YOU R MY TORMENT : MY OBSESSION

Riddhima mumbled incoherent things through her hands while she sobbed uncontrollably.

"Mere saath aisa nahi ho sakta ,Vihan kaise Vansh ,no nooo aisa nahi ho sakta ,majak karraha hai wo mere saath,wo vihan hai,mera vansh nahi ,mera vansh mere saath aisa nahi karsakta,maine khud usko khai se girte dekha tha,itna bada game nahi khelsakta wo mere saath,,nahi nahi ,aisa kaise...

"Kyun Vansh ,kyunnnnn,kyun kiya mere saath aisa"
She wailed -the pain of betrayal wrenching her guttt , head throbbing from all the crying she has been doing for last few days

"Riddhima bohut hua ,darwaza kholo,i said open the door damn it,Riddhima, Riddhima "Vansh roared from the other side of door

The Pounding continued ,,it was almost enough to uproot the bathroom door from its hinges ..She feared...facing him,what will he do with her?

"Bas karo ,basss"she screamed

"chale jao yahan se ,chale jaaaoooooo,akela chhod do mujhe"

The pounding of the door increased along with her screaming...

"Riddhima ,darwaja kholo,warna ...."

"Warna kya ,mar daloge mujhe?ya phir Sejal ki dhamki doge,ya beijjat karoge,ya phir ghar se bahar nikaldoge ,jo karna hai tum karo Vansh ,i care a damn!!!!"

"Your wish sweetheart,tum kabhi pyar ki bhasha samjhti hi nahi ho,thik hai,to phir "ye lo "saying this Vansh broke the bathroom door..and what he saw made him pause....in his tracks.

There she was ,,sitting with her head nestled between her bent knees ,and hands wrapped around herself as a coccon ,her hair fell as a curtain sorrounding her , almost touching the floor ... She trembled shivering from the cold or due to the deep grief she was going through,who knows ??

Vansh stood shocked seeing her in that condition

"Riddhima utho ,utho,beemar pad jaoge Tum aise, sweetheart "Vansh said softly crouching infront of her..

When he was about to touch her, suddenly she slapped away his hands....

"Mujhe chhune ki kaushish mat karna Vansh ,dur raho mujhse dur raho"

Riddhima said raising her head , stopping him with her raised finger ,her voice sounded sore.She looked battered ,defeated ,face red,eyes puffy ,but still the fighting spirit never leaving her.

It was' The Riddhima 'that he had never seen ,she looked unreachable and it ,gave him a bad feeling .

His broken ,shattered,unapproachable..wife,
seemed like the reflection of the punishment of his endless sins, , because seeing her in this state,his heart pained,her cries of agony scarring his soul.....

"Main tumhare saamne tumhare hi maut ka maatam manati rahi,roti rahi ,bilakti rahi ,ek pal ke liye bhi daya nahi aayi tumhe mujhpe,,,,haan

Bolo Vansh Rai singhania ,bolo ,aab chup kyun ho ,bolo ,,,,bolllloooooo"she roared......

Vansh remained silent ,he really did have nothing in his defence....

"Oh ,sorry galti ho gayi ,,mai tumhare jawab ke layak kahan,biwi ke naam pe ek khilona hoon mai , nahi ...???.anath hai ,thoda sa pyar jataunga , family ka jhansa dunga to sab...

"Bas Riddhima ,bas mai manta hoon tum gusse mai ho ,aur tumhara gussa jayaz bhi hai ,but yeh sab bakwas Nahi sunnunga mai,tum na hi mere liye koi khilona ho,aur nahi maine tumhe koi jhansa diya hai ....u were the one who came to destroy me ,bo tum thi Riddhima jo kisi aur se pyar karti thi ,shadi se pehle bhi aur shadi ke baad bhi..."

he fisted her hair in his hand and spatted on her face

"batao Riddhima mere gunah to Gina diye tumne,but apne dhoke ki yaad nahi aa rahi hai tumhe..."

his face near hers ,lips almost touching

"meri family ko dhoka diya tumne ,unke feelings ke saath khela ,dadi jo tumse itna pyar karti hai,unko tak nahi bakhsha tumne:aur tum mujhe meri galtiyan Gina rahi ho ,,kuch to lihaz karo,, Ri.dhhi.ma!!hmm

"Tumhari family ko dhoka diya maine ,dard pohunchaya!!!"saying this,she started laughing like a mad woman" ha ha ha ha wohi family ,jo mujhe pata nahi kitne baar marne ki koushish kar chuki hai,jo mujhe meri aukat dikhane mai kabhi piche nahi hatti,Jaleel karti hai ,ek bhi moka nahi chhodti ,ussi family ki baat kar rahe ho na tum......are taras aata hai mujhe tum par ,aisi family hone se accha hai ki bhagwan nae mujhe anath banaya......

