sorry y'all. got into ah fight and got suspended for nine damn days. 

(excuse all mistakes.)

Compton, California 📍

Kamiri Al'Malik Baker | KB

"Yeah but Flash too?" Tonio frowned.

"Both of them." I scrunched my face up as we walked in the abandoned house.

"Flash got a daughter though. Think about that. Another father-less child." He began to walk faster to get beside me. He was really tryna reason.

"Ion care really." I shrugged nonchalantly.

"KB stop. Just stop walking and think cuh." He grabbed my shoulder. "Imagine how you would feel if Tiggy had to grow up without me around."

"It ain't the same T. You ain't goin' roun' gettin' into it with muhfuckas. You do yo shit and stay out the way. Don't nobody throw salt on yo name. This bitch dying cause he do the total opposite. Don't get the two confused."

With that, I continued walking towards the basement.

"He down there." Jerm spoke. "Ain't talkin' tho."

definitely my blood.

"Preciate that." I dapped him before walking in that direction.

"You steady laughin' like something funny my nigga. Ion see the fucking joke." Los's voice boomed through the door. A couple of people spoke as I walked in.

"Cause you niggas funny man. What's wrong with me laugh— Oh KB! Favorite cuzzo what it do homaayy?!" Nasiah smiled with a bloody mouth.

"Beat that nigga ass." I blandly spoke, sitting up on the washing machine, hoodie on, head down, hands stuffed in my jacket pockets.

"That's how we doing family?" Flash asked. I guess tryna be sarcastic.

nasiah's brother for those of you who don't remember.

"Beat his ass too." I nodded.

It was clear that everybody forgot who the fuck they was dealing with.

I was going soft, muhfuckas forgot a nigga was crazy.

Gotta bring that shit back.

I jumped down from the washer and walked over to the table in the corner.

Had a bunch of tools and shit that was never used for their rightful cause.

I picked up a hunter's knife and examined it.

"What you gone do with that big cuhhhhh?" Kris laughed.

I chuckled before walking over in Flash's direction. I peeped Tonio shook his head.

"Sit him down." I directed. I wasn't reallly in my right mind so I wasn't paying attention to shit Tonio was tombout.

He was badly beaten, blood leaking from his face dripping to his mouth.

Just how I liked it.

 "KB—"

I sent a punch to his mouth, cutting him off. 

"You was there? At the gas station?" 

"Wha— what gas station?" He looked genuinely confused, looking like he'd cry.

"He wasn't there." Nasiah shook his head.

"But you was there." Los said making him nod.

"That's a shame, got yo lil brother dragged into this shit. The reason he die gone be yo fault." He added.

"KB ion know shit bout no fucking gas station man. Just please. You know I gotta take care of Teiona." Flash shook his head referring to his daughter. I seen Tonio look over at me with pleading eyes.

"Yeah so just let him go. He don't know shit." Nasiah nodded.

"So you gon' let us know who else was at that gas station? Cause it was another nigga." Los asked Nasiah.

"Aye ion really even give a fuck." I knew he wasn't gone snitch and I wasn't 'bout to torture him for answers.  I just wanted to hurt him. I wanted him to feel the same way I felt. Helpless. Sitting in that chair tied up, watching yo lil brother get tortured in front of him. 

Like it ain't nothing you can do to protect the one you care about the most.

"Jerm do me a favor, and hold shorty head." I nodded.

I looked over at Nasiah who had his head down. 

Looking helpless.

"Somebody move him right in front of his brother. I want him to see this shit." 

Tonio dragged his chair over, sitting him right in front of Flash.

"You know at one point we all used to be close." Flash started.

"Well, y'all not no more." Los was real territorial.

"KB please man. Ian never did you nothing."

I threw my head back in laughter. I found it funny how everybody was hard-body, haha, akikikiki. But when that pressure got applied motherfuckers was begging and pleading.

"You won't talking that shit when you got ocky, tryna lil boy me in front of my family. Then made me act a fool in front of my grandma. Gon pull yo blick out on me bout' some bitch. What you gon' say? You ain't mean it? Fuck outta here."

"Hold his head Jerm." I repeated.

"Man I hate when you do this." Jerm frowned, holding his head steady.

I moved to the side giving Nasiah a clear view as I took the knife I held in my hand to his little brother's eyelid, cutting from the left side to the right.

He let out an ear piercing scream and I looked over at Nasiah who squinted. Like his brother, screaming was hurting him.

Good.

"Open yo eyes bitch boy." 

"I cant." He cried.

That made us laugh. 

"I wasn't even talking to you. That would be inconsiderate of me."

"I hate everything about this evil ass nigga." Kris laughed.

I continued to cut his eyelids off, detaching them completely from his face. 

So now this bitch was all eyes. No lids.

"Better speak up Nasiah. It ain't gone do shit but get worse I swear." Los shook his head.

"And not for you. For him." He added.

"Carefully give me that bottle of acid." 

Kris screamed. "Nigga said carefully." 

"Carefully throw it on his face too."

"Naw I want Tonio to do it." I nodded with a smirk. 

"Fuck outta here cuh." He shook his head. "You wrong. You know you wrong. Leave me outta that."

"And I ooppppp." I laughed.

"Got some you wanna say?" Jerm asked Nasiah. Flash would not stop fucking screaming.

"His ass not gone talk." I took the cap off the bottle of acid. "We gone have to figure this shit out ourselves."

"Let me throw it!" Kris jumped.

"Throw it on eeeemmm!" I laughed.

