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Compton, California 📍

Kamiri Al'Malik Baker | KB

"Maw!" I yelled throughout her house, dropping my keys on her dining room table.

"Im in the kitchen baby!"

"Hey Maw." I went over to her, hugging her and kissing her cheek.

"Hey Grandma baby." She stood at the counter cutting peaches.

i love peaches.

"Can I—"

"No." She popped my hand. "This for my cobbler."

"That nasty ass shit." I mumbled, mugging her.

"What was said?" She held her ear.

"I said just make sure you leave me some peaches on a dish."

"Mhm. What you come over here for?" I watched her as she swiftly moved around the kitchen. She reminded me so much of my mama.

Besides being evil.

My grandma would never.

"Nothing really." I shrugged.

"Kamiri. Look at me." She stopped what she was doing to look me in my eyes.

"You look sad baby. What's the matter?"

Shrugging, I looked back down at my hands.

"Where's that girlfriend of yours?"

"She ain't my girlfriend no more."

"And why is that? She the reason you sad?"

"I guess."

"What can I do with I guess? How can I make you feel better if you won't talk to me?"

"She the reason I'm sad but it ain't her fault. I broke up with her." I shrugged.

"Well why?"

"Cause." I shrugged. "Ionkno."

"...And now you sad?"

"Yes."

"Sounds like you in a bit of a pickle." She raised her eyebrows.

"Maw." My face dropped.

"What? You not expressing yourself Kamiri there's no way I can help you or even understand."

Sighing, I got ready to vent.

"Maw I like this girl so bad, on crip. I be thinking bout her lil ass all the time." I started to stare off into space.

"She so innocent but don't let that fool you she got a slick ass mouth. And she always got an answer for everything. I like that in her though."

"She can't cook, she can't drive, she can't even fight but that's okay." I nodded.

"And when I tell you that girl can eat." I raised an eyebrow. "Her ass greedy as hell."

"Then Maw she so damn pretty." I smirked. "I really got the prettiest girlfriend."

"Had the prettiest girlfriend." Maw corrected making me nod in agreement.

"You know what else was pretty?" I perked up, biting my lip.

"Boy." She hit me with the rag she had in her hand. "I don't wanna hear about that."

I chuckled, throwing my head back in laughter. "I meant to say that in my head. My fault."

"I miss it though. I miss her."

"So what the fuck did you break up with her for stupid?"

"Why you gotta be mean about it?" I scrunched up my face.

"Al'Malik." The tone in her voice let me know she was serious.

I didn't say anything, collecting my thoughts to make sure i said the right thing.

"I just don't want her to leave me."

"So you leave her.."

"Before she can leave me." I finished off for her.

"Baby you gotta stop thinking everybody out to get you. Did she ever make you feel like she'd leave you?"

"No. She always had my back." I admitted.

"See you going about this whole relationship thing wrong. You can't give her all you got cause you thinking of all the possible ways it can go wrong. You got problems with commitment but sometimes in life we just have to let go, you feel me crip?"

"Yeah I feel you thug." I chuckled, thinking a lil bit. "She think I'm messing wit another female."

"How the hell? Are you?"

"Hell nawl. Just a lil misconception."

"Spell it."

"Girl you know I barely know what it mean." I waved her off. "We was on the phone and some girl that be around started talking and she thought I was talking to her. Like she was my shorty or some."

"Who the girl?"

"Some lil wet named Poison. I barely know ol girl but she like to think she funny." I frowned thinking bout her.

"Poison?" She raised her eyebrows.

"Same thing I said."

"Well have you tried talking to her?"

"Of course I tried. Ion want her thinking I'm fucking round on her when I ain't. She ain't tryna hear shit I'm saying though."

"Give her time." She smirked at me.

"You tryna be funny?" I frowned.

"No." She shrugged. "She honestly needs time. She probably hurt."

"I don't know what for when that ain't the case."

"She don't know that."

"She could if she'd just hear me out."

"Would you want to hear her out?"

"She a be dead Maw ion even play like that." I shook my head.

"Boy." She popped my shoulder.

"I remember she a be calling a nigga back to back now she won't even answer her phone." I frowned.

"Back to back? Why she acting like that? She making the team look bad." Maw scrunched her face up.

"Hell you tryna say?" I jerked my head back.

"That she supposed to boss up. Fuck is you, her first boyfriend?"