"Apni limit cross mat karo Riddhima "

It was his weakpoint ,it must not have been pressed, family meant everything to him,

"Meri family ke bare mai ek shabd nahi ,ek aur shabd nahi ,suna tumne...

"Kyun nahi karungi,jo man mai aaya bolungi aur kar...."

"Enoughhhhhhh chup bilkul chuppp,isse pehle ki mai tumhare sath kuch galat kar baithu,,andar chalo room mai ..saying this he suddenly picked her up on his shoulder ,,,,it was very imbalancing for her ,,blackness clouded her vision and she became limp in his arms

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"Bacche are you feeling better now"

Ridhhima slowly opened her eyes and saw dadi sitting near her in the bed,and strangely there was no sign of vansh

She tried to sit up.

"Na na uthne ki koushish mat karo,doctor nae aram karne ke liye kaha hai,aur tu jisko dhundh rahi hai na bo abhi doctor ko drop karne hi gaya hai ,wo bhi personally" dadi said smilingly

"Dadi "

Kuch bolne ki jarurat nahi hai bacche ,mai sab samjhti hoon,koi tujhpe bharosa kare na kare par mai janti hoon ,tu iss pariwar se bohut pyar karti hai,kitna kuch Saha hai tune hamare liye ,aur siya nae mujhe sab bata diya hai....

Itne dino mai Anupriya ka sach nahi jaan payi iski sharmindgi hai mujhe bacche,par tune bo kar dikhaya jo shayad Vansh bhi hamare liye nahi kar sakta ,,,,

Plz dadi...

Bolne de mujhe Riddhima ,jee halka Karlene de mujhe,,,,mai samajh rahi hoon vansh ko maaf karna tere liye aasan baat nahi hai....par isse mera swarth keh ya kuch aur par mai tujhe hamare ya phir vansh ki zindagi se door jane nahi de sakti ,plz usse maaf karde,mere khatir hi sahi....

"Yeh Matt mangiye mujhse dadi ,isse accha to aap mujh se meri jaan hi mang leti, yahan pe aur rukna ab mujhse nahi ho payega,aap mere bare mai bhi to sochiye,kya aap mujhe bas Vansh ki biwi ke roop mai pyar karti hain ,ek insaan ki tarah nahi ??usse alag hai mera wajood .family mai aap hi ho jisse mai sacche dil se pyar karti hoon ,kam se kam aap to mujhe samjhein .....

"Tu abhi gusse mai hai ,yeh tu nahi, tera dard bol raha hai ,thande dimag se sochh meri bacchi,tu vansh ke bina reh payegi????kya tera dil iski gawahi deta hai"

Riddhima was quite preplexed!!!it literally forced her to think..... what should she do now ,her self respect or her love, thankfully the sedatives given to her, taking her into a deep slumber ,,,dadi and her last words a long distance memory .....

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"Bhai ,yeh aapne accha nahi kiya, bhabhi nae jo bhi galtiyan ki ho ,bo aapse bohut pyar karti hai ,aur apne kaise unko mere haalat ka jimmedar samajhliya?bhabi aisa kabhi nahi karsakti ,wo Anupriya aur Kabir nae unko buri tarah se phasaya tha,aur aapne party mai sabko bula kar unhe bohut beijjat kiya bhai,aap nae unhe gold digger ,dhoke baj aur pata nahi kya kya keh diya ...
.bhai,bo bhi unke janamdin pe,aap akele bhi to confront kar sakte the unhe,aise jaleel karne ki koi jarurat nahi thi party mai pure sahar ko bulakar... wo to aapko apni begunahi ke bare mai kabhi na batati. bhala ho iss baat ka ki mai jab coma mai thi bhabi aake sari batein mere se share karti thi, isiliye maine aapko sab kuch bata diya ....warna..

Vansh closed his eyes, his own words from that night coming to haunt him.The flashbacks of what damage he has done to her,,assulting his senses....

"Riddhima waise issme Kabir ki koi galti nahi ,tumhare sundar si masoom chehre se to koi bhi dhoka kha sakta hai"

"Tum jaisi anath ladki pariwar ka matalab hi nahi samjhegi, isiliye tum na to mujhe deserve karti ho ,aur na hi meri family ko"

"Tumhe bas mere paise chahiye the na,,,how he threw the blank check on her face,how she stared him in disbelief "

"The worst off all - tum kisi ek ki ho hi nahi sakti Rithima" oh god,how could he?

Bhai ,bhai kahan kho gaye aap????

He came out of his thoughts......"hn ,haan sun raha hoon mai,bolo"

Mai yeh bol rahi thi ki,

Bhabi kya hame chhodke chali jayengi,bhai.mujhe to aisa lagraha hai ki......