"You ain't shit but the devil." Nasiah looked at me with glassy eyes as he watched his brother deteriorate in front of him.

"I know." I nodded, just staring at Flash.

"We should've known when you set that church on fire." He laughed humorlessly.

"Los roll that tire over here." I ignored him.

"Ohhhh we finna cook this nigga too?" Kris asked with wide eyes.

I picked up a gallon of gasoline and watched Los throw the tire over Flash's body. He looked weak, battered and beaten. Face unrecognizable. 

I began pouring the gasoline all over his body.

"Cook that shit up K!" Kris laughed, dancing. Didn't nobody like to watch somebody die more than him. He was a such a fucking instigator.

"KB please." Flash begged hoarsely.

"When you was taking them pills and nobody knew what they was for." Nasiah continued to talk. 

"Wait what he talking bout...?" Kris instantly stopped laughing.

"Oh y'all homeboy ain't tell y'all? KB was tryna kill himself and none of y'all would've knew." Nasiah laughed shaking his head.

"Shutup Nasiah." I muttered, lighting a match.

"Yo, K what he talking bout?" Tonio furrowed his eyebrows.

"Oh now it's shut up?" He laughed hysterically. He knew he was getting under my skin. 

"What the bottle said boa? Uh.." He snapped like he was trying to remember.

"Oh yea!" He spoke as if a light bulb went off in his mind. "Sertraline."

"Nasiah." I held my head down, chest heaving. 

He just continued laughing. Like something was funny.

"Them depression pills." Jerm mumbled, looking back.

"Remember I found you in the bathroom when you almost overdosed on them bitches? You remember that?"

My heart started to pound and I felt like the walls in the room would close in on me.

Tonio looked over at me with a look on his face.

Hurt.

"Overdose? Kamiri." He frowned.

I ignored him as I lit the match and threw it on Flash, hoping that'd shut Nasiah up. Seeing his brother go up in flames should have him go silent right?

Wrong.

"And you begged me to leave you in there by yourself. Cause you wanted to die. And you had nothing to live for. Remember that?" A tear rolled down his cheek as he shook his head and chuckled.

For a minute I felt bad.

"I remember you'd be chilling with us. Just all the cousins. And yo mama a come snatch you up, slapping you and calling you a devil and shit."

"Don't speak on my mama." I shook my head.

He ignored me. "I always used to ask myself why she did that. Why she called you that. What type of mother calls her son a demon?" 

"Alright Nasiah that's enough." Tonio reached for his waist.

"But now I now. After all these years, I finally know why Auntie called you a demon seed. A devil. Called yo ass Satan in the flesh. I used to wonder but now I know why." He looked at me with hate in his eyes.

I knew that look. 

The look my mama always gave me.

And I knew coming from him it shouldn't have made me feel a way. 

But it did.

So I turned and looked at Flash who was burning to death right before his eyes.

"Cause you are the devil. And you can try to deny it. You can try and wonder why. But you Ain't never gone shake it. You gone carry that name with you throughout yo whole life."

His words were hitting home as my chest heaved up and down. Suddenly, I felt like I was about to have an asthma attack.

"Everything you touch you destroy. Anybody you get close to, you fuck up they life. That girl? Vadah? You better off leaving her alone. Baby got too much going for herself. You ain't good enough boa."

"You ain't shit but a fuck up." He spit the words at me with so much venom.

And I couldn't help but believe him.

A fuck up. 

That's all I was. All I'd been for a long time.

"Alright bitch and you gone end up just like yo brother you keep talking shit." Kris stepped in. They were all speechless at the newfound information.

Ian expect shit else from them. Ian never told nobody none of that.

Not even Tonio. And I told him everything.

"Nasiah don't nobody give a fuck about the shit you saying right now. You must think you spittin' dat real. You know you wouldn't even be in the predicament you in if you, yo bitch, and who ever the fuck ol' boy is ain't run down on lil sis right?" Tonio spoke up.

"And shorty gone. So is yo brother and he ain't even have shit to do with it. Soon, yo ass a be dead too. Just wait till we find out who ol' boy is." Los added.

"Oh!" He begin laughing hysterically. "Oh shit! You really think once my people find out you killed me, they ain't gone come for y'all?"

"Take one of ours, we take one of yours."

"Bitch nigga fuck you." Instantly, Kris, Tonio, Los, and Jerm upped on him, ridding his body with bullets.

I walked out the basement and made a beeline for the bathroom. I frantically opened the cabinets looking for an asthma pump. I made sure to keep one everywhere but I didn't have one on me at the moment. I didn't think I needed it.

My chest continued heaving as Nasiah's words floated around my head. 

I tried my best to ignore them. 

I damn near flipped the bathroom upside down looking for that damn pump.

Couldn't find it though.

I leaned over the sink, breathing hard.

To balance out my emotions, I always tried thinking of what made me the happiest.

So I thought of Vadah.

But then the words 'fuck up' bounced around my head.

And I couldn't help thinking about me not being good enough for her.

I mean I tried to be who she deserved.

But sometimes yo best just wasn't good enough.

I dug in my pocket, pulling out a crumpled up 20 dollar bill.

In it lied 4 percocets.

I popped all four. Dry.

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i hate this chapter. sorry for the length. didn't proofread either.

this book really be going day by day, hour by hour. y'all ready for a time skip or some shit?

y'all mad at my nigga banks for whattttt???? he remind me of my dad so it's really a love/hate relationship.

who's your favorite character?

poison my bitchhhhhh on God idc.

thanks for readinggggg! 💕

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