"Nawl but I did take her virginity." I admitted.

It's like everything she was doing came to a stop and she looked over at me. "Are you fucking dumb?"

"Huh?"

"Very fucking dumb." She nodded, answering her own question.

"Girl ion preciate you insulting me. I'm learning dang."

"Shut yo ass up. I thought it was one thing but you took a piece of this girl and now y'all not talking. I can't imagine how this baby feels." She shook her head. "What the hell you waiting on?!"

I pursed my lips, staying quiet.

"Jesus be a damn fence. Armani came by here to apologize today."

"And what you say?" Instantly my face scrunched up.

"I slapped the shit out of her lil ass. Gone push my mama down. She lost her mind?"

"Deffly." I nodded.

"I just want my family back Kamiri. I'm so sick and tired of us being broken apart." She shook her head and I won't lie that shit broke my heart.

"Maw—"

"No you don't understand. I can't even have a simple family function without someone pulling out a gun! It's not fair to me!"

I sighed cause not once have I ever sat and thought about how that made my grandma feel.

Ian never sat and thought about how any of my actions would effect my peers. I was always thinking bout me, for myself.

Pretty damn selfish to the ones that care bout me.

"You know Butta Mae losing her memory?"

"Nuh-uh." I perked up.

"She is Kamiri. She think im her mama." She shook her head.

"Hol up.—"

"Yes Kamiri she getting older. Even her macaroni and cheese was a little watery. I had to make a whole new tray."

I knew I wasn't supposed to laugh but I couldn't help it. "Maw."

"Stop laughing boy. You joking but it ain't too long till—"

"Stop." I instantly ceased my laughter.

"Kamiri I'm serio—"

"Stop Maw." I shook my head. "Ion even wanna think bout that."

"It's gone happen eventually baby. And if ion prepare you for that, I've failed you as your grandmother. As your parent. You can't be living your life scared to be alone. Everybody ain't always gone be there, you gone have to be there for yourself."

With them last few words, she kissed my forehead and went back to making her peach cobbler.

Everything she said stuck in my head and left me thinking. Especially about wanting her family back.

Sorry for her and what was to come to one of her grandsons.

Maybe a even be both. Depends on how I'm feeling really.

My phone rung and I immediately pulled it out thinking it was Buddha. You know how many times I called this girl in the short span of last night and today? Motherfuckers don't wanna pick up they phone.

I rolled my eyes on the slick seeing it wasn't her but Tonio. "What?"

"Damn bitch ease up."

"Why the fuck you calling me regular call?" I frowned.

Ion give a fuck who you is. Don't ever call me regular call. That's some set up ass shit bitch like who all you with?

"My bad, damn. What's wrong with you, why you acting like that?"

"Man wassup?  What you needed?" I felt myself getting agitated.

"I was just calling you to tell you to come over here. Squirrel and Chauncey got the whole hood at the crib."

"The whole hood? You ain't kicking people out my shit?" I stood up. I hated for people I didn't know to be all up in my house, knowing where I layed my head.

"I was but I called you cause I knew it'll be more effective if you was here. People actually listen to you."

"Man alright. Gimme like 15."

"Bet." I hung up and looked over at the empty kitchen.

"Maw!"

"Yes?!" I followed the sound of her voice to her room. She sat on her bed sorting out some pills in a pill box.

"I'm bout to get outta here."

"Alright baby." She stood up, meeting me halfway for a hug.

"It's anything you need me to get while I'm out?"

"No I'm good ion need anything. I left them peaches on the counter for you. You be good hear? And talk to that girl! I love you."

"I love you too!" I called out while I went to the kitchen to pick up the Ziploc bag of peaches.

bout to fuck these up.

♛

Compton, California 📍

Vadah Avani Parker | Buddha

"You ready?!" Aubrielle hollered throughout my house.

"Yeah, I'm coming!" I slipped my feet in my white GG slides.

"Sissss!" Zaza called out from her room.

"Wassup?"

"You look cute, where you going?"

"Out with Aub."

"Sound like you done finally found yo bestieee." She gassed making me roll my eyes playfully.

"Bye."

"Lady asked how you're doing."

"Okay and Lady can call my phone just like how everybody else does."

"You heard her girl." She chuckled. I guess they were on the phone.

"Alright Za."

"Alright sis. I love you, be safe!"

"I will." I shook my head and walked back to my room.