"Mai aisa kabhi hone nahi dunga siya "vansh almost shouted"aisa kuch hua to mai duniya mai aag laga dunga,wo meri hai ,meri patni hai wo ,usse mujhse Koi nahi cheen sakta ,wo khud bhi nahi ,,,uski jagah yahan hai ,mere paas ,mere ghar mai,i will never let her leave me,neverrrr!!!!

His phone rang..... abrupting his outburst

"Han dadi"" bataiye

"Beta ,tu itna haanf kyun raha hai,itne gusse mai kyun hai"

"Kuch nahi dadi, Riddhima kaisi hai???khana khaya usne , medicines li ??

"Are kahan beta,khana to nahi khaya ,par nurse nae drip Chaddha diya hai, injectables laggaye the usko,to ab wo so rahi hai"

Thik hai dadi ,mai aata hoon......

"Siya tum bhi rest karo,good night"he kissed her forehead

"aap bhi aapna khayal rakho bhaiya,sab thik ho jayega" he smiled slightly,

Then hurried to his room,to his wife

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When he came to his room and saw his wife sleeping so peacefully , looking very fragile ,yet so beautiful ....a sudden sense of possessiveness filled his heart he has to be near her today to calm his erratic self... he couldn't control anymore,she is his wife damn it,atleast he had rights to sleep holding her...

he slipped under the cover,near her sleeping form & encircled his hands on her waist, gripping her tightly ,his face in the nape of her neck, inhaling her scent...

"You are yet not ready Riddhima,but soon you will be mine in all sense,i promise u that"

"Jab mai tumhe galat bhi samajhta tha jaan,tab bhi ,,,tab bhi tumko dur karne ka khayal ek bhi baar nahi aaya mere jahan mai,aur jab mai janta hun ki tum mujhse kitna pyar karte ho,mere family ke liye tum kis hadd tak jaa sakti ho-tumhe lagta hai ki mai tumhe aise hi Jane dunga? Yahin rahogi tum mere paas hamesha ke liye meri bankar,sirf meri bankar... "

Her nearness giving him peace.... his obsession for her only getting stronger ,only getting darkerr .....He was hers and she was his.....only his.....

Riddhima literally had no idea what she had gotten herself in to....

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"Haan professor,ji main kal se join kar rahi hoon aapki Clinic .

Nahi aisi koi baat nahi hai,time pe pohunch jaungi mai ,thik hai ,thank you so much .....sir"

Riddhima was so elated .. at last she got the job .luckily her senior informed her about a vacancy in his clinic ,life will hopefully get back to normal .She will get back to the life she was used to ,before Vansh and Kabir happened ,at last.... Moving on will be difficult ,she knew !!!but what was left for her other than her self respect?gold digger ,my foot ..

Suddenly her phone got snatched from her ear

"Kisse baat kar rahi ho tum"doubt lacing his tone

The audacity of this mannn!!!!

"Vansh mera phone wapas karo mujhe"she gritted her teeth trying to take it from his hands ,while he was taking advantage of his height.

Her height betraying her as always ,She jumped to get her phone back while he stretched his arms to the Highest length...

"Jab tak tum nahi bataogi sweetheart,tumhe yeh phone wapas milne se raha"he chuckled seeing her cute antics ...

"Apne naye boyfriend se baat kar rahi thi ,ab khus,phone do mera"

He angrily pulled her in his arms ,her arms twisted ,pressed behind her back......

"You do have to always press my wrong nerve,don't you Riddhima"

"Dobara mere saath aisa majak kiya to anjaam bohut bura hoga Sweetheart ,tab mera haath tumare haton mai nahi tumhare sundar si gardan mai hoga ,zindagi aur khubsurat ho jayegi Riddhima ,agar tum wafa ka matalab samjho aur wafa karo to ,yaad rakhna "

He left her abruptly,while she was about to fall he caught her again

He whispered in her ear"tumhari jagah meri bahon mai hai Sweetheart ,kisi shadeh se clinic mai nahi "

Riddhima gasped,how did he know?

"Iss room se pair nikal kar dekho,us proffesor ka aisa haal karunga , zindagi mai khudko itni physiotherapy ki jarurat padegi ki .....

"U are unbelievable Vansh,u have gone mad"

"Pagal to mai hoon Riddhima,par kiske liye yeh tum acchi tarah se janti hoon,so jab tak mai raat ko office se lautoon ,behave ....aur ek acchi biwi ki tarah apne pati ke liye saj sawar ke ready rehna,samjhi jaaan"

he whispered in her ear"samajh rahi ho na ,mai kya kahne ki koushish kar raha hoon"

She pushed his chest "mujhe jyada din tak kaid nahi kar sakte tum Mr Vansh Rai Singhania" Riddhima challenged him

"Ye toh waqt hi batayega jaan,till then bye"

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"Boss hamne wo Singapore wali deal crack Karli,

Wo hamare terms and conditions maan gaye"

"Good angre,wo Rio de jenero se jo guns ki supply aane wali thi uska kya hua"

"Sorry boss,hamare aadmi pakde gaye"

"What!how is it possible ,i already bribed the minister,did he double cross me??? stupid b*****d,We did have his MMS right,press mai release karo usse ,suraj dhalne tak mai usse uske post se nikalwa dunga....

