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Compton, California 📍

Vadah Avani Parker | Buddha

"Vadah." I turned around hearing Kamiri call my name. "Let me holl'at you."

"Ooohhh sound like you in troubleeee." Squirrel instigated.

"Boy." I laughed and stood up from my seat, following him out the den.

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"Where are you taking me?"

"..."

"Kamiri."

"..."

"Wow."

He was walking in front of me so I started making faces and sticking up middle fingers. Making like I was gonna punch him in the head.

"Get yo goof ass in front of me." He stopped and pushed me so I could walk in front of him.

"What you pushed me for?" I rolled my eyes and walked next to him. I made my way to his car, standing there waiting for him to unlock the doors.

I'm childish so I got in the backseat.

"Man get yo ass in the front, ian driving Ms.Daisy." He frowned, mugging me from the rearview mirror.

I wanted to laugh but I just pinched my thigh to stop myself.

"I'm getting in the front because I want to, not because you told me to." I slammed the passenger door.

"Slam my shit again imma beat yo ass." He side eyed me.

and i- oop.

"The fuck eva." I mumbled.

"Slick mouth ass." He was about to connect his phone to the Bluetooth but I wanted to listen to my music.

"Can I play my music?"

He looked at me for a minute before he nodded.

I smiled and connected it, putting my playlist on shuffle.

"Ooouuuu." I smiled at the first song that came on.

"You put yo trust in a nigga stupid hoe how you figure, he won't fuck ya best friend and ya sista. Ah lie to ya, ah then screw ya. Get mad if his homeboys do ya. If he's a nigga don't let him fool ya. They all dogs that's what they do uh." I sung it like I meant it.

Cause I did. You can't trust no nigga no!

"What the fuck is you tombout?" He turned the music down and looked at me.

"I'm singing a song."

"Well pick another damn song, cause this one bout to get you fucked up." He drove to some empty parking lot.

yes daddy..

We just sat in silence. I wasn't gonna say nothing to him.

"Wassup witchu?" He finally spoke up.

"What you mean?"

"Fuck you mean what I mean? Why you been ignoring me?"

"..."

"Oh now you'on know how to talk?"

"..."

"Vad-"

"Who's Samaiyah?" I cut him off.

He looked over at me. "Some shorty I be texting, why?"

is this nigga fucking serious...

I pursed my lips. I felt like my feelings were being played with.

"That's why you been ignoring me?"

"..."

"I can't read yo mind Vadah. Speak the fuck up."

"Okay stop talking to me like that." He was hurting my feelings. "I just feel like you're sending me mixed signals instead of being real with me."

"If you want a nigga to be real with you, you gotta be willing to talk to me. Communicate. Don't be ignoring me. That's some lil girl ass shit."

I stared out the window not saying anything.

"And now you not talking." He huffed. "See this that shit."

"..."

"What you wanna know?" He sighed, laying back in his seat after a few moments of silence.

"Everything. Like I know we aren't in a relationship but I at least deserve honesty."

"Everything like what?"

I rolled my eyes and huffed realizing I'd have to carry this whole conversation.

"Everything like why the fuck you entertaining other girls while you're talking to me. That shit isn't cool." I've been surprising myself all day with the way I've been acting.

my period must be coming.

"Like you said, we not in a relationship." He shrugged. He was acting so nonchalant about the situation and it was making me mad.

"Now if it was the other way around." I squinted my eyes at him.

"If it was the other way around I'd shoot you and his ass." He stared at me with a blank face.

poor nasiah.

"Stop tryna justify it Kamiri. The shit ain't right, period! You playing with my feelings when you could've told me what it was in the beginning so I could've left your ass alone! I should've just listened to my damn sister." I shook my head.

I felt so many emotions at this point and I didn't know how to address them. All I wanted to do was cry.

"Why you yelling?" He side eyed me.

i hate this bitch.

"Kamiri. Fuck you." I unlocked the door and got out.

"Buddha." He got out and grabbed me. "Where the hell you finna go?"

"Move." I was so tired of crying all the damn time. This shit was getting annoying.

"Order a damn Uber." I grumbled angrily wiping my tears.

"Vadah come here bra."

"No! No because here I am actually trying to have a conversation with you and you giving me these stupid ass responses. How do you want me to talk to you and you're just being stupid with your stupid ass?! Move." I shrugged him off me.

