saying I hated Kansas, but that was my home. My family is there. Even if my sister is in Connecticut, attending UCONN for college, her home will be Kansas.

I told Ellie that I was working, but I barely did any work.

I laid in my bed, staring up at the ceiling thinking about my future, my past, and my present.

For hours,

and hours.

At around eight o'clock, I checked my appearance in the bathroom and made sure I didn't look like I had just been crying. When I was.

I crack open my door just a smidge and find nobody outside. I quietly walk into the kitchen and grab a box of cereal, milk, a bowl, and spoon. I have to have dinner, might as well have breakfast for it then.

As I'm eating my cereal, I get a text from my sister, Kate.

K: Hey sis, how's Cali? Haven't talked to u in a longgg timeee

A: Fine, I think I'm lokey homesick 4KS tho

K: Same

K: Srry I missed ur grad party, heard it was LIT:(

A: No prob thx 4 jus sending money lmao

A: It's this month's rent bro:P

K: Cool well im headin to KS in 2 days, u should come visit 2 ITS MA'S BDAY REMEMBER

A: Crap I forgot!! Guess I'll fly in and surprise Ma for her bday 2.

K: Sick, cya then kid.

A: Aight byeee

Kate, you a life saver. I needed this.

Home.

I'll even stay for a week! Yeah, I think a week is long enough. I'll celebrate a birthday week with my Mom.

I log onto my MacBook and get working on finding a flight for Kansas in two days. It took me about an hour to search for the cheapest flight but I did find one, and I'm leaving Cali for a week in two days. I'll be away, and I can finally be in Kansas without Colby for another week more.

I hate him.

I can't look at him or Ellie.

They're both so good looking too, it makes it even harder.

I sigh and throw my head back. I am such a mess.

Colby the heartbreaker? Fuck you.

I like you too but fuck you.

I hate liking my rival.

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This story is based around S&C's life bc I know, they live in a mansion with the other guys + Devyn now but its ma storyy brooo. One day, they'll move into the mansion once the story progresses s'more. Hehehe and hopefully Colby and Ashlyn can get along. Thanks for 400+ reads too<33

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