I picked up my Rosewater lipgloss and sprayed a little bit of perfume on my body.

Grabbing my wallet and my lanyard with my keys on it, I switched off my light and started to make my way downstairs.

I never understood no shit like that. Like girl if you wanna see how I'm doing it ain't nothing to call me right quick. Shit, you can even come over here and have a talk with me.

Bitches be doing the most.

Ever since all that shit went down, there's been a major shift in my sister's and I's relationship.

We not bout to act like shit was sweet, cool, fine and dandy cause it wasn't. But at least we talked to eachother. We don't even speak anymore.

"You ready?"

"Mhm." I rubbed my lips together following behind her and Tiggy.

"What's wrong? You look irritated." She stood behind me as I locked the door.

"Nothing." I shook my head. "I'm just sleepy."

"Okay so once we drop Tiggy off we can get something to eat and head back to my house. Watch movies till we fall asleep?"

"Yeah that's cool." I loved how she always took what I wanted to do into consideration.

"We go see my Da?" Tiggy asked from the backseat.

"You gone stay witcho Da." She mumbled making me chuckle a little.

♛

"Girl get yo ass out the car."

"Imma just wait in here until you done." I shrugged.

"Vadah come the hell on. If you stay out here it ain't gone be no damn A/C cause I'm taking my keys."

"He put you up to this?" I squinted my eyes at her in suspicion.

"Girl no, I barely even talk to him. Just come on."

"I wan my Daddyyy." Tiggy whined, pulling on his mother's arm.

Sighing, I unbuckled my seatbelt and followed her up the well known pathway.

"Hey y'all." She smiled, walking in first.

"Aubbbb!" They smiled. There were a couple of faces I've never seen before but the I knew the rest.

"How y'all doing." I followed behind her quietly. I wasn't just about to walk in someone's house and not say anything to the people who were here before me.

"Why you come in here all formally like you'on know who we is?" Freaky was licking icing off his fingers.

"Buddhaaaa." They gassed. Some of them stood up to hug me.

"Hey Auntie." Moriah hugged my legs making me pick her up.

"Hey baby." I bounced her on my hip. "You missed me?"

"Mhm." She poked my face.

"Waddup sis." Los nodded.

"Washannin beautiful." Some really pretty girl smirked at me causing me to wave politely.

"On what she ain't pretty as hell?" She looked over at a dude she was sitting next to.

He watched me with hooded eyes making me kind of uncomfortable. "Yeah she look good forsure."

"Thank you." I shifted my weight from my left leg to my right, looking around.

"It ain't no thang." The girl licked her lips.

"Posion you stupid." He nudged her laughing all hard. I felt myself starting to get mad. I hated when people laughed around me without me knowing what the fuck was so funny.

"Antonio!"

"Yeah?!" Aub made her way to the kitchen, where his voice traveled from.

"Ion give a fuck Squirrel. You'on just bring people to my house. This where I lay my head at. You spinnanight here sometimes. You gotta move smarter than that cuh." Kamiri popped Squirrel in the neck.

"My ba— man why you gotta hit me? You heavy handed." He whined before his eyes fell on me.

"Big sis." He pouted, walking over to me.

"Moveeee." Moriah pushed his face, crying.

"No this my big sister." He stuck his tongue out at her.

"So. Her my Auntie." She rolled her neck.

"I knew her first."

"Fuc—"

"Moriah." Marv spoke warningly.

"Sorry Daddy." She sheepishly layed her head on my shoulder.

"That boy a fatherrrrrr." Tonio gassed, coming out the kitchen with Tiggy on his hip and Aub trailing behind him. "Oh wassup sis."

"Hey." I waved.

"Well." Aub pursed her lips. "We bout to get outta here."

"Y'all just got here." Squirrel pouted. "Can I come with y'all?"

"No! I go with them. You stay here." Riah mugged Squirrel. Ion know what her beef was with him.

"Girl fu— ooouuugghhh Jesus be a damn fence. I HATE kids." He grumbled, stomping away.

"Let me holl'at you." Kamiri nodded at me making everything go quiet. Ion even know why they did all that for his ass.

Like who the fuck was he? The Debo of Compton?

"No I'm about to go." I put Moriah on her feet and pulled the back of my dress down.

"Vadah come here man." He sighed. I knew one thing he hated was private discussions to happen in public.

That Poison chick started chuckling and that made me look over at her.