"Bra you'on understand."

"Don't you see I'm trying to understand?! Just fucking talk to me."

"Get back in the car cuh. You causing a scene."

"Move. I can walk by my damn self." I snatched away from him.

Slamming the door, I sat down arms crossed. Attitude on full blast.

He still didn't say anything and his silence didn't do anything but anger me further.

"Kamiri I don't think we should talk anymore. Kick it or whatever you wanna call it. I just think you should focus on yourself." I shrugged just over the whole situation.

He looked over at me zeroing his eyes on me before laughing hysterically. "So what? You just gone leave me like everybody else?"

every hood nigga favorite line on bro! 😭

I squinted at him fighting the urge to scream. "I wanna punch you in your head so hard."

"That's what it seem like you doing." He shrugged. "You giving up on me Vadah?"

"Stop tryna guilt trip me." I felt the tears come again from how frustrated I was. "You're in the wrong. Not me. Stand on that shit."

"If you're not ready to only talk to me, and give your undivided attention to me how I'm doing to you, we don't need to talk. Period. I know what the fuck I want and I'm not settling for less than. You need to figure out what it is that you want."

"I want you."

"And a thousand other girls? Untun. That's not how that's gonna work."

"You tryna make me choose?"

"If you wanted me, you wouldn't have to choose. Take me back to Arondae's house." I leaned out the door staring out the window.

"You not even being fair shorty."

At this point I was past frustrated. "BITCH YOU NOT BEING FAIR!"

"You better lower yo voice and watch who the fuck you talking to. Just shut the fuck up and listen cuh, damn."

"Shutting up cause I want to not cause you told me to." I frowned lowkey salty.

It was quiet before he spoke up again.

"Growing up, my parents nem wasn't around. And that shit cut a nigga deep."

"I'm a mama's boy. And when she left me, it left me feeling unwanted."

"I be fucking with different girls cause it make a nigga feel wanted. My mama didn't want me. My daddy didn't. At least somebody do right?"

"So why not just fuck with one person that wants you?"

"Cause what if they leave me?" He asked quietly.

here i go feeling bad and shit.

"Kamiri I wouldn't leave you."

"You leaving me right now."

I sighed. My emotions were overwhelming me and he wasn't doing anything but making me feel bad about how I was supposed to feel.

"I'm not leaving you. I'm simply telling you we need to take time off of whatever this is." I motioned between us. "We can be friends."

"Ion wanna be no fucking friends." He mugged me.

"You wanna be cousins?" I bust out laughing at my own joke.

"You think you funny?"

"I'm not tryna be funny." I was dead as hell.

He had a straight face, steady watching me and that made me laugh harder.

"Sorry. Sorry." I tried to stop laughing. "Whew."

"You retarded. Who laugh at they own jokes?"

I stopped laughing completely and looked at him. "Um me..."

"Slow ass." He shook his head.

"See we off to a good start already. Bestfriend." I nudged his shoulder and he looked over at me.

"Gimme kiss Peanut." He leaned over the middle console.

"Boy no. That's not what bestfriends do." I said matter-of-factly.

"We ain't no damn bestfriends." He grabbed me by my neck, kissing me sloppily.

He used the hand that gripped my neck to control where my head turned.

"Mm." I bit his lip, pulling away. "You can't be doing that Kamiri."

I rolled my eyes at the heartbeat in my pussy.

That shit happened anytime I seen him.

He looked at me, heartbeat. He came close to me, heartbeat. He touched me, heartbeat. His cologne, heartbeat. Just hearing his voice gave me that dumb ass heartbeat.

"Do what the fuck I want."

I looked down at my phone when it pinged.

(310)-345-5372 : Wassup beautiful

(310)-345-5372 : Lol this Nasiah from Wal-Mart

"Im tied of you and this damn phone." He went to snatch it.

He scrunched up his face making my heart beat faster and my eyes widen.

he can't get mad we friends na.

"Who this?"

"Nasiah from Walmart." I folded my lips inward.

He was studying me, looking me in my eyes and all over my face. Pursing his lips, he nodded and threw it back in my lap.

"You ready?"

"Now you tryna get rid of me?" I pouted playfully, finding it funny.

"Yup." He swerved out the parking lot. "Before I shoot you."

"Awh I wanted to hang with you bestie." I chuckled.

this boy is fuckin crazy.

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07/15/19

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