Mujhse dusmani bhari padegi tumhe Mr minister,aur Chaddha ko bolo yeh case sambhal lega"

"Ok boss,as you say"

"Aur suno i want 2 body gaurds jo meri bed room ke window ke neeche rahen"

"Kya hua boss ,koi problem???"

"Nahi ,bas tumhare bhabi ko bhagne se rokne ke liye"vansh chuckled

Angre was terrified for Riddhima ,his boss has literally lost it,his madness ,his obsession for her has reached its peak.angre was always on his side , but his bhabhi too deserved some space right?boss has again seized her phone,and also is not allowing her to go out side,at this rate he will suffocate her to death !what he will do with her,only god knows....

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He came to his room hoping to see his wife getting ready for bed, unknown to her he always watches her taking off her jewelleries, applying lotion to her hands and face ,combing her long ,silky tresses ,ohh he always dreamt of doing that for her, pampering her ,caring for her....

But she was not in the room,he checked the bathroom ,no sign of her!!

" Damn it "he swore under his breath

Riddhima , Riddhima ,Riddhima.....

"Kya hua beta ,kyun chilla raha hai"dadi questioned

"Dadi , riddhima nahi mil rahi"he answered annoyed

"Kya beta ,itni tadap ?aaj tak hamare khandan mai koi mard apni biwi ko leke itna lattu nahi hua"dadi joked...

"Dadi i m serious, nahi milrahi wo mujhe"

"Beta wo mere room mai so rahi hai,tu bhi na ek pal ke liye dur nahi ho sakta kya usse?"

"Are u sure ,dadi"

"Haan beta,mere hi room mai hai wo"

"Thank god "Vansh sounded relieved

"Par kyun?dadi,aapke room mai kya kar rahi hai wo??"

"Are yeh bhi mai hi bataun,ja apni biwi se puch "

"Dadi aap bhi na!"

He marched towards dadi's room. He was amused seeing his wife awake , holding her tummy,walking in the room,muttering to herself

"Itna kyun dard karraha hai ?,hai bhagwan ,marjaungi mai"

What has gotten into his wife ,vansh thought ,is she unwell

"Riddhima ,r u fine???"

She was startled...

"Vansh tum yahan kya kar rahe ho"

"Tumhe lene aaya hoon,room mai chalo Riddhima"

"Mai nahi aasakti vansh,mujhe dadi ke sath done do aaj,plz zidd mat karo"

"Kyun nahi aasakti ,chalo mere saath"he was about to drag her holding her hand

"Vansh i have my ....

have my.."oh god this is so embarassing thought Riddhima

"Vansh i have my PMS,,,,,,PLZ "

"What,what PMS..." Realisation dawned upon him

"Oh....

They both were awakard all of a sudden;

Vansh came near his wife ,keeping his fingers under her chin as he made her look at him,oh lord she was so shy!

"Sharmane ki jarurat nahi hai Riddhima, remember meri do behnaen hain,i will take care of it" he said tenderly

"Nahi vansh"

"Shh,u r my wife,it's my duty to take care of you "saying this he picked up his wife & headed towards their room

In their room he laid her in their bed,after giving her medicines he was about to pull up her kurti

"Vansh yeh kya kar rahe ho tum?" She was scandalised

She understood his intention when the hot water bag came into her view...

"Oh ,don't be such a prude Rithima ,u r having your periods ,big deal!!!!"

Riddhima just wanted the earth to swallow her up,what the ...

"Don't stress Riddhima ,as a husband i have the right ,so sleep...& Let me handle it.......

He pressed the water bag on her kurti clad tummy coz his wife was too stubborn to let him lift up her kurti ,his bad ,he could peak a view of her slender waist ,neverrtheless he was happy that he was able to share this level of intimacy with her,his heart was content ....

The medicine taking its effect she fell into a deep slumber.....

She looked so serene,so beautiful sleeping oh god wasn't he so lucky?Vansh mused

He couldn't control kissing her forehead,and pecking her pink lips

"Good night jaan"he wishpered in to her hair

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She woke up in the morning to find her husband snuggled closer to her,his face in her nape,he looked so innocent sleeping ,,who would have thought he will break her heart in to pieces,,,,the hurt is too much,it is too late to start afresh,,,too late ,she will have to find a way out.....from this