"What the fuck is so funny?" I mugged her.

"Oop." Kris instigated.

"My bad baby." She held her hands up in defense still chuckling and that made me angry. Cause bitch now I feel like you taking me as a joke.

"Bitch it's best you just sit there." He mugged the shit outta her.

"Vadah, come the fuck on." He grabbed my arm and started dragging me to the back of the house.

"Move. I got feet." I snatched away from him.

"Man why you onnat?"

"Boy what you want?" I sighed in a bored manner.

Honestly, I was done crying. I felt like all those tears I cried went to nothing.

Like bitch three days? Really?

"You acting like that for nothing cause I don't even know that damn girl." He shook his head.

"Who is she?"

"Ol girl from downstairs."

"Ohhh that bitch." My eyes shifted into slits. "Why the fuck she think shit so funny? Now ion believe you."

"You don't have to believe me. I'm telling you ion talk to that bitch."

"Shoot her."

"What?"

"You say you'on talk to her. Go shoot her ass." I shrugged.

"P you talking crazy." He shook his head. "C'mere."

"No." I frowned.

"Man what? You did all that. I'm finally in yo face and this how you act?"

"It shouldn't have taken that long for you to be in my damn face."

"It was three days." His expression quickly dropped.

"I don't give a fuck if it was one. You don't do shit like that, period. If I would've did that to you—"

"I woulda—"

"No shutup. I'm a bad bitch, you can't kill me." I held my hand up in his face, already knowing what he was about to say.

Like damn you always tryna kill a bitch off.

"What is it that you wanted?" I raised my eyebrow.

"Why the fuck you acting like that?" He scrunched his face up.

"I don't know." I shrugged. "I thought I wanted you back. God said give me that neck."

"Stop playing with me." He started walking up to me. "You'on believe ian been fuckin round on you?"

"Boy move. I'm not fucking playing. Don't touch me."

"Ian fuck with nobody else Vadah. I'm telling you I'm just tryna sort everything out."

"Okay."

"Why you acting like you don't care?" He frowned his face up.

"Cause I don't care no more." I shrugged. "Get out my way."

He blocked me from walking out the door and I felt myself getting agitated.

"Kamiri get the fuck out my way dude. You been ignoring me, go back to doing that."

"I told you why."

"Okay and you could've did all that without having me second guessing myself."

"Them wasn't my intentions."

"Yeah cause like always, you were only thinking bout your fucking self. Movvvveeeeee."

"Man just chill out." He blocked the door way.

I huffed standing still, punching my right fist into my left all while looking towards the ceiling. "I'm finna steal yo ass on hood."

"You finna what? On who?" He widened his eyes.

"BUDDHA YOU READY?!" Aub's voice traveled to the back of the house.

"YES!" I tried my damnedest to push his slinky body ass out the way but I was a slinky too so ion know why I thought that would work.

"Get the fuck out my way." I was trying to get out of his hold. So now all you heard was a bunch of shuffling.

I started to cry because at this point, I was frustrated. I wanted to leave, I wanted a kiss, I wanted to hit his bitch ass, I wanted to scream.

I'll have a number three please.

I cocked my hand back and connected it to his face making him cease his movement.

it was at this moment that i knew i was about to get fucked.

"You think shit a game till I beat yo ass. Don't be putting yo Goddamn hands on me. Fuck you up in here."

"Fuck me up then."

He grabbed me up my neck faster than I can say, mamasaymamasamamacusa.

"You think I'm playing?" He asked, looking me dead in my eyes.

I said nothing, licking my lips as he kept the hold he had on my neck. His hand came up to my mouth and he ran his thumb across my bottom lip.

I sucked it into my mouth and that was enough to make him smirk and back me up into the room.

We kissed eachother hungrily as we made our way towards the bed. His hands crept up my thighs, pulling my t-shirt dress up above my head.

I decided to help him, unclasping my bra on my own cause a bitch was impatient and this the moment I've been waiting for.

I sighed in pleasure when his tongue connected to my clit. I don't think I'd ever get used to his tongue.

This nigga knew what he was doinggggg, okay?

"Mm." My eyes rolled to the back of my head when I got that familiar feeling in the pit of my stomach.

"Stop that shit." He mumbled, pulling me back towards him when I tried to run and inserted a finger in my wetness.

"Fuck Kamiri." He looked up at me, continuing to eat me all while pumping his fingers