Rowan was due over at my house any moment. He was supposed to help me babysit Dakota while we worked on some homework together. Mom and Dad were out for the night, going into the city for their anniversary. I hoped Raven would behave, last time Rowan was over she was a little overwhelming.

I heard tires crunch on the gravel outside in the driveway and I walked over to the door to peek out and see if it was Rowan. When I saw his jeep sitting in the drive my heart flustered. He's here.

I opened the door just as he was walking up the porch steps. "Hi." I said with a smile on my face. For the first time in a long time the smile felt real not forced or faked.

"Hey." He said handing me my bag I left in his car Friday night.

"Thanks." I said taking my bag from him. "Come in." I moved out of the doorway to let him in.

He took off his jacket and backpack sitting them on the floor next to the couch. I shut the front door and locked it out of habit.

"I'm going to go check on Dakota." I said thinking it would be a good thing to do before we got deep into our homework.

Rowan nodded his head, "I'll just go ahead and get things ready."

I handed him my bag telling him he could go ahead and get my math book out of my bag while I went upstairs.

Dakota was sound asleep. I didn't have to worry about him for the rest of the night unless he decided to wake up for a diaper change. Soon he'll be on the verge of potty training and wouldn't need diapers but pull ups. He was looking more and more like my father instead of my mother.

I decided to do a quick check on Raven to make sure she wasn't doing something that would get her in trouble. She was still grounded and it was my job to notify my parents if anything superstitious happens in her room.

Making sure Raven couldn't see me I looked inside her room. This was becoming a reoccurring thing with us fighting so much. We avoided each other as much as humanly possible with living in the same house.

Raven was passed out asleep on her bed with a magazine lying beside her on the bed. I walked closer to the bed and saw the magazine was opened to a page with supermodels. Looking closer at the magazine I noticed things were circled and words were written beside some of the models. I picked up the magazine careful not to wake her. I read some of the words written.

She circled one of the models waists and wrote next to it how she wished she had that skinny of a waist. Another model she circled the models legs and wrote how she wished she was that tall. Every model had a part on them that was circled with an explanation as to why she circled it. I flipped through the rest of the pages and found each page had been marked up with her notes.

I flipped it back to the page she left it on and sat it back on the mattress beside her. I didn't want her to know that I had invaded her privacy. I felt sick. Like I had seen something that I wasn't suppose to see.

I looked at Raven as she slept. How could she want to change everything about her she was perfect. She was healthy that's what mattered. She was my beautiful little sister. I was worried about her. Was there something going on that I had been to oblivious to see?

My mind was going back to the day I caught her stuffing her bra with toilet paper. While many would find that funny and just a phase I also remembered her crying in front of the mirror. There was something bothering her but there was no way she would tell me, she hated me.

You need to hurry up. You left Rowan downstairs. My mind yelled. I turned and walked out of her room trying my best to forget what I had seen. But I knew there was no way I could let it go.

Rowan must have sensed my mood chance and asked me instantly what was wrong. I didn't want to tell him what I had seen but I needed someone's opinion on what I could do to help her.

"It seems like she is going through something, like you said, but isn't it normal for girls her age to be self conscious about their bodies?" He asked me confused. "I only have a brother so I'm not the best person to ask about teenage girls."

I sat down on the couch and thought back to when I was her age. I didn't like my body back then but I never marked up magazines. "I don't know, I'm just worried that it's something else causing her to do this."

"It might be a new trend in her grade. Back when I was in her grade the girls would compare themselves to each other. I just ignored it because I thought it was stupid, judging a girl based on only her looks. However the guys had their own thing going where they would rank the girls based on a system. Maybe that's what your sister is doing now. It wouldn't surprise me if the guys aren't judging the girls." Rowan explained.

I didn't know what he was saying since he went to a different school during that time, but what he was saying did sound reasonable. Maybe this was just all some stupid ranking system that had made Raven think low of herself and that's the reason for the magazine. I sure hoped it was nothing serious.

"Try to make sure you and your parent lift her up on her self confidence. Don't say anything bad about what she's wearing and try to let her be herself. If she's being herself she'll be happy." Rowan said.

I laughed, "Are you sure you don't have any sisters? You sound like you know what your talking about." Joking about the subject made me feel better.

"Well I did grow up with four girl cousins so maybe I picked a few things up along the way." He smiled and rubbed my palm on my lap.

I looked down at our hands and smiled. This had become a regular thing and the scary thing was I liked it.

"So I know that we are supposed to be doing homework... but I have something I've been meaning to ask you. Now if you don't feel comfortable answering it you don't have to I just want to know that I tried every possible thing."

I shook my head. "Okay." What was he going to ask me?

Rowan sat up straight and took a deep breath. "Lennon I know you aren't ready to tell me how it happened but I have to ask you something. If you don't want answer say so and I'll leave now. Okay?"

I was getting nervous now. What was it that he was so scared that it would upset me. "Go ahead."

"I think I might know who he is." He said the words his voice low.

My hands were instantly shaking and I removed them from his. He knew I wasn't ready to say anything yet. I could feel my breathing becoming irregular.

Stay calm.

"Lennon." He said facing me. "Lennon was it Bradley? Did he do this to you?"

I felt like the whole world was on fire. I was on fire. I wanted to scream but all I could do is cry. My tears turned into a flood. I was hyperventilating. Just his name brought me fear. I couldn't I just couldn't.

"Lennon." Rowan wrapped his arms around me. "Sh... Lennon it's okay. He's not going to hurt you ever again. I'll make sure of that." He brought one hand up to my head and smoothed my hair out.

He knew. He knew who he was.

"Breathe. Take deep breaths." He encouraged me.

I laid my head back against his tear stained shirt. I clung to him for dear life as I cried. All the pain I felt when it happened came rushing back. It was real. It did happen and I don't think I was ready to accept it.

"Don't worry Lennon, it will be okay." Rowan rubbed my back.

"You don't understand." I cried. "He is constantly rubbing it in my face. He messaged me a few weeks ago with a message that I knew it could only be from him. He's not done with me."

Rowan's eyes flared with anger but he stayed still holding me against his chest. "Believe me when I tell you, I will make sure he's done with you. He's never going to hurt you as long as I'm here."

The words he spoke made me feel better but not enough to stop the tears. I hated how Bradley ruined me.

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